her seduction keeps her winning in all the battles.

__________________live your dreams,

it's not as hard as it may seem.

well. hi there.
it's been really abt a week since i last blog properly.
haven been really feeling well.
finally sent my bloody phone for service.
and got all my pictures deleted.
was kinda bad mooding, all my memories gone.
bloody. but sigh, i cant do anything.
well. wenta ysy's house today.
had a good long chat with her abt studies.
seriously i think i wont be coming online so often.
its time i reset all my priorities.
btw. serene gave me some ppg stickers.
so sweet of her.
and PEPPER is the cutest of all.
missing him so much.
cbsf, i miss more! =D.

yeah, i've did some changes to my template.
bored you see.
i've to do my english essay.
ANYBODY INTERESTED IN DOING IT FOR ME?
nvm, i shall say the person who does it for me will win a date with me.
HAHA. kiddin la.
but no harm helping if you're free yeah?

Attempt one of the following essay topics below:
a) 'Slow down, we're going too fat.'
b) The experiment.
c) Is competition good for us? Is there an alternative?
d) I live in Commonwealth. Let me introduce you to my family...
e) Is there something about which you know a great deal? Write an essay which both informs and engages the reader.

if you're really planning to do it for me.
pls sent it to me on msn. thanx. HURHUR.
well. abt 1200-1500 words.
erm, no need to be really good essay. done can ler.
HURHUR. i'm so evil. kiddin la.

well. i seriously think its pointless to blog anymore.
cos i'm forkin lazy and i think STUDYING is my kinda job.
sigh. i'm gonna be a nerd for the next yr till o's are over.
thankyou.

hugo yang zhen.
see your name above? happy?
its mentioned. be honoured hor.
if not, you can do the essay for me.
HURHUR. kiddin'.
thanx for playing games with me online. GRINS.

[give your all.]

ok. short and sweet.
i'm sick and i'm gonna do my jian bao right after this.

and, and!!!
anyone who cares to get me a new handphone.
she/he'll win a date with me!
HAHA. kiddin la.
my phone's screwed.
TA.

close friends are just friends.

define what's happening to me.
why cant i talk to my friend?
it seems like rumours have made us distant.
well, maybe not.
maybe its cos i said something wrong?
did i?
oh, damnit. my fault again. =/.

she has been trying to convince herself that -

you're just a passerby to her life.

__________________let's play pretence,

like it comes naturally.

MERRY XMAS EVERYONE.
i'm forking sick.
down with horrible headache.
i hate this dizziness. no mood to blog.
argh.
ta.

[its the season to be jolly.]

__________________it is the biggest mistake

to even know you.

since now got mood to blog.
hah. some recalls.

monday.
dad woke me up at 615am.
for your info, i slept at 6am.
wow. i've insomnia.
i was so trying to sleep but ended up msging smoky's owner.
then i bathed and sent my dad to the heart center.
my aunt was there.
we chatted while my dad had his check up done inside.
and meanwhile i slept too.
woke up. headed to town.
ate beef noodles.
then caught ocean's twelve with my dad in lido.
my aunt went shopping alone.
it was so cold. and the start of the show was boring.
so i slept at the first part.
woke up. and watched the rest. quite interesting la.
then we headed to paragon.
went to this eu yan sheng or something specialist center.
i slept there too. was so freaking tired from the sleepless night.
hurhur.
then cabbed home with dad.
slept till 9pm.
and couldnt sleep till 7am again.
nvm. at least i slept till 3++pm the next day.

tuesday.
woke up at 3++pm.
was supposed to meet up with kenneth and gang for a movie.
but i couldnt wake up though kenneth called a million times. (kidding. thrice only.)
then i bathed.
cabbed down to great world city to meet kennth and gang at the arcade.
esmond and kennth were playing shooting game.
kenneth looked so memerising. HURHUR.
then they went to a lan shop.
i was msging jamie and she happened to be in one too. =D.
haha. well. slacked around and went to kenneth's house then.
was reluctant to leave till 10++pm.
cabbed home.
kenneth gave me $$$ (again.). feel so bad.
reached home at 11pm. ate dinner.
played games online again.
tried to sleep but couldnt.
slept at 7++am again.

