__________________like a stranger,

she passed me by.

hi, world.

i'm currently dying.
dying from gastric flu.
3 days of mc and 6 different sorts of pills are driving me insane.

glucose drink, pills and sleep.
those are what i've been getting for the past 3 days.

puke.
puke.
puke.

frankly, i'm utterly tempted to grab a knife and stab myself down my abdomen.

and i'm not yet done with my will and invitation for my funeral.
so maybe, not so soon.

bye world.

[illusions.]

she rather let the tears run in the rain.

she decided to rest her case.

she packed her thoughts into the bag of crap

and threw it into the sea.

__________________not much that you should know.

i've been wanting to come online but i'm as busy as a bee so yup.
HEH.

it's been work, work, work and lotsa going out and spending 100 bucks in like 4 days on nothing but simply my breakfast, lunch and dinner.
i say YAMI YOGURT tastes damn good and i'm craving for it right now. (utterly random i know, but WHO CARES.)

and i've been feeling much like a gay.
cos of the way i dress and the comments i've been getting from some ppl.

1) ray said, "you know, you look like those cool guys who wear oversized clothes and with cool hair." (note: to him, cool hair for a guy is quite long. and he made me feel damn gay.)

2) ain's friend, "hey, that guy looks quite handsome." ain, "uhhh, she's a girl eh."

3) when i wear a tie, mark says, "you really look like a gay eh."

4) when jialing and i both try on hats together, jialing will go, "ya, you really look like a guy."

5) michelle calls me tom boy.

6) my friend's friends saw me from behind and thought i am a man. (note: friend's name cannot be disclosed.)

DAMNIT.
i'm gonna try to tie my hair soon.
or else i will still look gay.

i dont even have time to sleep. (random again. but POUTS.)

bye world, time for work.

[nightmares.]

she took the wrong step.