__________________i've been a fool.

its 5 mins to 3am.
am off to get some sleep.
my mind is all haywired now.
i am screwed.
ta.

[damnit.]

__________________the storm keeps on twisting.

damnit.
time now 0151am.
wanted to come online to email mr josef, jialing's and my c.a assignment.
but i realised i din save my work.
so ive to find him tmr to do this.
damnit.
big sigh.
at this very moment.
suddenly im missing this girl very badly.
the girl who goes "woohoo!".
and pushes side burns behind her ears.
big sigh.
nvm.
ta.

[standing a chance or two.]

fork you.

restless tonight everynight.

i have nothin' to say.
except that i am better off dead.

[i hate this pain that is killing me.]

it doesnt does matter.

ive given up on the source based ss assignment.
dont wanna print ler la.
cannot find the paper.
shall do that in sch tmr.
eeyer.
haha.
well know why.
dont you ask me why i keep striking out the words.
haha.
ok.
well i shall say the truth la.
cos i just learnt how to do it!!!
so i shall use it more often.
wahaha.
well i bet jamie must be thinking i am retarding!!!
=X.
wahaha. ;).
i can read your mind.
ok.
i am rather tired.
0109am ler.
i have been sleeping after 3/4am lately.
cant sleep argh.
no matter how tired i am.
damnit.
someone entertain me!
i need help.
the disgusting hornified guy is talking to me.
eeks.
gross please.
and yeah jo said i am girlified.
;). great.

[initiative taken.]

they say im crazy, i really dont care.

thats my prerogative.

hey.
im back online.
._.".
doing ss assignment again?
yest finished 2.5 assignments.
today finishing the 1.5 of them.
then no more ler.
wahahaha.
finally. =X.
eeks.
im damnit slack la.
totally wrong man.
i wonder how am i gonna survive next week man.
BIG SIGH.
anw.
FHM is a horny nice magazine.
wahahaha.
me and jialing bought a copy.
=X.
haha.
it was not embarrassing to read it in the train.
the woman was staring.
wahahaha.
well.
we bought it for a purpose.
and know what.
i am in love with peacock!!!
thats a name.
not the animal.
nor isit the bird!
hah.
its the really damnit hot girl.
those who have the octuber issue.
go look at her.
my new eyegummy!
haha.
the girl next door contest thing.
i am so gonna vote for her.
haha.
today had lunch outting in redhill market.
wahaha.
with zhiqi the lan, jialing the neh, peiyin the nip, and flora the chee.
i am the mor.
haha.
well.
sheesh.
dont ask what it means.
haha.
its so wrong.
well.
okok.
i am getting back to my work first.
ta.
;). i'll love you forever too.
[a sinister romantic.]

feelings of agression are the absence of the love drug.

time now is 0141am.
on the com doing humans ca assignmentS.
damnit i have a bad headache.
and i wanna puke ever since the taxi ride just now.
damnit taxi.
argh.
well.
she he is my gay.
wahahaha.
;).
i love my gay.
but still little pervert rocks.
=X.
kk.
my headache is killing me.
ta.

[sugar rush.]

and what i want. i dont know who i am.

i can no longer taste colours.
but i still wanna taste some orange in me.
the timing is always off.
what the hell am i thinking! =(.

[contradictory.]

i m free to be me.

nobody tell me who to be.

hello.
just coming online to print the pic for ss c.a assignment.
well.
i am married.
wahahaha.
=X.
i am crazy.
well.
till the end of time.
;).
wahaha.
ta.

[sweet temptation rush all over me.]

missing you baby cuts like a knife.

my gastric hurts like fork.
somebody save me.
well its 0313am ler.
i promise myself to sleep before 0340am.
cos i dont want swollen eyes anymore!!!
pouts.
ta.

[naughty thoughts.]

everything means nothing if i aint got you.

hey.
blah.

j'ai eu l'amusement avec elle aujourd'hui.
fue a satisfacerla y miramos película.
dodgeball.
она подала я.
e yeah em seguida isso que nós tentamos estudar nos macs.
πήρε ένα ταξί σε bishan.
getroffen ihrem Freundstrahl und ihrem Vati schickte uns zu diesem uluPlatz.
ppl del lotsa allí. era tan adicional.
my gastric pain was eating me up.
ed ero freaked fuori dal ppl là.
tan yo y ella salieron ler. en un taxi.
ik mis nu haar zo veel.
yeah.
;).

well.
go figure it out yourself if you wanna know what i typed!!!
;).
have fun.
wahaha.
all i know was that i wore a padded bra today!
=X.
forced to.
and my bag was a good protector.
wahahaha.
well.
and i love my colourful toe socks.
they make me miss jo.
i miss wriggling my not little toes for her to see.
wahahaha.
crap.
argh.
0244am ler.
my hair not dry yet.
lalala.
anw.
happy birthday maylene.

