KAN NOO NEH.
i'm so tired.
please donate me a few hours.
i need time to sleep and mug.
off i go.
ta.

__________________drowning in the pool of tears.

this morning,
i woke up on a drenched pillow.
IT WAS SOAKED WITH TEARS.

i had a nightmare.

its not the normal nightmare one has, not anything abt ghost or monsters.
not clowns this time.
neither issit abt any deaths.

i can bearly recall what really happened in my nightmare,
all i know was that,
it was abt trust between friendships.
it was a broken trust that made me weep so hard.
i couldnt stop crying till i realised it was just a dream.

i love my friends, esp those who i really trust.

i'll never wanna see betrayal in any of them cos i'm gonna just break down and die.

i slashed my hand with a big cutter.
and i stabbed myself right in my palm at the end of my nightmare.
all my friends were staring and no one could stop me.
i was crying out so loud it seemed as though i was shouting out my sorrows.

it hurted so badly when i woke up, perhaps it's the hurt i got from this nightmare.

and i never ever want such thing to happen in reality.

tmr, o's results are gonna be out.
i'm gonna pray hard i wont see anyone crying.
i'm glad i can see everyone tmr, cbsf and bloody gang esp.
MISSING THEM LOTS. pepper too, heh.

[trust given.]

if you think i dont mean a single word i say,

then

my impulses and thoughts are torn into meaningless words,

_

_

and thrown away like not said.

__________________truth is

i never got over you.

today woke up, supposed to go for a good nice swim.
then visit little pervert.
but my injuries were hurting so bad i decided to stay home.
anw my granny and aunt came from malaysia for stayover.
so i should probably be good and stay home.
yup, i fell asleep after my lunch till my tutor came.
ok, before she come i went down to pass an umbrella to my brother cos it was raining heavily.
tution was productive.
a few chapters of hw and stuff to memorise.
it's like i'm quite motivated by her.
isnt that good? HURHURHUR.
yawn, i miss june yap.
(outta pt but i just feel like saying.)
dont know what to say anymore.
my sister is sucha pig she fell asleep while chatting online LEH.
ta.

[captivating eyes.]

her face doesn't show any signs of lies.

yet uncertainty can be seen in her eyes.

__________________intelligence

that crossed the lines of her stare.

SHORT AND SWEET PLEASE.

rush, cab.
late.
chinese paper 1.
slack - school.
ikea.
zhiqi, peiyin, janice.
fish and chips, meatballs.
bus down to tiong bahru.
clementi kfc.
sasha and friends.
wedding dinner.
clinic.
home.
granny.
exhausted.
tired.
ta.

[self-pity.]

opened wide,

eyes to see,

within, beyond and behind.

faces never seen,

her mind is expiring,

beyond all limits.

a piece of a mystery, an isolated soul,

trying to catch a glimpse in this world of fake.

the darkest of demons are hidden behind

the happiest faces, _______________

there, she wears the masks of fear and sorrow.

__________________lookin' down

the road i should be taking.

training today was good i guess.
i kinda pushed myself very hard sub-consciously.
i was crazy, dude.
my ankle and back are hurting so badly now.
BAAA.
anw i'm drained.
physically and emotionally.
i've so much, so much to blog abt.
but whenever i come online.
everything's gone.
forget it.
i need sleep.
and time to do some reflections abt some stuff.
ta.

[still holding on somehow.]

not exactly in the blogging mood.
was doing up zhiqi's blog template.
yest was doing up behind's blog template.
i'm getting blind.
ta.

living in fond memories,

and i love the feeling of being loved and loving in return.

;).

__________________thinking abt

taking the easy way out.

STOP THIS PAIN TONIGHT.

hmmm, yest had tuition in the morning.
my tutor's called shirleen.
i'm sucha shy girl in front of her.
actually i'm shy in front of alot of ppl.
and btw, she almost died cos she has to start from the basics.
HURHUR.
well, after tuition was slacking around the whole day.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, JOSHUA/MR JACK!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my dearest partner, YOYOYEO ZHIQI!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to SARAH YIP too, the beginner of ah lianx!

today.
3 papers were baddd, baddd, baddd.
had this horrible headache.
and yeah, mental block.
gonna fail damn badly.
all the blanks and crap answers are leading me to _.
faints.
afterwhich was a trip to ikea for seafood hor fun with zhiqi, py, daph and janice.
my bag was so heavy it caused a blue black on my leg.
i was busy trying to rub zhiqi's blue black.
then we had hotdog too.
came home and sister watched fifty first date.
brings back memories.
the song immortal brings back memories too.
sigh.

ahwell,
tmr got lit ONLY, finally.
then gonna have breakfast in ikea again!!!
HIGH TEA EHHHH!!!
ta.

[defination.]

__________________history repeats itself,

but now, it happens on you.

SIMON SAYS.
let me try to make this entry short and sweet.
i've to save time HOR.

