oh well.
sch started since two days ago.
lotsa changes needa update.
- new student in class.
diana tay. welcome. =).
- new time table.
- new maths teacher.
- new art teacher.
- new chem teacher. + the ms ng. = 2 chem teachers.
- chem class splitted into two.
- TWO more co form teacher.
wonder why.
maybe our class really that naughty?
first time see class got 3 form teachers de. =/.
perhaps our class really need more help.
oh well.
monday just passby like that.
the day ending with me and jamie in westmall.
i took one hr choosing a book. =X.
heh. assessment book.
hey. must be proud of me. =).

today nothing much.
just council investiture.
as a chairman.
i was supposed to usher.
its so embarrassing.
coz i am a shy girl.
soOOoo shy.
anw i have mense cramp.
felt so bad ok.
ok i know outta point.
heh. then yeah ushering.
i kept quiet.
just lead the way by standing in front.
heh. thats all.
then went back hall.
sat with bloody gang. =).
they were planning to change the clique name for some reasons.
and this fionne's funny idea.
[curry pok girls.]
wahahaha.
wat kinda funny ler.
in the end slight change to bloody buddies thats all.
then had a nice dirty talk with jw.
like as always.
[whispers.]
wahahaha.
sooOoo embarrassing.
i sorta talked to jw's crotch.
blushes. they just have to laugh.
then after council investiture.
we went to take bags.
then went to pat.
to steal food. the refreshments' food.
heh in the end.
saw chairmans eating in there too.
then realised i helped in the investiture by ushering.
i am a chairman too!
so i took food for bloody buddies.
oh did i say ria went home ler.
heh took lotsa food.
in the end they ate.
while i went for pad searching.
went around asking for pad.
heh got a modess one in the end.
thanx hor whoever you are.
then yeah we went for to delta to watch hockey match.
crescent against stc.
jw. huiyi. sy. they went off first.
tw fionne and me stayed to wait for my sis and fionne's sis.
heh.
went to redhill market to eat.
heh. then went home.
yawns.
had a fun day with bloody buddies.
they can really make me smile.
really hilarious ppl.
i love them.
heh! =).
anw tertia tay is back again!!!
ah faints.
missssssSSSsss her.
heh.
kk.
off to hw.
[not hanwei but homework.]

[bloody buddies rocks.]

oh. happy birthday jiahui!
jawei. jh. jiahui. heh.
happy birthday to you.
smiles.

hey hey.
HOLIDAY HOMEWORK NOT DONE YET!
wat kinda horrible nerd am i.
how can i ever promote to pro nerd.
when i am not really nerd.
cries.
i dun wanna be nerd wannabe forever.
anw yest went for the malacca trip!
it was fun.
jo, peihan, fiona and joelle and me are in the same group.
heh.
rushed to sch in the morning.
not really awake with my ghostly hair.
and heh messy.
slept through 3/4 of the bus trip.
heh.
was really tired.
the nite before i couldnt sleep.
heh. watched some chinese WEIRD show abt black magic.
eeks.
outta point.
first destination.
water world. some theme park kinda thing.
wOw. did i say i have a weak heart?
cries.
wasnt in the mood to get wet.
but yeah they all made me play.
but then it was fun ler.
first ride on a float with peihan bernice and one of the twin.
opps. i blur ler.
dunno which one. either felissa or felicia.
heh.
then din really scream.
but was whining and tearing.
weak heart. cant blame me.
then went renting floats and played in the wave pool.
coz we tot no more rides.
coz before that raining.
heh.
then the rest of them came and say how fun the other rides were.
so we all ran and tried three other rides.
one was on a slide here. was so dark inside.
i felt as if i was going to another dimension.
=X. heh.
screamed at first.
but then realised how long the slide was.
i gave up screaming and went "help!help!" on my own in the dark.
heh.
then second slide was the first slide's fren.
heh as in similar but not as dark.
but the slide was faster with more sudden turns.
heh.
then this group of guys lent us their floats.
we went off to take the slide.
heh cool. then realised my heart is not really very weak.
but needa get used to it.
heh then we ran back to take our bags.
we were running all the while.
we only had sucha short time to play.
heh then mass bathing in the public.
was hilarious.
then yeah changed. went up the bus.
got scolded by mrs wong. duh. =X.
sigh. heh.
then headed to a shopping centre!
and i recognised it. it was parksons.
heh. cool i am not that blur afterall.
then yeah.
had one hour and fifteen mins.
our group somehow got splited up.
yeah me and jo went to eat our popiahs first.
i was craving for one. so heh.
but eeks i dun like that popiah.
jo likes it though. =/.
heh. then went walking around.
strolling.
thinking if really wanna buy then will go back later.
then when we realised too late.
there was 10 mins left!
so we started running to the shops to get the things we want.
heh can see everyone running.
feels like amazing race!
heh. i bought 1 pathetic girly shirt.
one only! cries.
heh. jo bought one also.
heh. we regretted man.
everyone bought how many big big bags of things lor.
heh.
nvm me and jo planning to go for girly shopping soon.
heh. winkies.
then yeah headed back to s'pore.
at the malaysia custom.
we queued for damn long.
then ppl kept cutting queue.
i was bloody pissed with this indian family.
i am not being racist but that family was really ridiculous.
pushing their way through to cut queue.
eeks.
they obviously got their passport stamped before the poor us.
us = lydia+ong+siti+nihad+jo+me.
was bloody pissed ler.
then singapore custom.
saw them again! heh i started running. to piss them off.
heh.
was in front of that W guy.
the son of the family. he thinks he is damn big.
kept using his bag to poke me!
think i dunno. and he tried cutting my queue like again.
but i stepped forward!
heh. yeah then reached school at 10?
heh. then went for stayover.
yeah like that la.
came back this morning.
yawns.
hahahaha.
had fun but sch starting on mon.
oh well.
but i am now busy painting my room.
like again rite?
its the second coat.
nice ok.
pinkish shade of purple.
heh.
sigh.
so stressed.
homework homework homework.
ah faints.