[manco il tempo che ho passato con voi così tanto.]

illusions never change.

[red+yellow=orange.]
it'll always be like that.
and never will it change.

[pouts.]

i've loved you all my life.

and you're still part of it somehow.

hey.
smartie panties here.
smiles.
well.
today was english paper.
and i must say i feel damn relieve.
but damnit not relieve.
contradictory.
ARGH.
wahaha.
well.
its ok.
at least its over.
had amaths test after english paper.
wasnt really prepared for it.
so ya.
too bad for me.
eeks.
well.
then slacked around till 3++pm.
went off to town.
with jialing darling, zhiqi partner, flora huahua, and beyond's fan peiyin.
then we took quite awhile to settle down to eat long john's.
in cine.
yummy.
i saw quite alot of ppl.
yup.
then jialing went to pierce her ears.
and soon huahua and peiyin went home.
then jialing zhiqi and i went to buy hair clips again.
heh.
watched mtvs.
and the guy who made the tooth jewel thing for me wanted to treat us to a drink!!!
how nice of him.
well he is so nice.
hahaha.
well then i was shy.
so yeah nvm.
then in the end he went to buy the nice nice chocolates outside burger king de.
he bought for ME.
woohoo.
blushes.
well was rather surprised.
but he is so nice ler.
then yesh we slacked around.
then he went slacking around.
and we slacked around too.
then blah blah blah.
then went home.
lalala. did i say my dad is sent to hospital again in sunday.
but he came back today. sighs in relieve.
last night i slept rather early.
had lotsa IMAGINATIONS.
well doesnt it sound familiar?
wahaha.
captivated me with those mesmerising eyes.
;).
only jamie will understand.
i am outta my mind.
serious.
pouts.

k.
ta.
silly billy.

[i wanna go back to 1 yr ago.] pouts.

where can i buy innocence?

anyone? please?

well.
hey.
didnt go to sch today.
not feeling well.
eye swollen.
+ flu and cough.
slept till 2 plus.
wenta see a doc.
the doc is a bitchy one man.
the first thing she asked me after i said wat was wrong with me.
was "do you smoke?"
i was like "smoke?!?"
hello.
she thinks i am sick cos i smoke?!
damnit ler.
well.
just ate my lunch and my medicine.
drowsy.
woohoo.
gonna take a nap soon.
tmr english paper.
i am just worried.
if i fail it.
its the end of me.
and my life in crescent.
sigh.
ta.

[jo is my gay partner.] ;).

in a fix.

oh yar.
i almost forget.
happy belated birthday peiyin.
and to you too maggie.

and kind reminder to peiyin if you are reading this!!!
the letter for CIP.
haha.

reminder to class.
the consent forms you needa hand in!!!

eeks.
am not really in the best of moods.
i heard something that made me confused.
eeks.
ta.

[confused.]

je veux vous embrasser jour et nuit.

sigh.

i wanna see little pervert now!!!

i am forking deprived of seeing her.

damnit.

deprived.

not of sex please.

dont you think dirrrty.

=P.

i am damnit deprived of seeing her.

damn.

=(.

[laisse la mouche partie.]

its easy to fool around, its harder to keep the faith.

i wanna settle down, no matter what it takes.

hey.
i am freaking online again.
damnit.
this week is so packed up with all the tests.
and even english exam.
i am damn stressed la.
damnit.
well.
this flu just refuse to go away.
ok.
yest was sucha unproductive day.
tried studying.
but end up doing long dued hw.
nvm.
revision ler.
then did a template for my sister!!!
its pretty ok.
at least i think so.
its so cool.
can see the hidden words on the top when you scroll down.
wahahaha.
=X.
well.
i am getting good at templates.
lalala.
anw.
yup i slept pretty early.
unproductive argh!!!

today.
nothing much.
assembly was track talk.
that mrs/ms katini woman.
she is so fierce.
=X.
very hard to work with.
she shouldnt scare the little girls like that lor.
so mean.
like she wanna scold should scold us the leaders only right.
we are responsible for it.
since we dont even know.
its partly our fault to be un-informed.
yesh.
so is theirs.
=X.
nvm.
then chem.
ms ng wasnt around.
so joined ms azina's lesson.
was slack la.
then emaths.
slack too.
then chinese.
wow. ting xie.
tensed man.
haha.
then recess.
had fun eating and talking nonsense to jamie.
then yeah went up with zhiqi partner and group.
was late for eng for abt half an hour?
then the eng relief teacher..
mrs lim.
she totally stopped us and qns us.
and zhiqi was funny.
she acted as if she was sitting there all the while.
and i can die laughing man!!!
well.
then was lit.
then eng.
then sch ended!!!
wahahaha.
then partner zhiqi, zhiying, peiyin flora and fazliah and me.
we headed to taka.
and fazliah left on the way.
we went to food fair and walk walk.
i bought some chicken cheese balls.
so nice. =).
but quite ex as it wasnt filling at all.
then.
we went to crystal jade to eat!!!
wow. those nice nice noodles cost so much.
big big big bowl wor.
eat until i wanna puke.
and the dumpling/pau thingy is delicious.
=).
yummy.
then we went looking at bikinis and bras again.
main purpose of the day was actually sports bra shopping?
haha.
then we all went off.
partner zhiqi was in a confused state whether to come with us to take train or take bus.
haha.
in the end she took bus.
then me and peiyin went home.
in the train i slept like a pig.
=X.
was too tired.
eat too much ler wat.
haha.
brain no oxygen.
thats according to evelyn.
haha.
actually wanna sleep.
but decided to come online.
=P.
well.
yawn.

