_

love is not blind, it sees but doesnt mind.

__________________trying to leave

the memories of you behind.

NO MORE BUN.
NO MORE HAIR.
i'm a botak.

ba. my hair's screwed.
went for a trim last week.
it was as good as nothing.
but today i went again.
it's now too short.
too short!!! [*&^%$#@!.]
BA.
nvm, i'm dick lee. (private joke with SHANNA.) and i supposed dick has short hair now?

real long since i last blogged.

monday.
after sch i went out with my kor and hw to buy his phone.
we loitered around till late and he decided not to buy first!!!
ameliachan met me to return me my heels. it's been long since i see her, yup. cousin's wedding coming i need it so ya, played with my heels at night till my ankle swell.
TSK, but hah. i've lousy ankle.

tuesday.
i had sore eyes.
i reached sch at 820am.
went home at 11+am.
HEH.
slept and slacked the day away.

wednesday.
went home with wanxian after recess.
it was a funny day with her.
esp what happened during ting xie, we're such failures at copying ah!
and we ended up sun tanning our legs at the bus stop at early 10+ while ppl having lessons in sch.
HEH.
went home, sleep and slacked AGAIN.

thursday.
english paper was HAHA.
bad.
when peiyin, flora and i walked to train station.
it was raining LEH!
and i sprained my ankle again.
thank God it didnt swell much.
met jiale after that.
she noticed i walk weird. =X.
then she sent me home but we slacked around my neighbourhood.
and ended up cabbing to her house cos i dont wanna go home yet.
then yup slacked.
taught her sister how to do maths.
not me la DUH.
i was looking at the wrong qns. =X.
slacked the day away.

friday.
TODAY!
chinese paper was more of STONING than anything else.
and its was also HAHA.
ba. whatever.
then went for hair cut and came home sulking away.
BA.

peiyin tried to inspire me to study.
so sweet of her.
but i've no mood.
not any bit.

i dont wanna take o's. ( i bet you're like "duh, who wants to?)
but the point is that.
HANJIN DOESNT WANT.

and she loves confused KID.

ta.

[magico.]

elle est juste un autre mensonge de saignement.

__________________tutti o niente.

saw jw on wed.
talked alot.
shows how much i miss her.

i cabbed to toa payoh to meet esther on thursday.
she sent me home then.
SHE'S DAMNIT CUTE.
we were practicing CHINESE ORAL.
we talked abt maryanne, little pervert and kenneth.
and everyone else.
sometime's i realised i fall outta love easily.
but no worries, i still love little pervert. (i guess.)

actually, who're you to know what's up in me.
stop guessing and assuming.
no one knows what i'm talking abt.
unless i love you much as a friend.
actually, i dont even know me.
there is just no need to know what's happening in my life.
JUST STOP THE ESPIONAGE.
hell.

yest, oral was ok.
chinese one was kinda screwed though.
OH, FORGET IT.

chocolate all day.
getting sore throat.
but WHO CARES.

i'm getting weirder by the day.
cues of depression.

CHANGE.

ta.

[perturbation.]

__________________crushed hopes

resulting in a growing hatred.

yest i spent 22 bucks on taxi.
heartache ah.
supposed to get back to sinseh but dad was being bitchy.
so FORGET IT.

today is sucha bad day.
2.4km was so SHIT.
my timing is 13+mins.
TELL ME WHAT SHIT.
its like 2+mins more than my old timing.
sigh, the sad thing was that i stopped so many times i kept thinking of giving up.
ankle hurts like shit, couldnt take the pain.
running with all the weight on the right leg, and my right knee injury hurts like shit too.
i hate it.
BAAA. limping sucks. NO MORE LIMPING.
but at least i realised zq really knows me very well, how sweet.

ahwell, and the principal wants to see me.
THANX.
who knows why, i wenta ask her why.
she said "nothing good."
thanx, DUH right.
BA.
a few possibilities why she wants to see me.
1) my reap attendance is bad. (but everyone also, why me only?!?)
2) she wants me to step down as house captain cos i did detention. (i rather she just do it than coming to make me cry but still insist in doing it.)
3) about the ppl i hang around with, cos yest she came to my class and my group was laughing away. (fork la, we were just ENJOYING THE LESSON.)
4) who the hell knows why.
5) i just hope i can die right now.