wednesday.
sister woke me up at 12noon.
was so freaking tired.
bathed and blah blah blah.
sister and i went shopping.
i bought her adidas spray (?!?) some man perferm i think.
yeah.
bought kenneth a nike shirt and a adidas jacket like shirt. =D.
then headed to kenneth's house.
kenneth's sister was there. so was esmond and this clement guy.
my sister and i went to seven eleven.
i got drinks. 2 bottles of DNA. 1 volka. 1 mudshake.
DNA's bottle so pretty but the drink was so full of gas.
sucks like hell.
the mudshake i got was freezed.
shonna had to poke it with a chopstick and shake it.
kenneth doesnt like the mudshake cos got milk.
my sister drank too. (ok, i know i'm a bad influence.)
kenneth's cousin took one DNA.
yeah she drank all alone in her room. (?!?!!!!)
shonna didnt exactly drink.
she tried everything and said they're bitter. shakes head.
my sister drank quite alot. CRAZY WOMAN.
i was kinda red. my sister was drunk and talking rubbish.
wenta the room after esmond and clement left.
kenneth and her sister and my sister all came in.
we all slept together.
HURHUR. they offed the lights.
both of our sisters were trying to peep at what we were doing!!! (with their hp lights.)
blushes.
crazy ppl.
my sister made kenneth cooked for her.
so did her sister.
so kenneth had to cook for both of them.
then yeah both of them ate and yeah.
went to market and my sister got her SOUR lime drink.
cabbed home after that.
my sister fell asleep like instantly.
i ate my dinner then slept at 12++midnight.

thursday. (today.)
woke up at 11++am.
slacked around and bathed.
sent my dad down to the paragon's specialist center at 230pm.
then my aunt looked after him.
while i walked to wisma taxi stand. (my favourtite taxi stand.)
saw jw's ***. SHEESH.
then cabbed to ikea.
waited for jialing for quite awhile.
was talking to her on the phone abt *****.
hahaha. she even sent a photo of her over.
WOW. good lookin'. drools. ;).
haha. she came and we realised today we saw lotsa ppl.
i saw huiyi and chatted with her for awhile.
then we settled down with meatballs.
we sat at the kids' corner.
THE KIDS WERE SO CUTE. i want a baby right now.
got this twins. totally hilarious.
the elder sister is so fierce.
the maid was telling us how she cut away her younger sister's hair!!!
totally scary, no wonder her sister's hair so screwed. (!!!)
hahaha. i love the curly hair little boy who smiled at me.
hurhur.
then went off to queensway shopping center and walked around.
i bought the fbt i've been waiting for my size to come.
blah blah blah. it was late.
so we went home.
reached home at 8++pm.
dad quarrelled with me.
my brother is back from NS again. =D.
but no excitement ler. =(. hahaha.

well there.

i dont need you to believe me.

as long as i know i said the truth.

its enough for me.

ok. nothing else ler.
ta.

[happily ever after.]

__________________everyone is so hypocritical.

well.
hanjin has to send her dad for check up now.
she's gonna blog tonight.
i'm so dreading over it.
ta.

[and i hate the way you ppl exchanged looks.] _______________(how rude.)_______________

i miss all my gfs right now.
esp JW and TONG.
sobs.
and little pervert DUH.
and ysy. yesh.
and my jamie pck. h[j]am rocks. ;).
ok. no mood to blog as always.
time to try to get some sleep before my dark eye bags becomes worse.
ta.

fuckin' hell.
i fuckin' hate hanjin.
tell me whats all these mood swings all about.
jw. i need you right now.
sobs.
hanjin is sucha fucked up i cant tell what she fuckin' wants.
i hope she falls asleep and never wakes up again.
burn in hell, hanjin. burn.

i walked away

as i watched her repeat her same old mistakes.

she prays for rain,

so to wash away all her memory and pain.

_________________time stops for no one

and moves on unaware.

well. finally found mood to blog. ;).
time to recall, recall, recall.