if i ever break your heart.

if i ever do you wrong.

i hope i never give you cause to doubt where you belong.

and jw!!!

i am not physical.

i am damn innocent.

you are making me damn shy.

blushes.

and partner zhiqi!!!
yesh mrs ian thorpe.
you have been thinking dirty lately!!!
there is totally nothing dirty abt my blog.
you really think too much.
nothing dirty please.
nothing abt nips!
=X.
haha.
this is so your colour pen.
haha.
mrs ian thorpe!!!

and to everyone.

i am no nuts.

dont call me nuts.

everyone have been calling me this.

i am not nuts.

not peanuts.

not macademia nuts.

not almond nuts.

not walnuts.

not COCONUT either.

i am just sensible.

=X.

[i am going crazy missing you.]

deseo sostenerle esta noche.

baby i love you and ill never let you go.
but if I have to.
boy i think that you should know.
all the love we made can never be erased.
and i promise you that you will never be replaced.

i love you.
yesh I do.
ill be with you.
as long as you want me to.
until the end of time.

from the day I met you .
i knew we'd be together.
and now i know i wanna be with you forever.
i wanna marry you.
and i wanna have your kids.
things could never compare to the feeling of your kisses.
i can say im truly happy to this day.
you make me thank god that i live my life everyday.
there's never been a doubt.
in my mind.
that i regret ever having you by my side.
but if the day comes that i have to let you go.
i think there's something i should probably let you know.
enjoyed everyday that i spent with you.
and i will miss you cos im happy that i had you at all.

well.
there.
the pretty lyrics of the sweet sweet song.
the song that i cried to.
hehehe.
i like the lyrics.
so meaningful.
oh no i am falling asleep on the keyboard.
kk.
ta.
nites.

[desidero tenerlo stasera.]

there's so many reasons why our love is guaranteed.

hello.
here.
proper blogging.
lets start from tuesday.

tuesday was nothing much.
but i remembered that my partner, zhiqi wasnt in sch.
then i was sleeping from abt 9am to 1030am.
i was listening to mp3.
damnit.
i wasnt feeling well.
then yeah. blah blah blah.
then after sch was chinese remedial.
i have to admit mdm lim is hilarious la.
had fun.
then was training.
i went but din train duh.
i wasnt feeling well wat.
then slacked around with bernice and noelle.
sir gave us noodles to eat.
then i left sch with them.
but i cabbed down to little pervert's house.
was lazy.
wanted to send ber home first.
but abit the wrong direction.
so din ler.
then went to little pervert's home and slacked.
talked rubbish ler.
then life at 10++pm.
took a cab home.
bloody no difference from taking train.
cos there was a jam.
and wasted more of my money on a damnit slow taxi.
then reached home at 11++pm.
blah.

wednesday. happy one month!!! ;).
it was a normal day.
zhiqi partner was finally back in sch.
i sang mandy moore's crush.
she sang too!!!
and we realised on tues me and jamie were singing it in sch.
and she was singing it at home!!!
and we concluded we have telepathy.
wahahaha.
well.
then after sch was chem remedial.
i was kinda unusually attentive.
maybe cos i knew wat was happening cos of jialing's zinc and copper letter!!!
wahahaha.
well.
then zhiqi partner, jialing peiyin, huahua flora and me.
we all went to town to eat burger king.
yummy. =).
was having a fun time.
then jialing went for her hair cut.
then peiyin and flora had to go off.
then zhiqi jialing and i went to cine to get present for yitian!
heh. got her g-strings.
pretty pretty sexy.
haha.
then watched a few sick mtvs then went home.
blah.