LIANG WANXIAN, ms zebra+ ms sticker book.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!

thursday.
sch was filled with simon says.
behind is forming a script writer team to try earn some $$$.
janice is my maid HOR. (she has been behaving like one, how sweet of her.)
____ ben zhu was being cursed the whole day, she was being too bitchy for anyone to take it.
chinese remedial after sch.
then was long chat with eshwaaree then home.
supposed to study but "took a nap" at 830pm.
but i didnt wake up till friday morning.

friday.
commontest for english, ss and bio.
it was pure repetition of sleeping and waking up to do paper.
its tiring to do papers.
after sch was going to ikea with zq.
we had hotdogs and walked around.
janice cabbed down to meet us and we had our fish and chip together.
then we cabbed to sch to drop janice.
and then dropped zq. then to my house. (we're really not TAXI QUEENS.)
i bathed and wenta meet little pervert.
she came over to my house with an injured ankle.
poor thing, she slacked around till 9pm.
my dad made me fry the fried rice and he was scaring little pervert LEH. (heard pain pain HOR.)
he forced her to eat and everything.
then walked her to train station, and i collected track photos.
slacked the night away.

satuday. today.
woke up, slacked at home.
took a bus down to sasha's neighbourhood.
met everyone then joshua, sasha and me cabbed down to sajc.
the first person i saw was serene!!! (who i miss really much.)
i met tong while they went walking and looking for gabriel, peitian, shaun they all.
walked around with tong. (woo, miss this girl lots too.)
had a nice mocking session while we were slacking heh.
then we had stalking sessions too.
but we ended up stalking the ICE STICKS.
then wenta meet sasha again while tong went walking with her parents.
then peitian, joshua, sasha and i cabbed back to sasha's place.
we changed and cabbed to east coast to meet shaun and gabriel they all.
all of them went cycling, sasha and i sat by the beach and crapped.
then joshua, sasha and me cabbed back to sasha's place yup.
(note the number of times these ppl take cabs. i call them, TAXI KINGS.)
the rest went off to church with shaun's mom.
then i slept in sasha's house.
i was having sucha bad headache, and she fed me lobster before i go home.
she forced me to take her $$$ again. sigh.
then i cabbed home.
and yup. sasha's aunt invited me for steamboat on one fine day.
YAY!!!

its the innocence that's keeping me burning.

ahwell, tmr got tuition in the morning.
hope the tutor doesnt find my room an overly-messy place to study.
cos it seems like kenneth thinks so.
good night to my husband and friends.
ta.

[speak the words on your lips.]

off to study for commontest ler.
(will try not to fall asleep.) ta.

have you ever love someone so bad that it hurts?

__________________leave it unwritten.

its been a long day.
and lately.
I CANT SEEM TO KEEP MY EYES OPEN.

you're my only one.

people think i'm a desperate.
flirt, player. whatever, i dont really care.
cos i know i'm only desperate for your love.

early in the morning this prasanthi happily say i'm a goondu!!!
when she herself is howww retarded ehhh.
HURHURHUR.
call me evil!!!
meow. we were ALMOST late for sch.
i wanted to cab then she kept saying the bus coming.
half an hour later bus then come LEH.
but lucky we ran HEH.
tiring LEH.
then mrs wong saw me rushing into the hall HOR. =(.
awww.
anw. chinese was _.

then pe was FUN FUN FUN.
i tell you ahhh, wanxian is the ZEBRA for the day.
and for goodness sake, janieliuonnkay was damnit trying to peep at my underwear LEH.
BLUSHES.
oh well, we played TAKOPACHI?!? (sorry i'm thinkin' of food. i dont know what that ball is called la.)
hehe. like softball leh. except we've to kick it.
so fun HEH.
wanxian was a zebra.
daphne was a crazy woman we kept snatching the cones away.
janice was a pervert busy peeping at my underwear.
BUT janice was my partner. NVM. i claim that we won.
NEH NI NEH NI POO POO.
PIPIPAPIPOO.
it was seriously funny!!!
the other half of behind was having fun on the other hand.
all of us love this gameee!!! =D.

then cme was taken over by PRINCIPAL, MRS LEE BEE YANN.
yup. she gave us motivating talk. (?!?)
then we played the peacock feathers. (for a moment i felt like a kid.)
then recess was FOOD heh.
then ss was funny.
i think ms ting is mentally weirddd.
ERM. she loves to tickle ppls' ears with the peacock feather LEH.
weird HOR?!?
then was amaths.
i was tired and grumpy.
then lunch was FUN.
we were in stw playing BOWLING.
HURHUR. i dont tell you how.
and please i was almost murdered and pushed into the "hospital"!!!
then emaths was _.
took back test paper.
i'm glad i passed since i didnt even study.
16/20. hmmm maybe i should strive for FULL MARKS.
study surely can de HOR? ;).
meow. then bio, i was like sleeping face down acting as if i'm reading.
then i slept on the desk.