[i wanna be boobless. cries.]

enough of power ler.
suddenly feel bad.
i mean i din mean to hurt that innocent soul.
sigh.
anyway tmr painting room.
i have eye bags.
not outta point rite.
heh.
i just read some disgusting blogs.
pukes.
ah.
pukes badly.

[innocent all over again.]

anw did i say that my grand aunt passed away last nite?
sigh.
i miss her smile.
i respect her the most.
she is gone.
just like that.
felt something amiss last nite.
today saw funeral from my house.
first thing asked my dad to call my aunt and check whose funeral.
i was praying that it wasnt hers.
but it was.
i was closer to her in a way.
she looked after me when i was young.
there was always this hidden bond between us.
i really respect her.
sigh.
went to her funeral.
really cannot accept it actually.
everytime i see her she would be smiling.
she was so strong.
my other grand aunts and uncles say its ok.
she will be gone and she wont be alone.
my granny will be with her.
yeah.
guess so.
sorta miss granny.
aunt gave me a red packet for bday.
so belated. but soOo much money.
cos i spent this very first bday without granny.
without her red packet.
sigh.
i miss my granny.
and my grand aunt's smile.
i miss my grand aunt.

[sigh.]

oh my dog!
this sy. the hacker.
is hilarious.
so crappy.
she doesnt know that my heart is not beating ler huh.
whahaha.
ah.
faints.
have been training for the whole week.
yuppy.
thigh muslce pull again.
needa go sinseh.
sigh.
but yeah i am used to it ler.
yup yup.
anw i realised.
hweeyi is one funny thing.
and she loves mocking me.
blushes.
and we have same taste.
we like the same kinda guys.
wahahaha!
how many eye gummies we saw at acsi lor.
winkies.
wahahaha.
tmr am gonna paint my room purple.
was planning to paint pink.
but my brother doesnt like it.
so yeah.
wahaha.
ah faints.
limps.
oh time to bitch. winkies.

not affected?
yet you have to comment so much abt it.
hah.
you think abt how much you hurt me last time.
you were sucha bitch.
i forgave you.
if i din. i will be hating you.
say i hold grudges.
watsoever.
you are the one doing things to make me hate you.
you were the one who started commenting.
you know very well i kept quiet all along.
you know very well that i din hate you.
but you have to agitate me.
and you totally have to do so wat.

my tolerance level is not that high when it comes to sucha BITCH.

[its not easy to be me.]

havent blog for such a long time.
i've been training!
i am so guai.
and hardworking
and full of leadership qualities.
anyways. siying din go for training.
feeeeeel like punching her
bish- smack her face ar.
people who feel like punching her make your heart beat.
wow! congratulations. you feel like punching her too!
ahem. i need to pee.