thursday.
i ran for mass run.
very nice to run.
nothing much happen in sch.
not that i can remember...
but it was yitian's birthday!!!
happy birthday yitian!!!
well.
then yeah after sch.
i helped lead this birthday girl to the canteen cos she was blindfolded.
ran up and came down with zhiqi and jialing.
with the g-strings.
then presented it to her.
wahahaha.
they like the sexy red lacey one.
i prefer the spotty one.
then went back for amaths remedial.
was late.
all of us had to stand behind.
pouts.
then yeah like that la.
after amaths.
was planning to go home.
cos was sick cant train so decided not to go for training.
but then walked to redhill with zhiqi peiyin and flora ler.
then i realised i cant go home.
i had to go to my aunt's house for my grandaunt's birthday thingy.
then i called my sister.
she was still in sch.
and i was like so totally free down there.
so i went to her sch to pick her up la.
then yeah talked to weizhen in the canteen.
she is kinda small.
hahaha.
then eh slacked.
and ruth yeow messed my hair up.
she claims that i am dao!!!
wth. =/.
i am totally friendly ok.
hohoho.
then my sister finally decided to go off.
so there we went off to tiong bahru plaza.
dad fetched us from there.
wenta my aunt's house.
had buffet.
woohoo. so much food ok.
then i drank wine.
ice wine.
10% alcohol.
wow.
i drank mine.
and drank three quarter of hw's share.
cos she doesnt like it.
yummy.
but i was then red all over.
damnit.
my parent believed i was drunk.
but i was just red.
the worst thing is i was so bored i fell asleep.
there they concluded i was really drank.
=/.
wth.
then my bro said he dont allow me to go clubbing anymore.
he said he actually have no comments abt underage clubbing.
but then he say i cant drink for nuts.
damnit.
i wasnt drunk ok.
pouts.
then reached home at 12midnite.
bathed then sleep ler.
blah.

friday.
was late for sch.
was still not feeling well.
was kinda sad actually.
then something happened!!!
i stepped on the pile of cat poo on the floor!!!
when i was talking to yitian.
cries.
and i went to the toilet with jialing to wash it la.
it was damn hilarious.
both of us couldnt stop laughing.
wahahahaha.
lalalala.
then yeah.
lessons were boring as usual.
then after sch.
partner zhiqi peiyin fazliah and i went to centrepoint.
to get sports bra.
but in the end i got one white only.
they were all playing with the padding of the normal bras!!!
i can just die laughing la.
then after that.
left town at 6++pm.
sent zhiqi to her house area.
then she tot me how to go to little pervert's house from there.
then went to her house.
then blah blah blah.
slacked.
till 10pm.
reached home at 11++pm again.
blah.

today.
well.
went to sch in the morning.
to take my geog textbk.
then went to little pervert's house.
reached at abt 10++am.
damnit the bus took 20mins to come.
waste my precious time.
then yeah slacked in her house as usual.
i feed her.
blushes.
then eh.
i fell asleep.
a few times.
and she likes to pluck my hand and leg hair!!!
=X.
and i helped her massage her injury.
then listened to this sad sad song i cried.
no.
i think i teared only.
hahaha.
then was playing something.
=X.
was whining like crazy.
damnit.
was so depressed.
cos she bully me!!!
well. actually i was the happiest girl on earth.
haha. hehe. blushes.
then went home at 4++pm issit?
yeah something like that.
then i reached home at 5pm.
then blah.

finally i blogged properly.
wat a long entry.
ta.

[time is a thief.]

craving for your presence.

yesh you. darling little pervert.

well.
time now.
0218am.
rather tired.
reached home at 11++pm.
dont ask me why.
shall blog properly tmr i hope.
cos i am really tired.
there is so much to update.
wats more i needa wake up early to meet her early morning tmr.
k.
ta.

[i miss little pervert 24/7.]

i am sad without a mouse.

i shall blog now.
am in sch now.
waiting for fazliah to get her malay thing done.
me and peiyin and my lovely partner will be going to buy bra.
wahaha.
i love my partner, zhiqi.
i love peiyin.
and huahua flora was doing detention.
hilarious.
i think she is so pretty.
heh.
and diana was mopping the floor too.
i helped her. =X.
well.
i am anyhow blogging here.
ok.
blog later when i go home.
woohoo.
ta.

[i love my friends.]

just like all my thoughts,

they always get a bit naughty.

you coloured up the dark skies.