then went down to eat ccf. (HURHURHUR.)
i was damn energetic when it comes to food.
then ate pineapple too.
then rushed up to AVT for amaths.
ms chua was lateeeeeeeee.
and we were all highhhhh and having fun running around.
then daph and i settled down concentrating on drawing a COOL NERDX's picture on the whiteboard.
she's nerdy and has braces but has lotsa eyeholes.
and we named her lucy. (sorry yujie.)
but she really has this lucy look!!! =D.
sooooOOOoooo cooOOOOoooooL, lao niang tellx you HORX.
daph even took a picture of it! HEH.
then ms chua came and she went through one qns only.
she had to rush off.
then went back to class.
we chatted with the auntie who wanted to lock our classroom.
i pity her, why she always get bulllieddddd.
i call police ahhhhh!

then we wenta canteen.
played with peacock feather and drank grass jelly.
I FOUND $1!!!
oh, this is so my day.
$$$ comes in just like that.
but i'm treating py and zq ice tea tmr. (since they're there to witness it.)
then left sch at 6pm.
i've dated eshwaree on 8th of march HEH.
cooooOOOOooooooLx dudeeeeex.
came home, the postman supposed to send the ipod mini.
but thanx. he left a note instead.
SOBS.
anw. i'm so full and my mom wants me to eat more.
crazy woman.
okok, i shall get going soon, soon, soon.
ta.

[cant waste a minute.]

nobody ever seems to remember life is a game we play .

and there she is, living in the shadows.

__________________the need to

sort things out.

AM I THAT FIERCE LOOKING?
hurhurhur.
this must be a joke to my fiercer dudesss friends. (isnt that everyone?)

little pervert wants me to be fierce to her too.
tell me how please.

hmmm, i cant sign in to msn LEH.
cos now must have newest version then can sign in.
but i'm NO admin to this computer.
kor kor in NS HOR.
sad sad ehhh. (actually no difference cos currently i'm in no mood to talk to anyone.)

let's see.
i'm a well-wrapped dumpling now HEH.
wearing long sleeved shirt, long pants.
no socks yettt.
HURHUR. in case mosquitoes wanna attackkk me again AHHH.
bu yao ahhh.

ok, proper blogging yuppp.
yest was valentine's day.
i slept really late the night before cos i was busy writing the love notes.
but half of them were undone.
i spent 2 hours on 6 love notes LEH.
tiring. go count HOR. i gave out abt 24 love notes in total.
the rest of them i did in sch.
and mrs yip happily confiscated my love notes during bio.
she kept picking on janice which i think is utterly hilarious.
she kept calling my name as BANANA.
ermmm, this woman is utterly hilarious.
she said, "got so much love to give ahhh, give some to me."
something like that, kinda funny.
actually i dont know she said this.
i was busy doing something else.
but i read it from xiling's blog HEH.
OPPS.
ahwell, then now she wants me to sit right in front of her during bio.
hurhur, i'm easily distracted mehhh.
ok, the day went on with much LOVE.
except for mrs rupa's lessons.
i tell you HOR, everyone was damn grumpy.
very tiring to entertain her de LEH.
ahwell, after sch was slacking in class.
thinking of whether to go off to meet my husband at the sinseh or to stay back to help tay ann ann.
and i ended up staying back, tay ann ann so sweeeeeeet to her gf ahhh!
hurhur, then i cabbed to my husband's place like str8 away.
dont ask me why, cant you see i'm lazyyy HOR.
then was slacking in her room, her sister's room.
gave her sister lotsa chocolates LEH.
then played with her 12 yr old uncle.
didnt exactly play, i dont know la.
he said the cupcake is niceee. =D.
then her maid made steak for us.
then she fed me while i felt like a toddler.
it was me who tried to feed her then.
but then HOR. she was like a kid running abt and i've to happily chase her around like i'm the granny, in another words, AH MA. (you know, you know? think of the scene NOW.)
yup. then she didnt eat half of the steak LEH.
then cabbed home at 9+pm i think.
thanx to everyone for everything. -with loveee.
oh ya, SHE GAVE ME ANG BAO. wahaha.
$$$ LEH. you jealous?

too bad, she's taken.

by me.