[hacker alert.]

oh well.
been days since i last blogged.
sat went for training.
with jo.
hilarious her.
then in the afternoon met up with jialing and kat.
went to some secret place.
wahahaha.
yeah i am gonna make appointment.
i wanna fo there again!
so fun.
oh well in the evening had watch gathering.
was kinda sad when i realised only 7 ppl turn up in the end?!?
but its ok.
nat turned up.
it was almost one yr since i last saw her.
missed her like crazy.
hahaha talked till late.
went to northpoint macs to find june.
she went off.
then su hong made me so embarrassed by doing something.
sigh.
anyway then i became sad after that time ler.
not becoz of su hong.
just becoz i am confused.
of wat i want.
but perhaps i am just thinking too much.
or maybe its just me.
sigh.
sunday. family day.
spent day with family.
cooked pasta for family.
like again.
i am sick of it.
pukes.
then today.
training.
heat stroke.
died.
ta.
i am lazy to blog.
not in the mood.
sigh.


i am sorry.
xiling din tell me anything.
i knew wat you were talking abt.
hah.
i know you too well.
i just reassured with her.
anyway.
i am just writing my opinion too.
wat makes ya think that i am talking abt you?
hah.
go on.
contradict yourself.

eeks.
i am feeling so bitchy now.
not in a good mood.
get off.

[i am so bitchy right now.]

i hate ppl like you who assume this and that.
for goodness sake.
i feel like boxing you.
i have nothing to hide.

[nake truth.]

did i say that.
on my report book.
for conduct.
its written VERY GOOD.
ahhh. i am damn happy.
thats a good start for a nerd like me.

realised it yourself.
my eye gummies doesnt last long.
wats with me.
eeks.
and i get over ppl very fast.
eeks.
as in.
within a day i can dun like the person ler.
yawn.
hahaha.
thats just so me.
i dont like anyone of you.
i love my frens.
and i like myself.
i am basically crappying.
i am crazy.
heh.
tata young.

[i love my frens thats all.]

hmmm.
its been a long day.
was supposed to go training.
but cant wake up.
training starts at 9 i woke up at 9.
ended up self training in yishun stadium.
lynette msged me the workout!
thanx.
i almost got heat stroke.
invited june along.
but that lazy pig lazy ler wat to do.
whahaha.
then went home.
fell asleep.
woke up.
bathe.
went macs.
met amelia.
to do some work.
went northpoint.
blah blah blah.
ended up not meeting june.
bought ingredients for cooking.
came home.
cooked pasta.
some things happened.
i was wrong.
cried.
tired.
i am falling asleep.
yawn.

[i am a happy girl.]

june just called me and talk abt power!
ah i wanna faint of excitment ler.
=).

[smile sooOOoo sweet.]

so yest ended up in sch at 10++.
i was break time.
talked to xiling.
heh. then ss workshop i kept talking to xiling. =X.
heh.
then after that she walked me to redhill!!!
heh. so nice rite.
she is one of the sweetest around.
winkies.
anw today is zhiying's birthday!
and yahui's!
HAPPY BIRHTDAY ZHIYING!
HAPPY BIRHTDAY YAHUI!

yup then visited june at northpoint macs last nite.
waited for his till 10++.
then she sent me home.
=).
then she talk to me at my void deck till my kor called me.

today. went to sch.
supposed to have geo lecture or something at 11.
reached at 1030.
so early ok.
talked to wendy fifi tw sy candice ming andrea nic they all.
missed them.
they wanted to go town to take the knight bus.
they describe the guy there as how how how cute.
and i wasnt in the mood to go geo.
so ended up following them to take knight bus.
phone died in the middle of nowhere.
ok. then. i admitted the guy is cute!
hahaha not one.
but almost like all the guys in there are cute in their own ways!
ok.
i know tinwai and fionne must be nodding.
hahaha. stayed in the bus for the second ride.
there the bitchy girl was pissed. showing a little attitude.
so we went off.
ran under rain.
cold.
to watch harry potter show.
haha. miracle.
me watching that. haha.
so not me.
but it was ok.
almost fall asleep.
fionne kept slapping me and pitching me.
cries. kept awake throughout.
shivering.
cold.
heh.
then went off for another ride on the knight bus!
cute guys cute guys. =).
last day. fionne is damn sad. haha.
so cute ler this fionne i cannot stand it.
hehe.
then they went home.
i went to northpoint macs to visit june.
did some hw.
i looked hardworking.
smiles.
i wanna be a nerd.
smiles.
then stalked new eye gummy.
saw my pri sch fren.
shocked.
then su hong and june walked me home.
smiles. =).
then yeah am home.
i am going for training tmr.
yawn.
POWER! [guess only su hong and june will understand this.]
and i am shy. =).