well.
proper blogging ler.
just reached home.
well.
sat was flag day.
i slept at 4am the nite before that.
woke up late.
supposed to meet jamie at khatib mrt station at 630am.
but met at 7am instead.
reached outside tangs.
started with taking attendance.
well.
then blah blah.
drag drag. was sucha mess.
then took our donation bag thing.
got our money fast.
heh.
then we were walking around.
then both of us got our first 10 dollar note from the same guy.
so generous.
well.
jamie got more donation than me.
but well.
i was happy for wat i had.
not bad quite alot ler.
then yeah i was ultra polite!!!
=).
wahahaha.
then we got our breakfast free!
well. dont tell you how.
and few days back me and jialing walked into the seven eleven and asked something.
the cashier gave us sweets!!!
nice nice big big sweet that ppl pay to get!!!
smiles.
jealous?
haha.
well.
outta point.
then we ate our darling sushi.
nice nice.
then me and jamie went to novena.
saw carolyn there.
well. we've got lotsa donation there.
this woman was sitting in the coffee shop.
she shouted. "xiao mei. lai lai."
then i went over.
she gave me 2 bucks.
so nice.
then i bought drinks.
i gave the auntie coins.
she put half of it into the donation bag.
well.
then went back to town.
went to far east to walk walk.
then yeah went back to hand in donation bag.
but long queue.
so went walking to cine.
and i tried finishing my first page of stickers.
woohoo.
finished it on the way.
then went to cine and walked back to hand in the donation bag.
went back to cine.
went walk walk.
met little pervert.
and she gave me chocolate.
=).
then walked back to cine.
and we settled down in yoshi.
i ate yoshi. yummy.
then jamie ate burger king.
it was supposed to be dinner.
hah at 5 plus pm?
then yeah we tried doing our work.
blah and i heard news that my ah beng eye gummy was around!!!
so i wanted to see.
then jamie and i went to search.
asked miss kind pam and miss kind yvonne to look after our stuff for us.
then bloody cannot find.
yeah.
then went back pack bag and we were too anxious to see my eye gummies.
walked around everywhere.
damnit couldnt see ah beng and ah lian.
sad ler.
then went to taka to buy stuff.
went home at 8++pm.
then yeah.

sunday was boring.
nothing much.
got my dad to drill the wall shelves up my darling not so new room.
very pretty.
heh.
then yeah slept late.
cos was doing some last min hw.

monday.
today.
went to sch.
blah.
chem was like that.
full of jialing, the hull being attached to the zinc.
hah.
but i twisted my ankle on the way for chem lesson.
stupid ankle.
hurts ler. but i am used to it.
so din really limp ler.
then maths d was picnic session for me and partner!!!
then chinese was like that.
recess was like that.
went to g.o.
found out mrs gam not around.
english was free period.
was in the air conditioned room slacking.
then blah blah.
two free periods.
then lit.
was bad mooding due to things.
and i was missing her how badly.
wanted to see her badly.
nvm.
then yeah second period of lit was napping for me.
then last period of the day was eng.
free period again.
then after sch.
had nice talking session with jaslyn zhiqi wanxian they all la.
hehe.
then yeah sent zhiqi and zhiying down for band.
saw eshwaaree.
went to the canteen with her.
talked to lynette abt track camp.
followed eshwaaree for her sci remedial.
then yeah was hiding under the table i said the previous entry.
then after that we slacked in the com lab for awhile.
went back to canteen and talked to hweeboon, my gf.
=).
then yeah she got so excited.
hehe.
then went home with eshwaaree and hweeboon and lynette and nicole?
yeah think so.
went home.
then yeah am home.
i would risk it all for you, to prove my love is true.
eeks.
little pervert is injuried.
worried.
shit.
i am dead worried i am falling ill myself.
=(.
ta.
ill build a wall around my heart, that will only break a part for you.
[i've never been so deeply in love.]

i am a dick.

i am addicted to you.

fork.
i hate my boring life.
eshwaaree is beside me.
studying!!!
can you believe it.
oh no.
well.
i was in her sci remedial class just now.
bloody bored.
i hit my head while hiding under the table.
shitit.
my life is fucking meaningless.
eshwaaree says hers too.
damn.
and.
i live only for little pervert.
my supplement of life.
i hate blades.
its a bad invention.
outta point.
well.
shitit.
no mood to blog properly ler.
shall see ler.
ta.
i missed the chance to see my dearest eye gummies ah lian and ah beng that day!!!
[sigh.]
i am no longer colourblind.
cos i have you.
you make me see colours.

i am all about you.

i am missing you right now.

well.
my template skills are getting better.
=).
well.
go see the h[j]am link.
woohoo.
the template i make de ok.
=).
so proud of myself.
shit it.
its 0305am ler.
i need my sleep.
tmr flagday needa get up early.
and anw some linkies added.
anymore tell me on msn.
i'll do it when i am free. ;).
well.
nites.
i'll dream of little pervert tonight.
i hope.
and i will.
ta.