BAAAAAA.
today was _.
i cabbed from orchard to sch.
i was lazy as always.
chinese i had to stand behind the class.
i forgot to bring my chinese book. (hidden truth not said.)
then ok la i got 32 for my essay LEH.
why mdm lim didnt say my nameee.
ppl 33 and 34 she say VERY GOOD.
cant she say mine is gooooooooooood.
i seldom write this well HOR. (i had a book for reference. =X.)
then was emath, xiling and i had to go down early for food rationing.
I CALL THAT STUPID.
we go down and pack the water and biscuits NEATLY.
dont know for what. WASTE OF TIME.
like totally, if got war, i ask you we all got such time not i ask you.
STUPID.
then i could buy food. COS I'VE A HUSBAND.
then everyone jealous that i can buy food LEHHH. (i helped my fellow classmates to buy food, like totally just buy and buy. I'M NOT A GOOD WAITRESS. my memory sucks ahhh.)
yup. then geog was _.
ss was _.
english was baddd.
i was like half dead i tell you.
bad headachee from starvation.
and ruPAAAAA was being mean and not allowing me to sleep.
she called my name like 1 million and 1 times okkk.
meano poko, pipipapipooo, bibi&baba ahhh!!! [*&^%$#@!+.]
amaths was _.
after sch zhiqi and i wenta canteen and EAT! yayyy!!!
now we know how precious food is. PLEASE TREASURE.
then went back to class, pack bag.
i bought roti prata and ate in class. =X.
(tell you what, if you wanna put roti prata in plastic bag, dont put curry. it tasted like shit, so soggggggy. but my sugar one was niccceee. OK i know i'm a pig.)
then walked zhiqi and xiling down to band.
wanted to buy more pratas but it doesnt taste as good if i eat it aloneee!!!
so i didnt buy. i went str8 home.
for the first time i reach home at like 4pm.
HEH. then i fell asleep. woke up. fell asleep.
then woke up at 8pm for dinner.
then went down to the photo shop to get the track photo printed.
so ma fannn i tell you.
then came back slack slack slack then pom pom then came online.
later gonna do homework. (i promise myself de LEH.)
okok. i better get started.
today i'm like howww crappy.
YAWN. i'm still tired.
ta.

[nascosto.]

__________________perdez de l'appetit.

I HATE MR/MRS/MISS MOSQUITOES!!!
may Lord get rid all of them. amen.

damnit.
i've 30++ mosquitoe bites HOR.
i'm so sad HEH.
mosquitoes at my area is all DENGUE-FIED.
i'm so afraid i'll get dengue fever.
then i'll DIE.
damnit. i can feel myself dying slowly.

last night after i bathed.
i fell asleep at the sofa before even sitting down to try to do homework.
THEN YOU KNOW HOR.
the mosquitoes all came into my living room and bite me!!!
cos i've really sweet blood, yesh i know.
but no need to suck all my blood.
BIG *TOOT. [*&^%$#@!+.]
hmmm, i was so disturbed by the itchy bites.
i woke up at 3am and decided to do alittle homework. (since i promised yujie what.)
then i did some, slacked and went back to sleep at 5am.
woke up.
slacked the day away.
didnt have time to go shopping for valentines day.
only got some lollis.
oh die, and just now my sister and i tried to bake cookies.
and it turns out to taste like cupcake.
so we made cupcakes instead.
my sister is like taking all the better looking ones and give me a few uglier ones.
very good HOR.
that evil poko.
awww. she was using my hp HOR.
nvm. i needa do homework and write love notes later.
HURHUR.
die. i'm gonna find a way to get rid of the mosquitoes.
maybe before i die of dengue fever, to save this earth.
ta.

oh, and happy valentines!

[DIE.]

__________________floating past

the evidence of possibilities.

I'M LOSING MY VOICE.
arghhh.

hmmm, i'm falling sick.
and i hate this feeling.
ahwell, ok here.
a site peihan suggested i should go and read.

www.how-to-study.com

_

anw today was outing with the lovely people!

met up with angeline in the morning first.

that utterly silly girl!

and we wenta get something.

then met up ber and yujia.

then met up with fiona, joelle and peihan.

we were planning to eat sakae sushi's buffet.

walked all the way from taka to wheelock.

but in the end not even serving buffet.

so we ended up eating in han's in far east.

we ate. chat. took pictures.

and yup. yujia, ber and ange went off first.

then we went walk walk.

slacked in tangs.

then wenta taka nike woman to buy ph's socks.

wenta meet jw and qiqi then.

we were like so trying to open up this jar.

HAH. top secret.

hmmm. then went paragon to walk walk.

then we left jw and qiqi and we went back to tangs to check on joelle's thing.

we ended up stalking joelle's jc teacher who looks utterly gay-ish.

it was so fun!!! hurhurhur.

stalking is fun yeahhh.

then after stalking, we went home.

yup. that's abt it.

had lotsa fun listening to jc stories and stuff.

it's been long since i last saw jw too. so missing her heh.

and i hope i can go to the airport on monday for joelle!!!

ahhhwell. i'm falling sick.

and i promised this yujie that i'll do my homework later.

so i shall get off the computer after visiting the site that ph wants me to go and then take a cold shower.

then its time to make love with my homework ler HOR.

ta.

_

[hidden truth.]

__________________embraced the truth,

beyond lies where honesty reigns.