[power.]

oh hihi.
got ss workshop today.
it starts at 8.
now its 840.
i wonder wat i am doing here.
wahaha.
lazy to go. but will be going late.
so too bad.
was in malaysia last friday till sunday.
my cousin is a real cute adorable thing.
yet her bro bully me.
eeks.
anw went for wedding dinner last nite.
went to the pub after that with my dad and his frens.
i tried bloody mary. =/.
got salt de.
they think its nice.
adults are weird. haha.
by the way everyone there were adults.
eeks so lonely rite.
lucky i had my hp.
=).
anw i went home.
it was 1. my kor kor asked me into his room.
he looked so fierce.
then he sat there and say go help me take that thing from my table.
then i went to take for him.
it was a mp3.
a new one.
he started explaining how to use it.
then i was like ?!?.
coz i usually dun use such stuff de.
haha i gong wat.
i cant be bothered to care abt that.
then he said it is my birthday present!
he is sooOOoo sweet aint he.
oh man. my bdae he was out for camp.
and i tot he forgot abt it. =).
i love my bro. =).
my sister is out for camp.
one week ler.
one week without a noisy chao si ren mei mei.
so weird ler.
heh.
i think i better go to sch.
it will end and 1230. i think.
now its 848.
reach sch at 10.
walk to pat. its gonna be 11 when i reach.
=X. eeks.

[lalala.]

mommy.
dont blame me if i am stuffing myself once again.
but i cant control.
i need to eat.
i know its binge eating and its not good.
i ate these:
two bananas.
two bowls of mee goreng.
two bowls of rice with MUTTON curry.
[thats fattening.]
two slices of pineapple.
ALOT of seaweed chicken.
[i found them in the fridge. shhh.]
lotsa dark chocolate.
[and i mean bitter. really bitter.]

dung.
my dad wants me to pack my new room now.
dung.
tata young.
i am so full i cant move.
i needa puke.
faints.
tata. young.

[argh.]

i was so high.
i did not recognize.
the fire burning in her eyes.
the chaos that controlled my mind.
whispered goodbye and she got on a plane.
never to return again.
but always in my heart.

this love has taken its toll on me.
she said goodbye too many times before.
and her heart is breaking in front of me.
i have no choice cause i wont say goodbye anymore.

i tried my best to feed her appetite.
keep her coming every night.
so hard to keep her satisfied.
kept playing love like it was just a game.
pretending to feel the same.
then turn around and leave again.

this love has taken its toll on me.
she said goodbye too many times before.
and her heart is breaking in front of me.
i have no choice cause i wont say goodbye anymore.

i'll fix these broken things.
repair your broken wings.
and make sure everything's alright.
my pressure on her hips.
sinking my fingertips.
into every inch of you.
cause I know thats what you want me to do.

there. maroon 5 this love lyrics.
heh. i like this song.
kor kor downloaded ler. but i cant seem to find it.
._.".
heh. oh anyway the previous entry.
i found those lyrics when i was searching this love lyrics.
i think its quite meaningful at this point of time.
=X.
i dunno. big sigh.

[i am still around but playing a different role in your life thats all.]

just friends.
lovers no more.
just friends.
but not like before.
to think of what we've been.
and not to kiss again.
seems like pretending.
it isnt the ending.
two friends.
drifting apart.
two friends.
but one broken heart.
we loved.
we laughed.
we cried.
then suddenly love died.
the story ends.
and we are just friends.
we loved.
we laughed.
and we cried.
then suddenly love died.
the story ends.
and we are just friends.

dont love me.
for my heart is dead.
for i am not worthy of your love.
for love is not needed here.
for i give up on loving.
for my heart is dead.
and it will never come back to life.
so dont love me.

[dont love me.]

give me some air to breathe.
i can hardly breathe.
jae'n says maybe its hyperventaliating.
faints.

today is vesak day.
last year's vesak was my birthday.
and it was in the mids of mid-yr.
it wasnt really nice cos i cried.
but i missed those time when i had serene wen and sy by my side.
though i can still say i wasnt in a really good mood that day.
but i have to say that i love them alot.
still.
no matter wat happen. =).
winkies.
oh well anw no ones home.
except me.
yest they made it sound as if everyone will be home.
so i thought can have some family bonding day or something.
now left me.
the dumb me.
anw i had bonding with hw on mon.
did i say that?
i bought her a colourful frenship band.
i have one too.
heh faints.
i feel so suffocated.
somebody help me.

[suffocated.]

when you love someone so deeply.
they become your life.
its easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside.
blindly i imagined i could keep you under glass.
now i understand to hold you.
i must open up my hands.
and watch you rise.

[fly away. my butterfly.]

added a few more pathetic linkies.
please tell me if you want me to link you.
coz i have short term memory!
heh. winkies.
fainties.
wats that word?!?
faints.
wahaha.
tata young.

[pathetic.]