[i wanna hug you to sleep tonight.]

i wanna marry you.

i really do.

she said she wants to marry me too! ;).

teen drinking is very bad.
this line just keeps repeating in my head.
cos little pervert and fren was totally repeating the song tipsy.
no one knows how much i love little pervert. actually jamie knows. ;).
well.
lets see.
hmmm.
thursday. after i blogged.
and i slacked around.
i wenta meet jialing in tiong bahru plaza.
supposed to do some work.
but ended up walking around.
went to popular to find her chinese wkbk.
it was outta stock.
shit it.
then went to visit my darling little pervert as i said she aint feeling well.
yesh. i am dead worried for her. =(.
wanted to buy mineral water for her.
cos she refuse to drink water!!!
but bought this bottle of oxygenated water instead.
she said it was tasteless and alittle sour!!!
i tot it was damn sweet la.
and got her two lollipops.
since she doesnt like roses and cactus.
eeks.
haha.
and she dont wanna see a doc.
how stubborn.
worssssse than me a million times.
hahaha.
well.
then reached her house at 7++pm?!
cant remember.
but i went home at 10pm.
reached home at 11pm.
and bloody my mom was bitchy.
she asked my bro to confiscate my hp.
well.
one nite without little pervert's msg.
was kinda depressed.
=(.
well.
then din have my dinner that nite.
yeah.
no dinner for me.
well. my gastric din hurt.
=).
was missing little pervert throughout the nite.
today.
woke up at 10++am only.
was supposed to meet ber at 11am in sch?
so totally was late.
but i was supposed to meet charmaine for her dare.
damn cute ler they all.
then met them at 1pm instead.
cos i had to bathe and dry my hair and entertain my sister for awhile.
haha.
she bought me a ppg story book!!!
i am how happy please.
i bring it everywhere.
haha.
then reached tiong bahru plaza at 1pm.
the dare was done.
then i sent little pervert home as she still wasnt feeling well.
so so so worried.
she just refuse to see a doc.
she has my problem.
haha.
well.
then taught her alittle maths.
and i mean alittle.
haha.
i cannot make it la.
eeks.
then her fren came.
and we slacked.
just slacked.
they talked.
i stoned.
and i sewed her belt for her!!!
heh.
i am a great wife.
hao lao po!!! =).
great pervert is a great wife.
hehehe.
then yeah went off when i realised i am way off late yeah.
went back to tiong bahru plaza to buy lunch for ber and angeline.
hehe.
rushed back to sch.
but i took the wrong train.
=X.
then rushed back the correct way.
reached sch.
ber and angeline was waiting for their lunch.
and valeria is hilarious.
tried to get down to some real work.
but it was 4++pm.
so totally wasnt in the mood.
was msging jamie and little pervert.
jamie is hilarious la.
well.
did a few qns.
and then yeah went off when it was nearing 6pm.
went home then.
reached home.
then i brought my sister to the stadium for a run.
ran 2km.
freak i was so into relieving stress.
i kept running.
just kept running.
i din know how much i ran.
heh.
i felt so cold and started sneezing and sneezing.
totally horrible feeling.
well at least i am feeling better now.
and a doc is not my kind.
hehe.
well.
then reached home.
slacked then have my dinner at 9.
then msged my darling little pervert and yeah she still aint feeling well.
sigh.
then she slept early.
so here i am online.
no it wasnt really early.
12midnite++ she slept.
now 0120am.
well.
maybe should get some of the links up my template.
and maybe do up the template for h[j]am blog.
heh.

well.
tmr flag day!!!
wanted to remind everyone to bring the consent form.
but now its alittle too late.
shit.
but nvm.
seeya guys tmr.
and jamie and i are gonna have funnn.
and i hope ppl can come and donate money to us.
the more the better.
=).

[complication.] thats my life.

the blog that jamie and i shared is linked already.
thanx to her.
she made the blog.
but i linked it first.
wahahaha.
well.
ok.
ta.

[so much for my lousy ending.] =).

the great pervert will never stop loving the little pervert.

illusion never changed.

into something real.

hihi.
i miss little pervert to bits.
eeks.
heh.
today is 090904.
heh.
last midnight.
that means this morning 12am.
heh.
its a nice moment.
=).
little pervert rocks and i love little pervert.
well.
my sister will be coming back today.
lalala. from jb.
on mon.
i sent her to sch.
wow.
she totally threw me in her sch.
eeks.
so embarrassing to walk outta her sch like that la.
yup.
by the way i am missing my sister. this much_.
missing my travis kor too. this much_________.
and of cos my winking partner. this much_______.
well.
she winked at me when i alighted the taxi.
smiles.
well.
but i love my little pervert. too much.
she aint feeling well.
am so worried.
so tempted to rush to her house to send her to the doc.
shall see.
see how things go.
kk.
ta.

[090904.] =). love you lots.

i just found out there's no such thing as the real world.

just a lie you got to rise above.