ANW, ITS TRENDY TO SPRAIN YOUR LEFT ANKLE.
please go and sprain it if you wanna be cool.
=X.
after i sprained my left ankle.
these ppl started spraining their LEFT ANKLE TOO.
1) JOYCE TAN 4s3
2) LIANG WANXIAN 4s3
3) WU SHUANG 1s3
4) TEO EBEL 4s1

WAHAHA, cant believe i started the trend.
either go and BURN YOUR FACE AND BECOME AS UGLY AS ME.
or go and sprain your ankle if you wanna be like me.

oh man, i think i'm mentally unstable.
HELL.
ta.

[split personality.]

deep down within, she feels as if she is a nonentity.
it's amazing how her masquerade is lurking.
there is not a single cue of her despair.
everyone gets deceived by that enchanting smile of hers.

in the air of fake.

__________________tears in the rain falling

onto the field of despair.

well, yesterday was a great day.
congrats to the band for the gold.
poor zhiqi was all so worried since early morning.
but hey, i'm proud of her. ;).

but i hate the sight of bended straws.
and i hate the sight of certain changes that i think which are not meant to be.

i hate my zao sia voice too HOR.

and i cabbed to meet maryanne straight after school.
well, she talked abt little pervert and great pervert.
FELT GUILTY OK. (wahaha.)
well, doesnt matter.
she left her hp outside the house and it got taken away.
she was kinda depressed so i cheered her up.
then i told her abt all my old love stories.
who knows who i started crying.
saw her helpless face so i stopped.
she cheered me up then.
(what a cheering each other up day.)
then i cabbed home and reached home at 930pm.

today. (voice more zao sia.)
i had tuition.
the stress is digging into me.
i feel stupid cos whatever i memorise can only stay in my head for less than 3 hours.
SHORT TERM MEMORY.
sigh, my mommy wenta buy these pills for HEALTHY BRAIN FUNCTION for me.
thanx ah, i feel damn sad.
like my brain isnt functioning well, need such costly pills.
sigh, anw I CANT STOP STONING.
help.
ta.

[noxious.]

hope that brings one too high up,
will bring one crushing hard on the ground.

bleeding.

__________________lost in the circle of sorrows

that never seem to end.

i've to confess that today i've been seriously bitchy.
it's either the weather or the stress that's pouring into me,
causing me to say all sorts of stuff.
and being all so hyper crapping.
i'm so tired.
tmr i'll be a different person all over again.
i'm different everyday.
i told zq my long long story abt _ today.
feeling kinda down to think of everything.
sigh, memories.
i'm falling sick, losing my voice.
i miss maryanne.
i miss playing search for the sweet game.
BIG SIGH.
this lfe isnt what i'm looking for.
ta.

[tormented.]

__________________sea of blood running cold

beneath the bleeding sky.

its been long since i blogged.
been really busy.
mid-yr is coming.
i've to start mugging somehow.

saturday.
has geog consultation in the morning.
then was outting with maryanne and friends.
i think the 2 gwens are nice ppl.

sunday.
looked through something that reminded me of my past.
went to swim. LIKE FINALLY.
but it wasnt a nice swim.
my ankle still hurts.

monday.
tution at night till very late.
was dead beat.

tuesday. today.
I CAN TIE MY BUN AGAIN.
FINALLY.
YAY.
I MISS IT LOTS.
thats what i call good old days.

ta.

[juvenile.]

__________________every highway

leads her into a darker sea of despair.

