__________________my exit is now complete.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SASHA!

well, tuition was productive.
but it made me realise how fast i can forget my chem stuff if i put them aside.
DAMN. :[.

i've a good influence. :].
a girl who DROOLS.
a girl who thinks pineapple is for decoration.
and the girl is none other than the girl who provided me and jialing with popiah for lunch yest!
her house is utterly cosy HOR.
i dont know why i kept YOYOYO-ing to her sis.
HURHURHUR.

well, she has a polite family.
HOW COOL IS THAT.

well, ok jialing and i were utterly late for chem practical yest.
but we sneaked in.
PHEW.
so we didnt get scolded.
we did one proper experiment while the rest did 4.
oh man, but the pt is that we had fun! :].

she wanted to come over to the macs here to study.
but it was too late.
then today it was the case too.
well, nvm.
cos having the thought of it is half a battle won.
WAHAHA.

i just drank pineapple + papaya milkshake.
last sunday, i drank celery + cucumber + apple juice.

WOW. healthy lifestyle. :].

MEOW.
ok, i am feeling hyper and random.
i sent zhiqi the MILK AND CEREAL video too.

ok i needa be a nerd.
like really.
this entry is crap.
ta.

[heart-rending truth.]

__________________i'll be your light

in the darkness.

it's been a short week.
everything happened just in a blink of an eye.
time's running out and the clock's ticking fast.
i needa study!
and the hj-be-serious plan failed.

BIG POUTS. FAT POUTS. ULTIMATE POUTS.

but today's night study was productive yeah.
catwoman's amusing.
my voice's still at the sexy stage.
i think it's puberty stage 22 - voice breaking.
HURHURHUR.

and i dont wanna graduate just yet.
POUTS.
ta.

[bliss.]

staring out at the rain with a heavy heart.
it's the end of the world in my mind.
then your voice pulls me back.
like a wake-up call.

i've been looking for the answer.
somewhere .
i couldnt see that it was right there.
but now i know, what i didnt know.

because you live and breathe.
because you make me believe in myself.
when nobody else can help.
because you live, girl.
my world has twice as many stars in the sky.

it's all right, i survived, i'm alive again.
cause of you, made it through every storm.
what is life, what's the use.
if you're killing time.
i'm so glad i found an angel.
someone who was there when all my hopes fell.
i wanna fly, looking in your eyes.

because you live, i live.
because you live, there's a reason why.
i carry on when i lose the fight.
i want to give what you've given me always.



Because You Live
by Jesse McCartney

a meaningful song for all my love ones out there.
esp those who have been by my side all these while.
no matter you guys know what's truly wrong with me, you guys never fail to cheer me up.
esp AHA, macho little girl, sexy cereal and even JW!.
thanks so much.

i am proud to say i am over _.
SAY BYE BYE.

waves spastically.

__________________stepping outta this frame,

leaving myself stained.

i intended to change the pics in my friendster outta boredom.
but i think friendster is kinda screwed so i give up.
some other day perhaps.

haha.
finally a proper entry, maybe.

i insist my specs is lime green not yellow.
a mixture of both is fine but it would be better if you tell me its lime green.
HURHURHUR.

racial harmony day was fun.
esp the part which AHA was taking photos in the stw.
WAHAHA.
mirrors are fun!

peiyin likes to use lipstick to write on my hand.
and every other type of pens.
sheesh.

and i love the butterfly sticker tattoo.
credits to kalai and grace. :D.

well, speech day was eh boring at first.
and then better at the end of the day. (?!?)

yest voice was there yet not there.
maybe you know the feeling, maybe you dont.
nvm. (?!?)

today was half day.
ss test was crap for me cos i couldnt write anything at all. :/.
english was so giggly, i dont know why.
but i like english now, like no joke.

say bye bye to the painful memories for there's no point looking back.

you bring the smiles to me without knowing it.

dont mind, this entry is kinda boring.
but HAH, i cant help it.
i became a boring person cos now i am serious.
HURHURHUR.
ta.