well.
yest was a bored day at home.
but had fun msging little pervert.
today too. no one knows who is my little pervert!!! ;).
she is just another hilarious soul that i can die laughing at.
well. and i am the great pervert. ;).
today is the 8th of sep.
i happily sent 1000 msgs ler.
=X.
hehe.
well.
last night din sleep.
only slept this morning at 5++am.
then slept till 7am.
was msging little pervert.
haha.
well.
rushed to meet jamie.
had our breakfast together.
before going for chem.
chem starts at 8am.
we were still eating.
and went back to sch to slack around with partner zhiqi, jialing darling, zhiying, huahua, and peiyin.
its funny la they all.
then in the end jamie and i went for chem at 11am.
wow.
not late la.
heh.
then we just simply hid behind the seats in p.a.t.
to listen to my mp3.
and i was happily msging the hilarious little pervert.
well.
then both of us needed to pee so much.
we couldnt go since we were hiding all the while.
hahaha.
well.
then at the end of the lecture.
we ran to the toilet.
woohoo.
wat a relieve to our poor blabbers.
wahaha.
then after that jamie went to her granny house.
and i went for amaths lesson.
then we met in town.
then we both bought a nice bimbo tee each.
smiles.
nice and comfy.
then i ate alot.
she ate alittle.
wahahahaha.
then went looking for my eyegummy again.
eeks.
then not there.
went home.
and now.
am home with these hiccups.
i hate it.
freak. yesh she is indeed a freak. a real freak. so typical.
heh. =X. a really typical freak.
well.
ta.

[little pervert.] wahaha.

i am rather bored at home.

i survived without your kiss.

i hate my hair.

i am depressed due to my freaking hair. seriously.

today.
lessons were like that.
blah blah blah.
track talk wasnt really productive.
needa do much planning.
on the track camp.
well.
then amaths.
zhiqi cracks me up.
she makes me smile the most man.
and of cos my darling jialing.
i think i am sorta pmsing lately.
really really happy when i am with zhiqi and jialing.
=).
well.
then supposed to go out with them.
but they zhiqi decided to go another day.
so me and jialing went town to slack.
went to show her evelyn lookalike.
then went to eat ice cream in macs.
then went to cine lips to eat waffle ice cream.
heh.
felt so much happier.
=).
well.
i still cannot stand my hair.
really.
can someone donate some hair to me.
i forking look so not me. so typical. i hate it.
fork. i wanna cry and die. sobs.
reached home at 815pm.
now 840pm.
have to eat dinner ler.
ta.

[bad hair life as usual.] =(.

i want my hair to grow now. oh damn it.

my hair is finally trimmed.
but yet its forking short now la.
no bun already.
sooooOOOooo000oooo sad ler.
whines.
eeks.
and now its forking typical.
eeks. i forking hate typical ppl.
sigh.
watever.
ta.
my bun is gone. cries.
[bad hair life.]

desperate for changing. starving for truth.

naked truth.

its only whether you see it or not. ;).

did i ever say that.
nothing here is hidden.
you just have to press.
CtrlA. yesh. delia taught me this. she is the smartest.
everything can be seen.
hah. ;).

[all this pain and animosity.]

i wanna kiss you.

yesh you. its you. ;). day and night.

well.
i am very stressed.
my studies are like shit now.
damn it. there is no comfort in the truth.
had reflection last night. the pain is the heart you'll find.
decided.
to be back to a nerd wannabe.
till i am a real nerd.
well.
yup.
i will be online twice a week or something.
just not so often ler.
i needa get down to work.
real work.
no deceiving stuff.
no self denial.
anw. it wasnt me.
i am gonna get my hair trimmed.
its too long and the bun is getting outta hand.
hah.
well.
ta.

[dance all night.]

im never gonna dance again. guilty feet have got no rhythm.

i said. are you gonna be my girl. ?

yeah.
just wanted to say my dad discharged ler.
lalala.
he doesnt look like he just came out of the hospital.
cool.
my mood aint the best lately.
shit.
fork it. i am too shy to ask.
well. too proud to lose.
ta.
i love my winking partner. ;).
[i see you checking me.]

trying to find a pigment of truth.

trying. still trying. beneath my skin.

hi there.
am online since early morning.
woke up so early.
cos i had a nitemare.
nitemare that my dad passed away.
freaky aint it.
i woke up crying.
eeks.
argh.
nvm.
yest.
went to sch.
slept in class before assembly.
then assembly.
ms chan came and pick on me?
i dunno.
but its like right after scolding peihan.
she came and look for me.
and i din break any rule.
besides i have an extra ear stick.
just that.
she totally scroll me from head to toe.
like wth.
then she lectured me.
for 10 mins.
eeks.
almost wanted to cry.
but i tot its not worth it.
then yeah.
went back to class feeling rather stressed.
still aint feeling well.
then went for recess.
ate.
during bio.
i had a chance to sleep.
ms ng was understanding.
or else she would be screaming at me for sleeping in class.
then had chinese.
shit it.
i din do my chinese workbk.
then had to sit outside to do.
with alot of them.
hah.
then blah blah blah.
blah blah blah.
went to canteen after sch.
jamie and i ate there.
the auntie gave us so much free food i almost die.
haha.
then chatted with the uncle and auntie.
they are nice ppl.
=).
then went to town.
to slack.
really was in a super slacky mood.
freak.
so so thristy.
hah.
then blah.
went home.
then i went to get pills.
supplement for my joints.
i cannot take it.
my knee is getting from bad to worse.
it just have to crack up to 30 over times aday.
how worrying.
and pain. duh.
then went to buy dinner.
was all alone at home.
lalala.
nothing much.
blah blah blah.
go away.
go away.
go away.
waha.
wahaha.
wahahaha.
wahahahaha.
wahahahahaha.
wahahahaha.
wahahaha.
wahaha.
waha.
eeks.
i m evil.
i m gonna get 2 new condos and 2 new cars.
from them.
l
l
l
V

