__________________security comes first in the list.

hello, i'm home.
my sister kinda got the com on somehow.
so here i am.
truth is, i wasnt in the best of mood today.
i'm sorry if the smiles are fake.
i'm sorry.
i'm really sorry.

BINGE.

fat hope.
bye.

[equivocation.]

it hurts to watch every moment pass me by,
watch it turn into black and white,
and eventually, watch it fade away.

erm, let's see.
my com crashed.
so many things happened.
national day, watched fireworks with jialing.
motivation course.
then falling all so ill and blah.
all i could remember is that i slept damn early almost everynight.
blah blah blah.
nothing much.
well, my cough wasnt that bad by wednesday.
and there and then, i had my english oral.
it was good and got us all so high.
had fun playing and being crazy.

well, next tuesday's our last official lesson day.
its a whole load of crap.
i mean, the classroom wont be ours anymore.
and it'll be prelims and MUG MUG MUG.

i cannot take it anymore. (even when i have yet to start any of my revision.)
but i dont like my life like that.
everyday in sch seems so _.
i dont know.

please enjoy life while you can.
appreciate the stress-less life you've.
have fun in your classroom.
make the best out of every moment you've with your friends in crescent.
time flies, soon you'll be getting out of crescent.
(like 5 yrs aint enough for me.)
i'll definately miss these crazy moments i had in crescent.
sure to be missing like crazy like how i do already.

BAH.
shant crap so much.
I WANT 300 POINTS.
thank you.

__________________there is a need to

get into my sobriety.

highlights only.

thursday.
zhiqi was so high, she kept laughing at everything.
peiyin and i were embarrassing ourselves in the train.
jialing came over to my place after her excursion.
and we went over to study at macs till damn late.

friday.
wenta see the doc with mommy and hanwei.
well, all three of us were sick.
actually, i was feeling sick only.
but in the end, the doc said i had fever and he got quite pissed when i said i wanna go to sch.
and i had to take antibiotics la.
WA LAO.
now the stupid medicine controlling my life.
there were so many other medicines given but i am not gonna look at them.
rushed back to sch in time for RECESS!
then blah blah.
night study wasnt as productive cos we didnt do much work.
but ms chua went through velocity AGAIN.
so now i understand like, you know, MORE of it.

saturday.
woke up at 12 noon.
ate lunch and bath and headed to zhiqi's aunt's house.
flora and peiyin were there already.
then we cooked and ate damn good food.
HEH.
and then we played majong and watched tv and went home.
and i was home at eight plus nine only.
well, we had fun but didnt do any study at all.
POUTS.

sunday.
ok, i kinda slept the whole day.
and i was so wide awake at night like i fell asleep at 4am only.

monday.
today.
i was late for sch and some kind soul picked me up at the roadside and sent me to sch in a cab and she refused to let me pay a single cent! :].
national day celebration.
i was getting kinda emotional when we had community singing.
i started crying and jaslyn started crying after seeing me cry!
SO FUNNY.
guess our last national day celebration was like SADDENING. (for me LA.)
cos its like, i know, it will never be the same again.
was supposed to go over to zhiqi's aunt's house to cook again.
but i decided to be a nice daughter since i promised my parents to have lunch with them.
OH CRAP.

bad hair life ARGH.
but then again, i cannot cut it!
cos if i do, i will start complaining again.
WAHAHA.
ta.

[stoic.]

__________________just call out my name,

and i will be there.

"never look back they said, how was i to know i miss you."

BACK TO THE BRITNEY OLD SONGS CRAZE.

zhiqi, flora and i were singing like mad.
jialing! i know you love britney too.
come on, clap your hand with me.
sing with me now.

i never knew love till there was you.

sometimes i hide.

well, life's been usual lately.
sometimes, i feel that it is meaningless to smile.
so maybe you wont see me smiling unless i'm laughing at stuff.
but sometimes, i wanna laugh away these pain.
and without AHA, i wont be able to do so.

thanx, i love you guys and your little buttocks.
i will box them tmr.

WAHAHA.

and zhiqi! dont show anyone my big buttock anymore la.
WA LAO.

sometimes i'm scared of you.
but all i want is to hold you tight.

:].

MILK AND CEREAL!

random.
but i need some time alone tonight.
i need to let this out somehow.
ta.

[darts.]