tuesday.
ppg chalet day 1.
went to northpoint in the morning to meet june.
then came back home then headed to pasir ris station to see melissa stoning.
she waited for 1 hr?
well, she didnt know what was happening.
cant help it, that blur silly girl.
then headed to the downtown east.
checked in.
settled down playing cards with bets like cocoa crunch, chocolates and mentos.
was funny la. was made to dial some weird number to talk nonsense.
but every number i called cannot get through.
well. then was bbq.
the food was great.
we had fun eating and cooking.
sambal food was nice. =D. mel was choking on the sambal.
zhiqi and jialing was laughing at peiyin's "sambal dao siao." thing.
funny ler peiyin.
we took pictures with the kids next door.
well we felt like volunteers. (i wonder why. smirks.)
then was watching tv.
took photos again and again and to find ourselves deleting them cos its just not perfect.
everyone bathed.
and we drank. flora and i were claimed to be drunk by the rest.
we were as wild as turkeys?!? (quoted from most of their blogs.)
peiyin was really red on her face.
well. no comments. but i know i was gonna change when i took off my top.
i wasnt striping for anyone of you to see.
cheapskate.
well. i've to say mudshake tasted so good!!!
then they forced me and flora to sleep.
yeah i slept while msging.
something happened outside when they were chit chatting outside.
i was sleeping like a dead pig i know nothing heh.

wednesday. ppg chalet day 2.
woke up to realise everyone didnt really sleep well.
but well. i've no comments. i had a nightmare.
then was bathing and getting changing and headed to macs to get our really light breakfast.
i ate a pathetic hashbrown.
hmmm. headed to escape. knowing i've almost the weakest heart around.
well. the brave soul hanjin ended up taking all the rides except walls revolution.
yeah i even took the slow small planes that kids take.
and the ferry's wheel.
i love the ferry's wheel and the go kart the most.
go kart was the last of our rides.
jialing was the driving me for the start. it was hilarious.
she couldnt park properly, we had an accident duh.
lucky we are not dead. HAHA.
and this tai tai flora was sticking out her hand so tai tai-ish while zhiqi the driver was driving.
hilarious. we could hear melissa's scream when she's driving?
haha. then was me trying to drive.
i love driving it. =D. then we proceeded to the advance go kart driving.
we didnt had fun like we thought cos the in charge let us off like really very far away from each other?!?
we couldnt see anyone in front of us nor behind us.
we felt like we were driving all alone on the freaking road.
but still it was funnn. though we missed our old changi hospital show.
went back and flora's parents sent us lotsa food. =D.
how nice of them. i had to run back to keep the bottles all alone.
it was kinda freaky. but i was not scared la and yeah haha.
then ate so much and flora's parents left while we chatted and started wild turkey-ing again.
everyone started heading in to bath.
i had this weird feeling of myself on the rainbow ride.
moving from rounds and rounds again. had horrible headache.
fell asleep while waiting for them to bathe.
woke up to bath, to find out my eyes were swollen from sleeping with my contacts on.
then was yeah bathing and the door kept opening when i was bathing?
freaky. its freaky. i told zhiqi only.
but well. nothing happened yeah.
when i came out.
peiyin and mel were the only ones not sleeping.
the rest fell asleep. next moment peiyin fell asleep. then mel.
then i was msging till i fell asleep too.

thursday. ppg chalet day 3.
woke up at 10+am. i was the first few to wake up.
then packed up and checked out.
ate in macs and everyone took flora's dad's car.
while me and zhiqi had to go back on our own.
we ended up taking a cab cos i was feeling rather impatient with the bus.
wenta little pervert's house then.
we were talking rubbish and yeah.
had fun. i fell asleep a number of times as i was too tired from the chalet.
went home at 9pm.
cabbed home.
came online and did nothing.
and chatted with nora and jw abt ___. haha. ;).
slacked around.
till 4am. started chatting on the phone with smoky's owner and her junior.
her junior's laughter is so funny!!!
yeah we chatted abt everything under the sun.
till 7++am. my mom woke up and called me a pig!?!
weirdo mom i've there.
then slept right after the phone call.

friday.
woke up at 2/3++pm.
ate and slept again.
then was slacking around the whole day.
nothing happened, i supposed.

saturday. woke up at 10am.
my brother was coming home from NS.
i was so excited. i packed his room and everything though i was freaking tired.
then he came back. =D.
that botak head kor kor of mine was so cute.
(ok i miss him thats why i say so.)
nothing much happened.
i watched tv for almost the whole day.
the show i watched was so good.
i think its called max beetles on the move or something.
max is my dream boyfriend. HAHA.
then came online at night to help my kor kor find someone to buy the ipod mini for 380 bucks.
to find jw sad cos of this forker.
well. anw DEAL DONE. janessa got the good deal. ;).
hohoho. i'm a good sales girl. (nah. actually ipod mini is really cheap at that rate.)
then bad mooded quite alot.
fell asleep at 3++am while watching tv.