[twist.]

i'm sorry i didnt mean to call you.
but i couldnt fight it.
i guess i was weak and couldnt even hide it.
and so i surrender just to hear your voice.
i know how many times i said i'm gonna to live without you.
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you.
but there's something baby that you need to know.
that deep inside me i feel like i'm dying.
i have to see you it's all that i'm asking.

baby, give me back my fantasies.
the courage that i need to live.
the air that i breathe.
livin' without you, my world's become so empty.
my days are so cold and lonely.
and each night i taste the purest of pain.

i wish i can tell you that i'm feeling better everyday.
that i didnt hurt when you walked away.
but to tell you the truth i cant find my way.
that deep inside me i feel like i'm dying.
i have to see you, it's all that i'm asking.


- Purest Of Pain
by Son By Four.

nice song.
i'm down with sore throat again.
sigh.

look at me, my depth perception must be off again.
cause this hurts deeper than i thought it did.
it has not healed with time.

i guess you will never read my blog, you dont even give a damn abt how i feel.
you never did. :(.

let me rest in pieces.

HAHA. caught you!

well, look who was the irritating one! (points.)

you aint a part of my life.
i need not explain anything to you.

i've nothing to hide.
but neither do i need to let anything be known to you.

another perfect day! (:

scandalmongers! fuck off.

both jw and i agree that you guys are irritating.
stop assuming things.
we arent players.
not me.
not her.

i still cant let go of the 8 months and 3 weeks we had.

8 months, 3 weeks.
i guess i need plenty of time to get over this.

outta sight, outta mind.

deceiving oneself aint doing much help.

if i said i am fine, i would be lying.

girls, let's so bra-less!

sheesh, i'm still up at this hour.
cos i dont wanna wake up with puffy eyes.
NO NO.

i need time to get over this.
i need yoohoo.

is this fat enough?

oh.
this entry is just for HAHA. (guess who.)

you can be the one to save me from these pain and tears.
you can be the one!

IF YOU LET ME ROB YOUR FIRST KISS!

haha. i'm so crappy.

sheesh. been crying since last night.
if you arent any of my loves.
forget abt asking me what happened.
actually nothing happened either.
just some letting out of tears to let oneself feel better from something.
if tmr i still look like a puffer fish.
I WILL NOT GO TO SCHOOL.
haha. kidding.
school's my second home, i cant miss a day dude.
i wanna see those many friends of mine that i love.
many many many.
i love my friends.
and you.
and you.
and you.

my mom was being nice.
and is being bitchy.

THE IRONY OF IT ALL.

this insanity's a result of a bad fall.

funny when you stop and think.
time goes fast and then you blink.
nothing's ever like it was.

i know it's hard to believe.
you're still the biggest part of me.
all i'm living for.

you're still the one.

big fat fuck pouts.
the freaking long entry that i just typed for one whole hour just disappeared like that.
ARGHHH.

nvm, you're just not fated to know what happened in my past week.

JW! thanx. i love you.
thanx for listening to me complain.
i've decided to let go since she's all a happier person without me.

ever since the day you ran away and left me lonely and cold, my life just hasnt been the same.
oh baby no.

blogger screwed my mood. *&^%$#@!.

__________________superficial behaviour.

i guess i was right that it would be over soon, somehow.

just when you convinced me that no one else can replace you, you walked outta me.
i hate to say this.
but i'm trying to hate you.

it's hurting too much, it's tearing me apart.

YAY.
i'm blogging.
today aint the best day of my life, it aint the worst.
i was amused by the rambutan.
i was more amused by the mini durian though.
i ate plenty of food.
i was so full.
i was mocked cos my lips were too red to be true. (after tom yam effect.)
i did work during reap.
i think reap's fun with my loves.
I LOVE SEXY CEREAL. (see, i'm so romantic!!!)
i sent macho little girl home.
i love the seashell.
i had eye contact with the cat on my way home.
i ate pathetic dinner. (bread talk, my mommy buy such food for me. :[.)