I'M DYING SLOWLY.
my throat hurts cos i ate too much chocolates. but i'm still gonna eat.
NO ONE CAN STOP ME.
its the season to eat chocolates.
fralalalalalalalala! yayyy!

big sigh.
my brain is working 10 times slower than usual HOR.
dont ask me why.
i'll write it somewhere in my entry later.

yest after leaving the house.
was meeting bern and wong at yck mrt station.
headed to wushuang's house.
and her mother asked me and bern a whole lot abt cca points.
WOO. what a challenge, lucky i didnt sleep for that assembly.
i know abit of their cca system thing HOR.
michelle happily spit her orange seed into her F&N orange drink!!!
she thinks no one will know LEH.
HURHUR.
ah well, then i suggested we should play uno stacko.
so we went up to play, and goondu bern is playing for the FIRST time only.
yup, afterwhich was pizza eating downstairs.
the maid refilled michelle's drink.
and the seed was still floating there!!!
oh man, then i ate alot and alot cos i was damn hungry cos i was lunch-less.
bern loves to steal MY mushroom. YUCKS.
then went home ler.
was damn tired.

today.
morning was blah blah blah.
i tell you blah blah blah.
and this blah blah blah.
and zq claims that i was damn high.
then she and peiyin started being high too.
HURHUR. that two wild turkeys!
then we had to give each other injections to calm down.
damn hilarious LOR.
then after sch was me looking for mrs wong to collect $$$ for the bronte stuff first.
then zq, py and i headed to town.
first destination was cine, bits and pieces.
it was so damnit crowded i was like arghhh HOR.
then took the ring and blah blah blah and something embarrassing happened.
i banged my head on the glass.
dont ask me what happened.
i forgot how i did it, but its damn pain ahhh.
then i fell to the floor.
forehead LEH madam.
sobs, then kinda like swollen.
then paid and quickly run away ler.
(oh, meanwhile yiying came and pass me yujie's present for me. thanx yiying for passing and thanx yujie for the cute mehX. though it still looks sadist to me! ;) LAO NIANG IS AN AH LIANX HORX.)
then went to cine cafe.
ate chicken spaghetti cream de.
zq ate the same and peiyin ate the black pepper one.
very nice HOR.
then i wenta buy esprit passion fruit drink to get rid of my coins.
after much consideration, i wenta buy a seafood baked rice!
heh, zq bought also.
i was sucha hungry girl, cant you see?
but i've to say, the baked rice didnt taste as good as usual.
hmmm, then wenta collect the ring.
and then went off to heeren.
blah blah blah.
headed to centerpoint.
saw ruth on the way. HEH.
then walked around till 7++pm.
then home.
MY HEAD HURTS.
i'm so worried.
what if i die?

ok. shall let you know the important ppl in my life.
i'm glad i had/have these ppl in my life.
and i seriously would like to see these ppl around me and my life.
regardless its my wedding or my funeral or even my birthday party.

yeosiying. sereneleow. wendyong. ngeowjiawen. gohhuiyi. bernicelowxiaoting. leeyitian. leehweeyi. yeozhiqi. ruthyeow. jamiephua. joanlim. florachong. daphnegan. liangwanxian. laipeiyin. janiceliu. xiling. chinyujie. sophieng. lohjiahui. ameliachan. fionnelai. chuapeihan. huiboon. shafinaz. jaslynkoh. lynettetan. usarin. eshwaree. nuer. shannalong. sha. winkinggg partner. jennifer. tertia. tong. liyun. joanna. joelle. fiona.

ok la. sometimes its just too many to name.
for now.
i'm just missing [cherryblossomstupidHEAD.] alot.
and so do i miss bloody gang.
SOBS.
hope things are going well for all of them.
awww. ta.

[truth's denier.]

__________________blinded with such lies.

its a season to be tired.
YAWN.

yest was the first day of new year.
my normal bra was falling off me the whole day!!!
awww, cabbed to aunt's house with daddy, kor and hw.
mommy didnt wanna go.
then ate lunch and played with baby.
then kor wenta his fren's house.
and daddy cabbed home and he dropped me and my sis at tiong bahru's place.
HAHA.

we played black jack with $$$.
i tell you please dont be banker next time.
i was ok but until i become banker.
i lost 10+++ bucks.
MY ANG BAO $$$ HOR.
sobs.
ahwell, then my sister and her sister were being mean.
kept bullying me HOR.
and kept cheating my husband and my $$$.
very good HOR that two.
haha. then cabbed home, tiong bahru came to my house too.
HOW NICE, my mommy likes her.
heh. my dad's ok with her. so is my kor.
ITS A HAPPY FAMILY YOU KNOW?
heh. then she cabbed home at 11++pm.
i was so reluctant to let her leave. sigh.

today. second day of new yr,
woke up and got guests.
entertained a little boy with eye lashes more than 1cm long.
WOW. cute ok, he kissed my hand.
HURHUR.
anw still got guests la, im kinda tired entertaining adults.
not my type.
then im leaving my house like NOW.
to meet bernice and michelle to go to wushuang's house LEH.
okok.
TA. happy ang bao collecting day!!!

[too blind.]