sunday. thats today huh.
woke up at 12 noon.
ate breakfast. then was hiding in my room.
my stomach cramps hurts.
my elbow hurts. (i hit it while taking a ride in escape.)
my shin hurts. (as usual.)
so does my ankle. and my left heel. right hip bone.
i was so in pain i wanted to kill myself.
ate panadols.
(the no. of panadols i ate is equivalent to the no. i'm thinkin of right now. ok. i'm cranky.)
then my uncle and cousin came to my house.
out of courtesy, i came out to rest in the living room.
my cousin chatted with me.
that guy is really tall and yeah kinda sweet and good lookin. =D.
then yeah my uncle stuffed me $$$ without my mom knowing.
rejected (out of courtesy, DUH.) but he insisted.
EVIL GRINS.
then they went off while i headed to rest in my room again.
watched tv and stuff. realised i've fever. (eeyer.)
came out and helped my botak head iron his NS uniform.
then blah blah blah.
he went back to serve NS. damn.
just now watch shrek!!!
really touching show?!? i dunno. but i cried like shit.
ok. i admit i'm spastic.
but good show. thumbs up.
well nothing much. then here i am blogging. =D.

ok. actually i wanted to make my entry short and sweet.
but then again.
its hard to get me into the mood to blog.
so since i'm in the mood.
i shall be long winded.
and i'm seriously very long winded.
i bought a box of panadols just now.
why do they state extra when it doesnt even work on me.
pouts. am i that immune to it?
damnit.
i hate pain. i hate pain killers which doesnt work.
well ok. too long an entry.
ta.

[love drives me crazy.]

_______ ___. this is for you.

are you fucked up or what?
please stop disturbing my friend's happiness.
i'm gonna box you.
dont try to snatch her gf.
you dont know how it feels to have your gf snatched away.
i'll go and snatch your gf away.
*&^%$#@!+.
watch out.
but hah. no thanx.
your gf looks like shit and so sluty.
yucks. makes me wanna puke.
please get your hands off my friend's gf.
well. BURN IN HELL.
you dont wanna know how well hated you're.
you dont wanna see how many pairs of hands can lay on you!
bloody, know your limits.

the girl she used to see in the mirror, is no longer the same.

_

she's fallen asleep and i'm trying to wake her.

_

she is trying to erase the traces of what came before her.

_________________it's all an illusion

cause i'm still the same person.

TAMADE.
i'm not in the mood to blog as again.
abt chalet.
you can go check out what happened from these ppl's blog.
flora's blog,
jialing's blog,
melissa's blog,
peiyin's blog,
zhiqi's blog.
i'll blog when i'm in the mood.
argh. iwannaboxyou. please go to hell. go to hell. go to hell.
burn in hell, burn in hell, burn in hell.
Brand in der Hölle.
ta.

[deserve death.]

__________________a piece of shit.

back from chalet.
no mood to blog now.
ta.

[irresponsible and disgusting shits.]

__________________slap back to reality.

woke up wenta meet june just now.
HAH. chatted quite alot.
she fed me yogurt. how sweet.
well. OFF FOR PPG CHALET.
cheers. ta.

[dreams are just dreams.]

her mind keeps recreating a life with you alone.

__________________it's the kind of love

that lingers through the ages.

=D. just ate dinner.
i'm feeling crappy.
MY ANKLE HURTS.
tmr is ppg chalet. i miss my kor kor.
i can tie my hair without any hair clips anymore.
you can mock me no more.
today. i woke up at 12++noon.
last night slept at 5am.
hmmm. i went for a run just now.
before that was sending my kor's thing for dry wash.
and was posting cheque in OCBC bank.
the security looks bian tai!
well outta pt.
yeah i ran from my house here to northpoint.
usually i take 15 mins.
today i took 3 mins?
i strided there la basically. (without my sis, no need to wait for her to whine and stop and whine.)
then i visited june who was working.
chatted with her.
tmr i'm going for breakfast with her before chalet.
haha. ran home and i skipped for half an hour.
then went out to buy dinner.
then came back did sit ups.
well dont ask me why i'm doing so much exercise. (check out how long i didnt go for training.)
yup. then just ate.
my life is so rubbish.
my ankle cracks like click clack. click clack.
yawn. when is kenneth gonna come back?
i'm going crazzzy.
smoky's owner is maddd.
haha. =D.
off to pack bag for chalet.
ta.