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO BLOG LER.
i'm all yours.
DAAAAAAAAA, give you all.
ta.

[sombre.]

R.O.M., wo lai ler!!!

rings coming up soon.
HURHURHUR.

the chicken was tender but i got so tipsy.
i almost become a bo gay but the chicken bone said he shall be kind tonight.
so i said thanx and now im not a bo gay.

my hp bill exploded.
my bank account is trying to wave bye to me.
but i said NOOO.
and i am surviving but i've to learn to stop spending so much money.

today i wasnt late, please be proud of me.
the last 3 schooling days were bad, i was late and had to cab to sch but still late.
OH MY MAMA.

chinese oral yest was WOW.
no comments.

sent cold buttock home yest, it was quite fun.
shall send her home more often. :].

tell me you love me.
i'll give you my heart and soul.

I AM SO ROMANTIC TO THE NICE CEREAL SEXY CEREAL.

you say hello, inside i'm screaming i love you.

haha, you dont know what i'm talking abt.
NEH NI NEH NI POO POO.

you drive away from my car crash of a heart.

it's love and i'm in it, so give me your lips and just let me kiss 'em.

HAHA.
i am blogging!
and today is a _ day.
the day started bad with worries.
but ended well.
with hilarious tummy and crap talkings.
beautiful faces and nicely printed pictures.

i love my friends.
when i say "we're cool."
you're supposed to say "me too."

"oh no! i just did the dumbest thing on mamma earth. i stared at the toilet bowl for 5 mins and it looked damn tempting so i sat on it with my shorts on. like SHEESH"

- an sms that was so outta pt and made me laugh non-stop.

happy guessing who sent me that msg.
its _____. kalai! you have to read this!!!
i can die laughing at it.

today i had a few good laughs.
the first was the one above.

and the second was these 2 young girls who tried to prank call me.
by the name of c_o_n_i_ and _i_i_g.

SOMEONE WAS BARKING AT THE BACKGROUND SUPPOSINGLY BUT I HEARD NOTHING.
but all i heard were the two words - ah long.
it was hilarious.
and i saved the phone number as SIAO.

sheesh, i thought i talk abt woodbridge too much till ppl from woodbridge starts calling me.
AND.
just now i thought there was an ant crawling on my leg.
and i HIT and HIT and HIT.
then i realised its my mole.
SHEESH, i think my brain's not functioning.

i'm feeling ever cranky.
with this dumb headache but still cranky!
WOOHOO.
GOOD DAY.

cant wait to go to sch.
CANT WAIT.

i'll catch you, dont worry. :].

__________________noticed the wrong turns

she made.

back to square 1.

youth day celebration was so not celebration.
it's the worst youth day i ever had. EEYER.

its getting pretty ugly.

wenta mr josef's wedding yest.
i couldnt decide what to wear so i just pulled out the most formal looking piece of thing in my closet.
OK SO MANY PPL THOUGHT I TURN BUNG.
thank you but no.
i am just manly HAHA.

i hate scandalmongers!

was late for wedding and the first person i saw was YSY!!!
she didnt recognise me! OH MAN.
FINALLY GOT TO SEE HER.
and we got back tgt HURHURHUR.
jialing and i outcasted ourselves and went towning after that.
woohooooo IT WAS A GOOD DAY.
went visiting at night and settled some stuff for my kor kor.
reached home only at 1030pm.
almost faint on the way cos i didnt have my dinner and i was so tired.

YSY'S MINE.

i'm too hyper i dont wanna say anything ler.
i do say things that i feel like saying.
WE'RE COOL! -captain underpants rocks.
ta.

[faltered.]

i've been too hyper recently.
me and wx are going crazy, like WOOHOO.

we spy with our little eyes.

HAH.

i've been missing ysy so much, i'm indirectly harrassing nifong cos she behaves too much like ysy.

WHOOTS.