__________________thumbing through

pages of my fantasies.

i'm online again. (note the time.)
i cant seem to sign in to msn.
ahwell, how many ppl can be online by now HOR.
so who cares. neh.

dedications.

to leeyitian! :
hey babe.
thanx so much for pushing me throughout the x-country run.
seriously, without you i'll be no where.
i guess only you'll understand why i stopped.
but only you'll understand why i continued.
though i was quite determined to give up.
but you were there to hold my hand through.
i'm seriously thankful for having sucha sweet fren like you.
i'm really sorry i didnt give my best,
i was thinking of giving up which led me to stopping so many times.
and caused you to stop and wait for me.
you could've be in a better position.
ahwell, as you say, that's what friends are for.
i'm telling you now, I LOVE YOU, FRIEND.
you seriously touched my heart.

to BRONTE house CHEERLEADERS! (sounds bimbo, heh!) :
thank you for all the efforts dudes.
i'm glad we got second, though we still aint sure whether we do deserve it or not.
other houses seriously did really well, but i was really happy when i saw all of us having a common goal - to do our best, no matter we're winning or not.
the fact that every single one of us put in the effort, the time and the thoughts in it,
it's rather touching knowing we had spent the times trying our best to get through it.
with the only time we had left with, we did the best out of it.
no matter the judges are blind or not, BRONTE STILL ROCKS.
esp with you guys. ;).
perhaps the judges could sense our sincerity and the house spirit there in us.
and this seriously shows that "THERE CAN BE MIRACLES, WHEN YOU BELIEVE!"
heh, ahwell. PIZZA TREAT AFTER COMMON TEST! ;).

to all bronterians :
KEEP THE HOUSE SPIRIT UP!
i hope we can be the champion house!
IF YOU'RE BRONTE AND YOU LOVE IT, SHOUT BRONTE!
;).

to everyone :
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

to maine :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!
you and your cheeky grin. haha. ;).

to little pervert! :
happy fifth month!

let this be a never ending story.

to HL milk :
why are you so creamy? do you know i wanna drink all of you up?

to mr/mrs/ms pineapple tarts :
you taste really good but why are you so costly?!?
my mom only bought two bottles of you all.
i finished one bottle ler!
how am i gonna survive through new yr without more of you?

ok, its getting late.
i dont know how come i ended up crapping.
dont bother, ahwell.
i'm tired. goodnight!
ta.

[sweet dreams.]

all this while, she has been so hollow inside.

but her smile hides it all.

__________________lost words whisper slowly to me.

hello there.
its been long since i last blogged properly.
OK. there i go.

REWIND. backwards.

tuesday.
today's chinese new yr eve.
cabbed to sch in the morning.
i dressed like a bimbo.
class cap aint that bad afterall.
class interaction games are damn entertaining!
concert was kinda amusing.
cabbed to town with zhiqi and peiyin after sch.
ate yoshi, walked around.
they made me try FUNNY ahma clothings HOR.
then home, here i am.

monday.
yest was x-country.
morning was screwed.
woke up late and i cabbed to macritchie and the taxi driver is STUPID.
cheated my $$$ and dropped me in the middle of the carpark.
stupid HOR?
then the run was _. sigh.
after the run was down to last few cheer practice.
then it came to our turn.
it felt great after we're done.
like one burden off my shoulders.
prize giving.
BRONTE sec.2 and sec.4 got the level champion.
and our cheer got 2nd!
surprising cos everyone's cheer was damn good.
great! and yup. took bronte photos after everything.
took track photo too.
blah blah, bern and i were stalking _.
got lost in some other dimension. (i doubt you'll understand unless you're there yourself.)
then was finding our way to suntec city.
met hweeyi, val, noelle and denise.
ate lunch then both me and bern cabbed down to amanda's house.
sujean was hiding under the table.
kinda funny.
then me and bern fell asleep on the floor.
that's how tired we're.
then we went home after that.

sunday.
nothing much.
packing of the house the whole day.
mom didnt allow me to go for cheer practice.
evening, i went out to find green hair spray.
nothing much.

saturday.
woke up late.
cabbed down to school for cheer practice.
THE TAXI DRIVER IS A YUCKS ONE!
3 weird things he was doing:
1) he was counting $$$ when he was driving.
2) when it was red light, he drew out a towel from who-knows-where. then he started wiping his steering wheel(nothing surprising right?). BUT. the next moment he wiped his face with that SAME towel. then he went to wipe the glass with it, then HIS FACE AGAIN!!!
3) he burped so loudly!!! so stinky. and he daring act like it wasnt him!!!
WHO ELSE CAN IT BE HUH!!!
yesh, that weirdo amused me but disgusted me alot too.
then cheer practice was productive.
wenta republic poly to practice cos sch was closing.
then everyone went off and i wenta meet kenneth.
i had fun!
played soccer and catching.
tried cycling but i was shy.
played with gabriel!!! and his dog, such obedient dog.
gabriel is so cute! he wenta asked a stranger uncle,
"do you have a wife?" in cantonese. cos he felt like asking?!?
CUTEEE!
and clement is one funny boy too.
we played with a neighbour's kitten too.
shanna bought milk for it.
so cute. then wenta kenneth's house.
i was how tired.
was almost falling asleep in her house.
maybe i did, i cant remember.
was utterly reluctant to leave.
then i cabbed home at 9pm.
yup, that's abt it.

AIYA, no time to thank some special ppl.
mommy bad mooding.
I'M SO NOT USED TO CHINESE NEW YEAR.
since last yr i couldnt celebrate chinese new year cos of my granny's death.
sigh, first time celebrating chinese new yr without granny.
i miss you, popo.
sigh. ta.