[resistance ain't that strong.]

her daily essential is chocolate you.

you fulfill my every desire.

when i'm with you, you take me higher.

__________________the truth is lyin' next to you.

proper bloggin'. finally in the mood. =D.
currently chatting to shanna long on msn.
WOW. webcam is a good invention i tell you.
ok. lets see.

thursday.
cabbed down to clementi.
walked smoky.
HANJIN WALKED SMOKY. =D.
then was cabbing to town with smoky's owner.
HAH.
the taxi driver was maddd.
he thinks he's utterly sexy arh.
funny la. then smoky's owner went for a hair cut.
then was slacking around in town.
nothing much. cabbed home.
slept at 5++am.

friday.
woke up at 3pm.
ate then came online.
slacked around home the whole day.
nothing done.

saturday. that's yest.
wow. totally supposed to meet jialing at 1130am.
but 11am i just woke up.
damn. then i rushed rushed rushed.
my mom came and scold me.
she didnt want me to go out. =(.
then she called up jialing to talk abt me going out.
ok for more details. -> jialing's blog.
yup. cabbed to somerset station.
you dont wanna know how many KNNs i used yest.
first time i scold such vulgur words. (so many times somemore.)
those stupid ppl snatch taxi with me.
i totally grabbed my sis's hockey stick and act LIAN.
wow. i win i tell you. for the first time i act so fierce and lianish.
but i was bad mooding. cant help me.
i scolded the taxi driver too.
well. jialing cried. =(. i was so scared when her eyes turn into tap.
yuppp. then we settled down with wanton mee in heeren.
quite unique. yup. nice la.
then went to cine, jialing got her cap.
and we went to watch the orchard jam thing.
saw claryce, my cute girl. watch arpee performed then went off.
then went to john little to get _. you'll know what if you read jialing's blog.
damnit. its embarrassing.
the sales lady came over and said "got size de leh."
then she loooked at the package, then she was like "ok, correct A size."
WA PIANG ah. totally embarrassing. ppl's here D cup can.
cannot embarrass me like that.
well then went home.
saw nora and smoky's owner.
jialing took the longer way to pei wo. =D. so sweet right.
yup.

sunday. today.
woke up at 12+noon.
wenta buy lunch.
ate lunch. parents talked to me abt gays and lesbians.
=X. no comments.
i love kenneth. well. slacking still.
haha. ta.

[a chain of thoughts.]

check this out -> arpee.

saw this band at the youth park performing today.
saw my cute girl. =D.
well. quite interesting.
1 funny guy with a funny wig, one pretty girl, 1 good lookin' drumer and 1 hilarious "blow job" guy.
i'm just being bored alright. =X.

[jinx.]

i'm too lazy to blog.

JUST WANNA LET YOU KNOW

YOU LOOK LIKE DA BIAN.

dont forget to burn in hell. if you cant remember.

no worries, i'll burn down your house with you inside.

ARGH.

ta.

oh my.
first time im online for 5 straight hrs without doing anything productive.
but i chatted with kenneth who is all the way in hong kong one.
=D. so happy. got nice song with dirty lyrics.
but i dont really care. HAHA.

ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.
ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.
ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.
ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.

whatever you want, i got it, papi.
don't hesitate, holla at me.
what i'm lookin' for.
is simple, you see.
love and support and sexuality.
when i'm with you, i don't wanna leave.
i need you just like air that i breathe.
but when i'm not with you, i'm missing a piece.
i got a lot inside i need to release.

you fulfill my every desire.
when i'm with you, you take me higher. (wooo woo whoo.)

[chorus.]
you're my afrodisiac.
you're the only one i'm needin'.
when i go, i'll come back.
'cause there is no way i'm leavin'.
you're my afrodisiac.
you're the only one i'm needin'.
when i go, i'll come back.
'cause there is no way i'm leavin'.

there is no way you are gettin' away.
i need your love every day.
medicine can't cure the way that i feel.
what i need is my inner fill.
being without you, it's makin' me ill.
stressin' me out, i need to chill.
something this strong, gotta be real.
nothing or noone, show my skills.
you fulfill my every desire.
when i'm with you, you take me higher. (wooo woo whoo.)

i admit that i'm a prisoner of your sex appeal. (sex appeal.)
i can't seem to find a way to escape how i feel. (how I feel.)
i can't wait no longer, please come give a dose to me. (dose to me.)
craving's gettin' stronger, need you now, close to me.