[hwee boon loves me. eshwaaree loves me too.] they are talking to me on my hp!!!

i need someone like you to tell me this- "when you're fallin' behind, i'll carry you."

time now.
3am in a friday morning.
no one is freaking online.
ouch.
yawn.
i think its a good time to blog.
no distractions.
i am no criminal.
well.
start from wed.
after i blogged.
i went to bathed.
and i sent my dad to hospital then.
i felt so helpless. so baby now my life's a mess.
took a cab down. 'cause i couldnt love you any less.
emergency ward.
that familiar place la.
eeks.
general hospital seems to be my third home this yr.
i know the directions there.
my dad went in to do some dont know wat.
i waited alone since 8++pm.
then my mom came at 9++pm.
we just kept waiting.
and i was so cold.
had on and off fever again.
well. i can hardly catch my breath.
my sister happily still online at home.
and my bro cant be bothered.
he was still out with his frens.
no one knows how lost i felt.
well.
then yeah.
he was inside.
then the nurse came out and say he has to be admitted in.
well.
then me and mom walked around to find seven eleven to buy toothbrush for him.
then wow.
it was so quiet at some part of the hospital.
i got quite freaked out la.
yeah.
but mom held my hand and told me not to worry.
i was so.
touched.
well.
i dunno la.
she just said no matter wat she'll be there for me.
well.
then we went to the ward to find my dad.
he happily walked abt when its like. 12 midnite.
he was talking so loudly.
asking for dinner.
the doctor was like "must stay on the bed to rest."
he cant be bothered.
i wanna faint la.
the rest of the patients couldnt sleep cos of him.
then me and my mom went back to seven eleven to buy food for him.
went back to the ward.
shared the food with my dad.
my gastric hurted.
and reached home at 1++am.
when i move, you'll move. just like that. ;).
woke up earlier then usual.
had to go school myself wat.
then wasnt really feeling well.
reached just in time.
did mass run duty.
then went back for geog.
got back combined humans paper.
freak.
the first time i passed my ss paper.
15/25.
but i got like 1/25. for my geog.
wat the hell.
my answers were shit la.
thanx.
hah.
then nothing much happened.
blah blah blah.
went off for champion seminar.
whined my way through to get that eeyore that fiona finally exchanged with me.
thanx fiona.
then blah.
gastric hurted so much.
they had talks and talks.
games and games.
and in me was pain and pain.
then finally can eat ler.
my dearest table 11 was total hilarious la.
everyone just go and grab one big plate of food.
one after the other.
then i was laughing like crazy i went to pee.
hah. outta pt i know.
then when i came back.
they were tucking in.
no. of plates of food. 17.
wow.
i almost faint.
but we cleared it fast.
well.
but my gastric hurted worse.
hid under the table for awhile.
cannot take the pain man.
then went to take photos with track.
and then talked to yitian.
=).
miss that girl.
well then went back to class.
felt so much like puking.
went to toilet.
puke came up the throat.
but i know i cant start puking.
it'll be the end of my end of yr exam.
and there.
yitian came and tell me to drink milk.
eeks.
haha.
then went back to class to rest.
slept one and a half hour.
then went off to track training.
din train la.
too pain ler.
well.
then helped sir alittle here and there.
then the sec.1s play games.
and carolyn and i played badminton.
i felt better by then.
din have to bend down due to the pain.
then went back to open pe room for the sec.1s.
then there pearlyn was thinking abt shake your bon bon.
i almost.
died. dont hate the game or the player.
hah. 'cause the one that's changing is you.
then both of us took sir's car to newton mrt station.
ber and evelyn went back to sch.
and ber owes me food.
heh.
winks.
and smiles with tink tink.
then went home.
gastric hurt again.
heated up the curry that my nu er cooked for me.
ate some food.
watched singapore idol.
and i cant believe i fell asleep.
guess i am too tired of the pain ler.
sigh.
then yeah.
now i am wide awake.
with my gastric hurting again.
time. i am flawed. but i am cleaning up so well.
0340am in the friday morning.
eeyer.
i wanna get my gastric outta me.

[the wheel of possibility.]

a game for two.

hey.
my dad isnt feeling well.
neither do i.
eeks.
maybe i needa send my dad to the hospital later.
eeks.
sigh.
no time to blog ler.
ta.

[its a whole new story.] yesh. you and me.