[missing shadows.]

__________________shedding the tears of

joy, guilt and sadness.

GOOD MORNING!
i'm having sucha bad headache from lack of sleep.
i fell asleep like str8 after desperate housewives.
woke up at 2++am and realised i haven do my chinese essay.
so wenta take a refreshing bath and did my chinese essay.
not exactly done, but 3/4 done lar.
i'm so tired.
i still have to do bronte accountings before i can get back to rest.
ahhh well, shall update properly tmr.
i've got lots to say.
like I LOVE BRONTE'S SPIRIT and etc.
and BRONTE ROCKS and etc.
hurhur.
k ta.

[miracles.]

__________________if only i can move in with you.

tmr is x-country, i'm supposed to sleep early.
but i kinda cant get to sleep.
lotsa things in my mind.
lotsa things to do.
tmr gotta reach macritchie by 6am for me.
sobs.
goodnights, i hope bronterians are all sleeping.
getting ready to cheer their lungs out tmr.
i hope, i hope.

i love sasha long mei shan.
ta.

[let the sky fall.]

__________________swallowed up in

the sound of my screaming.

I LOVE BRONTE SEC.4s!
hello there.
i wanna thank everyone who's helping out on the cheers so much.
i really appreciate it alot.
esp hannah.
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HANNAH.
you're damn a cute girl!!! ;).
doubt you'll read this.
ahwell, but thanx still.
and thanx to every other one who's helping bronte so much!
i'm glad i've all of you.

bound at every limb by my shackles of fear.

_
yesterday was a _day.
but it ended GREAT.
heh. ;).
erm, i was late in the morning.
called daphne and angeline just to tell them what to do for bronte cheering.
then cabbed to sch with my sis.
awww, cheering thing was great with hannah around.
i need not worry, dudes.
esp in front of big crowds.
anw, then was lessons. lessons. lessons.
skip what happened la, not that i seriously remember what i did.
then after sch was cleaning the classroom.
awww, then was late for training.
training was ok la, it's been long since i last ran on a track.
my back was hurting damn badly.
almost break down, hate my back ahhh.
then after training, wenta mobil with them. (sorry, lazy to name.)
then yixuan wenta flag for a cab, i waited for her.
the cab took half an hour to come.
then she sent me to commonwealth station.
from there when i was on my way home.
suddenly i realised my sister called me.
and she was in my tiong bahru's house!!!
very good, then she asked me to go down.
so yeah i did, then i was stoning and stuff.
my sister went off first.
and i ended doing homework for tiong bahru.
heh. that girl was exceptionally sweet!
then i cabbed home.
reached home at 1030++pm.
slept late, was stoning away.

sugar made my heart melt.

_
today was a tiring day.
in the morning, i saw kor at the bus stop.
then sch was _.
then nothing much.
but i know i talked abt tiong bahru the whole day.
HEH. and during recess i wenta photocopying machine.
let's see, ok. i wrote two cards on a A4 size paper.
the cards are for the bronte competitors de.
then there're 40 competitors.
but i told the auntie i want 40 copies.
then she pressed.
then i was thinking how come so many, then i realised i should get 20 only since i need 40 cards only.
wth. anw then i was busy filling in the names and zhiqi just wants to write the names and class for the cards, she wrote BIG BIG HOR.
she scared ppl blind LEH.
then blah blah blah, then was after school!
angeline, ebel and i wenta take the banner and put in mrs wong's car.
then was talking to mrs wong abt stuff yup.
then was cheer.
meanwhile i wenta help zhiqi to buy pankhurst shirt.
the bookshop auntie sooo sexy LEH. (cant you tell that i'm lying?)
then back to cheers.
and in between, had talks to eshwaree.
then dismissed ler and i wenta canteen to see keller practice.
walked around to chat with eshwaree, HAHA.
i found out more and more stuff about _ HOR.
ORH HOR, she is a meano poko HOR.
wahahaha.
anw then she went off and soon, zhiqi called.
so peiyin and i wenta foryer to wait for her dad to come and fetch us.
then zhiqi's dad treated us to dinner.
WOW, there was 5 dishes. 1 soup.
we were ohhh so full HOR.
and both peiyin and i thought zhiqi's mom looked fierce.
but she isnt that fierce afterall.
hmmm after dinner, zq's dad fetched us to wheelock place.
peiyin bought a nike top and zq bought her shorts and i dont know got top not.
i was tired and my back was hurting.
and i went over to the opposite toy shop to check on WOODSTOCK.
haha.
then was home for me, cos my dad wants me home.
hmmm its getting late.
goodnight. ta.

i'm glad i'm over you,
if not,
my heart will be all shattered by now.

_
[endless nights.]