[you're my afrodisiac.]

erm no mood for proper blogging.
i msged my brother just now.
its his second night in the NS ler.
there goes the family msging.

ME: hows your day dude? hope you're doing well there. please reply. i miss you kor..
KOR: Sianz lah. Nothing much to do anyway.
MY SIS using her hp: why sian? no training? you botak le ah?
(i dunno how come my sister came into the picture, she said something like this.)
KOR: Watever lah. Hahaz.
ME: wat watever la? wat did you eat for dinner? we ate BAO BEI! and chilli crab. grins. so wat time 're you gonna sleep? haha i was actually kiddin about bao bei!
(note: my brother's favourite food is called bao bei.)
KOR: Wah lau. Still got eat crab right? I need to sleep at 1030. Gd night.
ME: nah that was kiddin too. cheer up la. sleep well. no need to reply k. =). miss ya. nights.

i know this is not very hilarious or interesting in anyway.
BUT I LOVE MY KOR KOR. he's so ah beng by the way he replies.
(look for the Zs.)
utter cuteness. and he's totally still thinking abt nice FOOD there.
=D. how funny. i seriously miss him.
k. ta.

[i realised i need ya so.]

__________________swimming against

all of my waves and rapids.

hmmm good morning.
the person who calls me asshole is still sleeping. i'm very sure.
supposed to go and see her dog dude.

what goes around, comes around.

wth. i miss my brother so much.
yest i woke up so bloody early just for my brother.
headed to pulau tekong.
he's starting his ns service ler.
sigh. i was so totally reluctant to give my brother to them.
i'm so bloody dependent on him at home.
he's always standing up for me when i wanna go out lor. =X.
wahaha. well after the pulau tekong thing.
cabbed home with mommy and daddy.
then bathed came online and blogger was down.
blah blah blah. bathed.
then went down to meet yitian.
well hj is late as usual. (duh.)
walked around. laughed so much i tell you.
ah well. OLINDA SAID HI TO ME. (you're not supposed to know my secret: i said hi to her first.)
hah. ok. i'm retarded. well i was crossing the road with yt.
then she was walking the opposite direction and i happened to see her face.
so i said hi. hahaha! and we saw leandra. and this michelle woman who acts in liu xing hua yuan 2. wa piang. her hair is so screwed.
HAH.
hmmm abt six. yitian has to go off after buying her stuff.
oh ya. did i say? tampons are so COOL. haha. (according to yt la.) (to me: OUCH!)
haha. well then walked to lido to meet jw to take my keys back.
ended up talking her to abt my love life. HAH. (more than that la.)
ness was pretty but she has the funniest laughter.
they tried to stalk their tutor and ness's sister in action.
HAH. then went to orchard station and sat now and CHILLED. (nah. actually talk abt our experience!) =X.
haha. then went off at abt 815pm.
rushed down to search for peiyin's house.
passed her flora's camera. then cabbed home.
her house is so near my house!!! the cab fare was 3 bucks only.
haha. but i was kinda lazy to find my way home and yeah..
reached home at 9++pm. ate.
wanted to come online blah blah blah.
ended up sleeping like a pig.
shit. i wonder what is the binder dreaming of now. hah!
hmmm. kk.
ta.

[numb these pain.]

__________________keep holding my breath

while i'm trying to breathe.

ba.
yest was cabbing to little pervert's house in the morning.
blah. both of us cried like shit.
from there i strolled to the train station when i can take a bus.
i was supposed to meet jialing at orchard station but i ended up taking the longest route one can take.
i alighted at outram, i dont know why, i just alighted there.
strolled to the north east line. and took to douby ghaut. then walked back and take to orchard.
i strolled so slowly my one step, was the ahma's four steps ler.
everyone passed by me so fast i dont know what i was thinking abt.
yeah then was meeting up with jialing.
felt so cranky. and shopping makes me feel so much better.
got a good deal pair of girly jeans and both jialing and i got a top each from fourskin.
we changed right there. in the shop. hah.
jialing got a pair of MALAY jeans. hah.
i wanted the really really baggy jeans. but didnt get it in the end.
hmmm we ate in this very nice restaurant.
black pepper steak (they called it black pepper beef though.) and white dunno what pasta.
the pasta was nice! haha.
something happened, it was so funny i cant describe.
all i can remember was jialing's expression and her "your handphone exploded!"
well no worries, my hp did NOT explode. she was being paranoid after the experience of her speakers exploding!
haha. well the pasta was nice. =D.
and the nice auntie accepted my TORN ten dollar note. =X.
hmmm. jialing got a purple belt. and we went to lips.
and we got hot drinks for the first time.
jialing burnt her tongue so unpro at drinking hot drinks.
shakes head.
then went home. blah.
oh did i say jialing and i took a cab from far east to heeren?!?
hah. that totally shows how lazy we're.