MOOD SWINGS.
lately, it's getting harder and harder to find me with a genuine smile in school.

school's all abt studies and i'm so sick of it.
but that's almost like 88% of my life now.
no choice.

cabbed to meet maryanne straight after school today.
i've been msging maryanne lately and i really think i like her alot.
she is one sweet thing.
i just hope little pervert will not find out just yet.
not that she'll read this.
but she'll understand if she's reading this.

anw tmr is our 7th month.
great. ;).

this morning i was late for sch and HAH.
the school called up my parents and told them i didnt go to school.
they were panicked, thinking probably i met an accident or something cos i wont skip school de.
well, i think this is crazy.
flora was late too so she msged the school staff room number this - "flora and hanjin are in school."
that was really hilarious, i bet the operator couldnt pronunce my name properly.

anw i did detention on wednesday.
it was a whole load of crap.
i might be forced to step down as a house captain.
big sigh, anw bronte's new house mister is mr lee boon keng.
yesh, that's MY form teacher.
BAAA.

well, my life revolves around school and ignorance.

i've decided to throw away certain worries cos i'm giving up since people refuse to admit their wrongs.
afterall, if you insist your wrong is right, you'll never change.
i've no point being frank.
well, just change your bloody attitude, i wanted you as a friend to stay.
let's just see how things go on with your disguise.

sickened.
ta.

[ignorance.]

i seek to find,
the lost piece of time.
is my dream the hidden truth,
or just a shadow of the past?

breaking the wall of lies.

the day when everyone's happy, i'll be happy too.

dont say i'm nice, mind you.
this is just my wish.

this figure is haunting me.
aping my every gestures.
stealing my soul, myself.
the presence of menace is lurking.
behind the translucent surface.

in that mirror of mine.

__________________the way you make the day

bleed away.

well, today is the best day of the last two weeks.
yest was the worst of the last two months.

yest, crescentian day/APRIL FOOL'S DAY.
the most stupid day of my life.
talk about wasting time.
AND TALK ABOUT ORIGINALITY.
the bronte pillows sewed by us, the bronte committee, were given out free.
and they're sewed specially for BRONTE GIRLS.
now, ppl ripped it off just for FUND RAISING FOR THAT DAMN BUILDING THAT IS SO CHEATING ALL OUR PUPILS' $$$.
talk about ANGER please.
i wanted to confront those silly sec1s who were in charge of the booth.
TALK ABOUT BRONTE.
i dont understand why bronte didnt get 1st for the mascot.
BUT NVM, bronte has already been the champion in my heart ler.
i'm really very proud of our mascot!
and i promised to treat those lovely ppl, and i'll.
and the day was supposingly ending well with diana and shafinaz's singing.
BUT, LET'S TALK ABOUT FOOLS.
the funniest april fool's joke happened.
THIS CERTAIN GROUP OF JOKERS were trying to act like sec4s.
like WAKE UP LA, KIDS.
only fools will believe you all HOR.
so at the end of the day, i was feeling ohhh so bitchy, cursing and cursing everyone and everything that is disgusting in sight.
i was swearing like a swearing box.
unbandaged my ankle at night.
ankle hurted like shit, not knowing i forgot to eat my damn medicine.

today, saturday.
had tuition early in the morning.
then went to meet sir and the sec4s for lunch.
sir's treat. =D.
yitian, hweeyi, ber and i went to stadium to watch the juniors run.
well, i went off earlier to visit mr doctor who was sick.

IRONY.

i was a happy girl visiting mr doctor who was supposed to be my doctor.
i became the doctor of the day. HURHURHUR.
cabbed home after playing search for the sweet game! ;).
bathed then dad brought me to the sinseh for the appointment.
BA.
my ankle is all bandaged up AGAIN.
and the sinseh said that i injuried the front of my feet.
and thats cos of the way i walk around with a sprained ankle.
and i might not be able to run tipping toe next time!!!
SOBS. thanx ah.
he rubbed and rubbed. so pain LOR.
i was screaming. =X.
but i'm still a happy girl today cos i know i've my husband, and my husband's mine.
LOVEloveLOVE.
ta.

[swear words flowing like water.]