locked in my heart, with the key thrown away.

it's payback time.

une nuit vous serez un autre regret.

__________________aint it funny how

a melody can bring back a memory.

recently, i've been having such strange dreams.
weird stuff.

i am secretly missing someone, someone and someone.

i cant breathe easy.

HAH.

yesterday i got my sexy bag.
newurbanmale've really sexy salesmen.
:D.
drools.

oh man, i need a job.
ROAR.

[vacuity.]

__________________all of my bruises,

imagined or real.

i woke up to realise that i was dreaming of my dad.

:( :( :( :( :(.
:(((((.

sigh.

the whole day is sliding by.
Guilt.
Emptiness.
Regrets.

my heart feels cold and hollow.

[maladjusted.]

OMG! white rabbit sweets've 2 new flavours, mint and strawberry.
bet you dont know HEH.
it's so niceee. yum yum.

today's a good day, although i couldnt get to sleep last night till 5am. (jialing wasnt sleeping too, and we were watching the same show on the tv!)
i managed to rush down to HONG LIM PARK to watch spanishfly on action.
i insist the dragon-looking thing is so scary, OMG!
and there was this trained dogs show or whatsoever, damn sadistic.
sometimes i just dont know what humans're up to.
i think the dogs're smart, they were busy talking to each other HEH.

then when we were abt to go off for breakfast, i saw this charming little boy.
so i decided to give him a lollipop!
my new lover, i will never forget how he looks like, i'm sure.
WAHAHA.
ah well, then came linda (ming's sis?!?) who asked us to help to queue up for the door gift.
we were free anyway, so we helped.
and the old folks were cutting queue like no tmr.
funny old man left his walking stick right in front of us to CHOP that place and i saw him BRISK walking back to the audience seats.
OMG, why does he need a walking stick if he can walk that fast!
jialing and i couldnt stop laughing at all the old folks and funny auntie, uncles!

good experience though.
and there was this guy who explained to this old ahma that the coupons must be together, and he said something like PANG together.
damn hilarious la!

after the lucky draw, ming, linda, ah pek(jialing) and ah cek(me) went over to han's to eat.
i swear it's one of the worst breakfast ever!
we ordered carbonara with grilled ham and potato salad.
their so called grilled ham was grilled LUNCHEON MEAT.
and the potato salad, i swear i couldnt taste any potato at all, i only tasted raw onion and salad sauce!
and both the servings are PATHETIC please.
ok, i cant stop complaining please, it's just that bad.
the peach tarts and rum balls looks much nicer.
what ming and linda ate looks much much nicer too. (i didnt hear them complaining at all!)
ROAR.

we went to jurong point then.
ok, come to think of it, IT IS ONE OF THE WORST DAY EVER.
ok not really actually.
but still, everything wasnt in our way and all the shitheads were flying around. (ok, i dont know what does that mean, but i just felt like saying that.)
then i came home and i am so sleepy i need 24hrs of sleep.

and i know everyone is jealous of my vintage bag which is seriously vintage!
even the uncle at the medical hall was staring at it!
but ming thought we were going to swim.
HEH.

goodnight world.

i can't hold you tighter but i'll find a way.
outside it's raining and nothing stays,
nothing ever stays.

when you realised someone had completely walked out of your life without a word,

-

it's just funny how someone can change so much.
often, i will say i feel like a changed person anyhow.
but then i'll stop and realise that i'm still in the trying to change.
there's just a me in me, i cant change the way i act.
even if my thinkings're changed, i still act like myself.
i'm still hanjin and i still care for those i used to care for.
no change in that.

i cant just disappear in someone's life.
i guess my method'll never change.
there and then, fade away.
but i'm still around.

now and then, i miss those little moments i had in crescent.
every single moment that seemed so-everyday to us will never be there anymore.
no matter how hard we try.

whatever it is, however everyone'll change.
to everyone i know, i loved, i still love, i cared and always will care for.
i thank you for being part of my life.
to destroy it or to bring laughter to it.
to come and go or to come and stay.
to walk straight out of my life or stay for good.
i thank you.

i'm thinking too much, i know.
that's the result of stoning the whole day.

we had a row.
but yay, it's over.

i couldnt find the bag i wanted to buy.
and i kinda went berserk.

but then again,
i fell in love with this other bag that costs 113bucks more than the previous one.