today woke up really early.
rushed down to city hall. supposed to meet her at 9am.
but i reached at 930am. oh i was late this timee.
hah. then headed down to airport.
rushed to the departure hall/gate/whatever.it.is and saw my little pervert walking in.
argh. that felt bad.
but i felt retarded being excited seeing her, though behind those stupid glass that divides us.
hah. then jialing and i went to bk to eat brunch.
well i didnt mean to critisize everything there.
but i didnt exactly feel good abt everything. HAH.
i fell asleep well jialing found newpaper to entertain herself.
i woke up then we headed to town ler.
shared cine's meepok. =D.
walked around. bought a top then we went to robinsons to buy face towels.
hah. cunning us switched the colours in the pack.
lazy to explain. then jialing bought her speakers and we slacked in macs.
WOW this guy winked so nice, i likeeee!
haha. well. yup. then home.

[the illusion i held onto.]

_

was then i realise that forever was in your eyes,

the moment i saw you cry.

she is always hiding when it's her turn to seek.

PIANG ah.
lao niang feeling cranky again. no mood to blog.
lao niang hopes jw feels better.
or else lao niang will box the person who makes jw feels so sad.
bloody asshole. da bian. eat sai. [*&^%$#@!+.]
lao niang had nv felt more cranky than today.
jialing knows how weird lao niang am today. ARGH.
well. lao niang shall blog tmr and shall stop crapping here.
ta.

[all over again.]

she never knew what she wants, she got tears all over her keyboard.

__________________my only belief

is not to have faith in believing.

well.
yest i slept the whole day.
woke up to eat ice cream for breakfast.
and went back to sleep.
woke up wenta buy a packet of fried oyster and a packet of hokkien noodles.
my dad wanted to eat.
but i ended up eating all.
went back to sleep after that.
then jw called. i woke up to ans her phone call.
went back to sleep again.
when i woke up i knew i was late for huiyi's housewarming.
well rushed like shit. bathed and cabbed down.
supposed to reach at 730pm but i sorta reached at 830pm.
chatted with tong, my gf. (dont bother counting how many gfs i have, i dont even know.)
then came my gf jw and _.
the few bimbos and calx's sis and jw and tong and _ and i all went up to the roof top to have fun.
while i had the most fun entertaining calx's sis.
hah. she's kinda hilarious.
she keeps asking me to take water for her.
the kitchen is at the first storey.
and did i say huiyi's house is like four storeys.
i climbed up and down 4 times cos this playful 4 yr old girl kept ordering me like i'm her maid.
haha i ended up sweating like some shit.
but its kinda fun. i like kids so i'm ok with it. haha.
reached home at 1130pm.
then realised i left my keys in huiyi's house.
but the sad thing is her house is so freakin' big so cannot find it.
even now. like no news abt my keys. SOBS.
big sigh. couldnt sleep till 3am.

today. woke up at 1pm.
ate lunch and helped my mom do some stuff.
ate some ice cream then went back to sleep.
hah. i slept till 8pm.
woke up to eat dinner and here i am sitting here.
argh. i feel like puking.

let's see. why do i feel so screwed.
maybe cos i stopped consuming my babyfood.
but thats cos my parents wanna see me eat more.
but i seriously have no appetite for food.
i stuffed myself so much i wanna puke. argh.
well i'm sleeping so much lately. i dont mind if i just sleep and never wake up again.
i'm feeling bloody cranky. i can laugh and cry at the same time.
everyone who saw me cry knows that very well.
but hey. i can laugh so loud. but deep down within.
that me. i'm breaking down.
ta.