__________________oubliez-le.

awww. the picture above is kinda cheesy huh.
HEH.
i found it quite nice so put there for fun.
or maybe. for my tiong bahru ahhh. ;).

and the "oubliez-le." is in french.
just in case you think i'm just doing some random typing.
HEH. i'm not that bo liao HOR.

i'll try my best to get you outta my mind.

today was _.
morning assembly was damn boring.
i wanted to sleep but couldnt find a nice position to fall asleep in.

then chinese lesson, the policeman msged me.
i replied a few then stop replying ler.
that silly policeman is gonna get sued cos of his fren's car issue.
how silly of him to help and getting himself into trouble please.
hope he wont get sued LOR.

pe. warm-up was 1 round.
late comers had to run 2 rounds.
i had the choice to run or not.
but obviously i ran with my friends. ;).
hehe. felt utterly cold as usual ehhh.
then was this malay football game?!?!
kinda lame, jaslyn could play damn well.
the rest of us were just trying our best.

cme was erm, no comments.
recess was _.
i was like a crazy woman, having cravings for all sorta foods.
ate the normal food.
then i bought hong kong noodles and shared with the rest.
then i bought chicken rice and shared with the rest again!
hah. was still very hungry HOR.

then was social studies.
i realised my right ear hole was damn bloody.
ouch HOR.
ms ting asked me to go to the G.O after realising i kept staring into the mirror.
then i wenta apply [i dont know what it was.].
mrs yip helped me!!!
yesh, the teacher who calls me banana.
HEH. i went like "ouch, ouch!"
then she went like "aiyo, aiyo!"
haha. CUTE TEACHER HOR?
dropped my whole packet of ear sticks on zhiqi's seat.
awww. but now my right ear got dried blood.
look like a permanent black ear stud.
mrs yip doesnt allow me to touch it till it peels by itself when its over drying. =X.

amaths was _.
i was damn sleepy arghhh.
i was freezing in stw ahhh.
then lunch i was sleeping in stw.
emaths was _.
loci sucks ahhh.
so hard for whattt!
then was BIO!
mrs yip called me banana again!
but she added hanjin after saying banana.
HEH.

then was break time before amaths lesson.
wenta take a look at bronte house practice.
i ate chicken rice AND ccf.
HAH. sorry my hanyupingying sucks so i decided not to spell it out.
in case zhiqi laugh at me. blushes.

amaths lesson was great.
everyone was damn attentive cos ms chua was giving out chocolates.
i answered two correct!!! ;).
then went down to the canteen for bronte cheering thing.
then home ahhh.
stressed ahhh.
in case of pimples again, i'm gonna do facial now!
ta.

[i'm the one who didn't know the truth.]

__________________cause my heart keeps falling faster.

_

RUNNING OUTTA TIME.

ahwell, today was _.

_

mass run was embarrassing.

i thought maxine was behind me.

who knows when i was calling her name out loud in the crowd.

she was actually strolling behind, backwards somemore!

_

pe was great, i guess?

maybe cos i had this very bad stomachache but i managed to run throughout non-stop.

i'm happy with that HOR.

_

during bio, mrs yip called me BANANA. =X.

and she made zhiqi and peiyin and wanxian to sit behind.

so isolated!!! she's a meano poko.

let me tell you abt yest.

she made those who didnt bring bio tys to stand outside.

and half of the class went out.

then she made those who brought but didnt do to stand behind the class.

so the other half went behind.

HEH. left vani sitting down only.

then HOR.

she went to every empty desk to look for the worksheet she just went through.

then she check whether mark ler not.

unmarked and no corrections ones are all thrown (flinged actually.) on the floor.

when it came to mine.

she asked "who's banana?"

cos i didnt write my name, but i wrote banana for fun.

then in the end she crushed my paper!!!

very good. but it was damn hilarious the way she's angry.

not that i'm sadist or what.

but her actions make me wanna laugh please!

_

then was english.

KENNETH! (the sji one.)

your _ is good LEH.

heh.

ah well, high marks LEHHH!!!

_

assembly was boring.

after that i went to talk to eshwaree and annabelle.

that bimbo is so bimbotic!

HAH.

then i rushed down to the chairman thing.

xiling and i were like craving for food.

and GREAT! they provided tea break. grins.

mr lee and ms tricia goh were behaving like bored students.

DAMN HILARIOUS I TELL YOU!

ok, then after that mr lee gave me and xiling the sec.3 maths test paper to do for fun.

i'm damnit careless arghhh. yucks.

went back to class to sweep the floor.

then eshwaree talked to me.

and we waited for zq.

tell you HOR.

this eshwaree very amused by my HOR.

showed her tiong bahru's photo.

she thinks tiong bahru is a boy.

and she refuses to admit she is a GIRL.

she kept saying "she is a BOY.

WAHAHA.

_

then home.

so tired ah.

_

tmr got BRONTE HOUSE PRACTICE.

pe attire. canteen. 3.30pm.

gonna learn cheers for x-country.

needa come down HORRR.

no time ler!

okok. this is a long long entry.

ta.

_

you might think i don't look.

but deep inside the corner of my mind.

i'm attatched to you.

_

[outta sight, outta mind.]