WAAA, my hard-earned $$$ ahhh.
but in the end, i didnt get it, YET.
i am gonna get it the next time i go back to town.
i am gonna get myself a job man.

life without a job means, spending all day long without an income.
life with a job means, occupied, no time to spend so much! & of cos, $$$.

so jialing and i are gonna job hunt again.

we're, of cos, not money minded, we're just practical and cant bear to spend out hard-earned $$$.

ROMP is good too.

jialing and i were supposed to meet in town at 1130am.
HAH.

look at the time now, she just left her house only, and i am about to leave.
but before leaving, i shall just spread the word for shuzhen.

party@ dxo.
16th march.
tickets going@ 16bucks.

interested? can contact me, i'll help you get back to shuzhen for you.

seems like 16th march there is another party over at zouk.

WOOHOO, party babies.

she's a mystery, and no one cares.

don't believe the truth.

that feeling you feel, doesn't mean it's real.

i miss my daddy.

money, money, money!
it's so funny, in a rich man's world.

uh-huh, uhhhh-huh.
all the things i could do.
if i had a little money, in a rich man's world!

$$$)

(ok, that was my own version of money, money, money.)

the actual one is,

money, money, money.
must be funny, in the rich man's world.
money, money, money.
always sunny, in the rich man's world.

aha-ahaaa.
all the things i could do.
if i had a little money, it's a rich man's world.

NICE SONG, ABBA!

ohhh shake it, i love babies.

omg i am crashing innova right now but peiyin and flora are having their chinese test while i'm blog surfing over here.

and i spotted something over at jw's blog.

"im damn proud of hj cus she's sucha ass lazy but she still managed to get 20..haha seriously its nothing bt the hardwork its all intelligence.. i dont think hj even read her textbooks once properly haha that lazy girl.."

omg, i only have a thing to say abt jw.

JW! you know me too well.

oh! and haha, you shouldnt have blogged abt the secret that i had never read my text before. (later some spy that knows my brother read that will tell my brother then i will be thrown down the building. but nah it's ok, that's a well-known truth so its ok. :x.)

i'm pure lazy and hopeless eh.
i just wanna have fun with everyone i love.
(kor, if you're reading this, dont kill me.)

i miss crescent and everyone that i miss.
HAH.

woo, some changes in my template cos i was trying to entertain myself with colours.

anw jialing and i've already planned what we're gonna do on the first day of school.

HEH.

valentine's day was great.
so is my life.

so dont worry too much for me.
i'm doing fine, coping well.

but there are still times that i wonder what's the point of living a life when you know there is always an end to everything; everyone.

as you move on, remember me,

remember us and all we used to be.

i've seen you cry, i've seen you smile.

i've watched you sleeping for a while.

it may be over but it won't stop there,

i am here for you if you'd only care.

i've kissed your lips and held your head.

shared your dreams and shared your bed.

goodbye my lover.

goodbye my friend.

you have been the one.

you have been the one for me.

you have been the one for me.

WOOHOO.
james blunt sings great songs with damn good lyrics.
i'm off to collect my pay.
$$$)

entry posted just for my carpet. (bushy one.)

my carpet asks me to buy a kukubird.
my carpet is kuku, isnt it?

end of entry.

(frankly, i've no idea what to blog so that's abt it HEH.)

`life is fragile,
but there are days when you discover you've climbed into your own heart and the narrow course of your veins becomes a water park joyride,
flooded with a steady chemical drip from some gland in the brain,
the trickle adding up to a waterfall of joy,
and you just fly down that intense slide even in the presence of death and all the other drab prospects.

she never knew life was that fragile.