[memories are painful.]

oh my. i love jw. she just msg me that my keys are with her! =D.

lao niang no mood to blog.
lao niang lost her keys in lao niang's fren's big house.
for more info, lao niang will blog tmr!
lao niang says ta.
btw. lao niang loves being fat and ugly and aH LiAn-iSh.

[somebody stop me.]

_________________take it while it lasts, cause it will end.

hmmm i'm back from track camp.
well first day was kinda slack.
i cabbed to sch cos i was feeling utterly lazy.
they were painting banner when i reached.
and i just bathed so i din touch at all.
went out to tiong bahru with lynette to get some stuff for telematch.
meanwhile i bought my babyfood. =X.
then went back to sch to put stuff.
from there i went along with bernice and everyone to hollandv to get the water melon and everything else needed.
blahblah. had long long chat with yitian.
totally nice one man. =).
somehow we ended up in a cab back to sch.
then evelyn, yixuan and i went up to the hall to slack.
then was bath time! i tell ya i was so utterly unlucky.
went into the toilet. striped. then realised the tap isnt working!!!
i felt so helpless. but i wore but i wore my bra and top back on and wrapped a towel below.
HAH. this bernice lied that she could see my underwear!
but i wasnt even wearing anything underneath!!! kinda funny.
then finish bathing was dinner.
then S'PORE IDOL.
well there was so much excitment coming from everyone.
but i had no stand no comments.
just thought that both of them had their own strength, their own fans.
no pt judging since i'm so always cant be bothered.
well taufik won. congrats to his fans ler. (which is almost everyone in the AVT.)
yup. went back to the hall talked and blah blah blah until 430++am then i slept.
was msging fren and fren was msging me all the jokes on earth.
i was reading all of them to bernice while she fell asleep when i was talking ok!
hmmm. then i got awaken by my sis's call at 7am.
yup. but went back to sleep and woke up when siying, jo and adrea came.
oh man i miss siying so much i forgot her birthday. sorry dude.
washed up, ate breakfast. then wenta east coast.
on the way was updating siying with my life.
east coast, sir wanted me to train. damnit! hah.
had to run a long way. was leading from the start cos i tot was short!
ended up strolling with yitian chatting again.
after which was some easy stridings. i love.
then was getting back to siying jo and adrea who were having fun blading.
well we went macs had some drinks then went cycling.
man, it was utterly fun. no details for you cos i'm lazy.
AH. no more details for you. cos i'm totally feeling lazy.
wats more if you're little loyal fans of my frens. you wanna know wat my frens did.
(example: jialing.)
please dont be shy, come forward and ask me abt it ok.
i shall just end this entry by.
i'm dead tired but i had fun during camp.
though i din really play in amazing race. but i had fun counting the no. of balls shot into the net. i had fun slicing the watermelon, trying to make sure i dont cut my finger cos my blood is as diluted as the watermelon juice. i had fun. i had fun. i had fun. but i mood swinged alittle cos i felt dirty but i got myself cleaned somehow in the middle of the night. but i still had lotsa fun.
i wont forget this camp.
the last camp spent with you guys, sec.4s, i'll miss ya all.
i love air hockey. i love all my frens.
i've blue black on my hand.
THANX BERNICE FOR MASSAGING MY HAND FOR ME.
yeah all the fun.
i know i sound as if i'm talking nonsense. but i mean everything here.
YUP.
k i'm playing tic tac toe.
ta!

[contradiction.]

__________________walking outta you.

ba.
i just woke up not long ago.
and ive to reach sch by 12noon.
i have yet to pack my bag and bathe.
just wanna blog abt yest.
i wenta boon lay to meet jialing.
headed to town.
ate in taka.
shopped around for bag for track camp.
i bought a bag from stussy in the end.
then jinx me made it rain.
i didnt mean to though.
then wenta lips and slack as usual.
i fell asleep again and it was a good sleep. =D.
then wenta john little to search for the ever missing guy.
jialing headed to her family chalet while i headed home to take my things.
my mom forced me to change cos she doesnt want me to be in sch u in town.
but i do that everyday. =X.
then changed headed to town.
waited for my sis and fren outside sakae.
then sent her fren to bus stop.
wenta buy lotsa chocolates. =).
then wenta visit someone at someone's prom. hot babe.
then home.
it was my sister's birthday.
i was trying to be nice but somehow she isnt as nice as me.
WAHAHA.
ok. i needa rush.
track camp. TA.

[damnit.]