done with a few more linkies.

[hey. i am soOo sorry alright.]

short announcement:
i am single.

this is kinda werid to put it up.
but i cannot stand it when ppl have to assume things.
and its getting outta hand.
i just wanna kill some ppl sometimes!

[single.]

yesh.
finally decided.
offf to sleep.
nitey.

[zzzZzzzZ.]

finally my blog looks slightly different.
opps.
heh. finally.
got linkies now.
but its half done only.
i lazy to do all today ler.
heh.
i am tired.
but i lazy to move away from this dumb com.
so maybe shall sit here longer.
but wont do the linkies till next time.
really lazy.
thats why i dont wanna put linkies.
but half way done ler.
heh. faints.
ok tata young.

[linkies half done.]

lets see.
i am not in the blogging mood.
i just drank mushroom soup.
then ate two bars of chocolate.
and just drank redoxon.
my mommy buy de.
its healthy compare to the food i eat.
heh.
anw i wanna buy all the ear rings in the world.
opps.
heh.
anw i wanted to change my template.
but laziness caused me not to.
anyway its not as if the templates around are pretty.
heh.
faints. so i shall find a pic to replace my eye gummy there.
heh.
and add in my profile.
and maybe a few linkies.

[binge eating disorder.]

ok. i am in a hyper mood.
but sad mood.
heh.
but i wanna say that i miss lotsa lotsa eye gummies now.

kiwi boy. big kiwi. kiwi tree. kiwi seed. green apple.
red apple. and the eye gummy chy!!!

faints. i wanna see them rite now.
i wanna go to the stock challenge again.
down there got kiwi boy.
got big kiwi.
got kiwi seed too!
heh.
all my kiwis.
i wanna see them.
miss kiwi boy's smile alot.
heh.
hyper hyper.
opps. i have to eat my dinner ler.

[tata young.]

im not a perfect person.
as many things i wish i didnt do.
but i continue learning.
i never meant to do those things to you.
and so i have to say before i go.
that i just want you to know.

ive found a reason for me.
to change who i used to be.
a reason to start over new.
and the reason is you.

im sorry that i hurt you.
its something i must live with everyday.
and all the pain i put you through.
i wish that i could take it all away.
and be the one who catches all your tears.
thats why i need you to hear.

i am addicted to this song.
i think the lyrics is rather meaningful ler.
hohoho. faints.
i just read my previous entry is rather crappy.
perhaps its the headache acting on me.
it doesnt sound right at all.
its paradox.
=X.
oh well.
anw yest had fun in sakae with fi, jw, hy, tw and ria.
miss bloody gang alot.
sy couldnt go.
but got to give her two big big big hugs.
heh.
winks. anyway faints ler.
my headache. sigh.
[hj.] rocks the rocking chair.
[jamie.] swings the swinging swing.
[hj.]: "tata!"
[jamie.]: "young."
heh. thats wat i always say when i say bye.
and followed with jamie's young.
ok. byeee.

[i am sorry.]

oh cow dung.
i am no longer in the bloggin mood ler.
for the next dunno wat i am no longer gonna blog properly.
wont continue my last entry either ler.
but one thing.
yest huixian's head hit my head.
and i am having constant headache.
i am not lying.
if really.
i am not lying.
if really anything happen to me suddenly.
just make sure that everyone i know will take care alright.
i dont wanna cry anymore.
no point.
they are soOo many things i give up crying on.
wats done is done anyway.
=X.
i give up in my life.
i am gonna live everyday to my fullest.
really.

[aint lying.]

its been so long since i wanna blog.
i really cannot remember much ler.
but all i can remember.
let me recall.

hmmm last friday.
i had the last day of leadership course.
then played domino.
so fun and it was pretty pretty.
get my point?
lalala.
i feel crappy.
i mean utterly pretty ler.
oh well.
went to find nu er.
she passed me a cat.
from liyana. utterly cute!
smiles. thanx k. =).
after it i went to help ms chua to carry a table from canteen.
to outside the hall.
yup. =).
then went to tiong bahru with xiling.
to get a red rose for jamie.
=).
hohoho.
then waited for jamie at the foryer for really long.
she took the last bus.
and she came down.
then hug me.
then started crying.
hahahaha. made me cry too.
though me crying is outta point.
but i think its hilarious.
then started updating each other abt things.
then heh. i sent her to bukit batok.
ended up eating in mos burger.
heh.
then went home.

sat.
went to sch to take track photo.
but i was late.
reached there on the dot.
and changed on the spot.
and took the photo.
then went to tanglin macs for breakfast.
with sy. jo. siti. adrea. kisha.
ate. then went walk walk.
kisha went off then.
then we went to lido.
it was still early.
the escalators not moving yet.
so we climbed all the way up to check out the movies.
then so high k. tiring.
heh. anw the place was flooding.
with water.
i tot they cleaning the place.
but when we came down.
a guy closed the place and say that it was on fire?
faints.
and he say no entry please. heh.
freaky.
oh well.
then went to cine to watch movie!
heh. till now i dun really know wats the name of the show.
but its rather nice!!!
i love it.
its the first time i love the show so much.
i cried alot through out.
its so touching and sweet.
smiles.
blah. then went to meet amelia and mel.
then blah blah blah.
shant say much abt it.
wasnt in a really good mood then.
heh. then went home.

sunday.
did nothing much.
went swimming in the evening.
some ulu place my dad brought me and hw to.
then we jumped down the pool.
woo. got a shock coz cannot reach the ground.
then realised that the pool was 2.4m deep!
oh man. the pool is rather weird.
only one side is can reach ground de.
then other side was rather deep!!!
then we clutched to the side and wriggle our way to the stairs.
so scary ok. heh.
faints. then swimed 44 laps of the width of the pool.
wahaha. coz i dun dare to go too deep.
anyway the kids were all playing in the other pool.
we jumped down. -_-".
it was so deep we couldnt reach the ground too.
its like abt 2m i think.
oh faints. wat kinda weird place and weird kids.
then went to bring my sis to cut her hair.
they all wan me to cut her hair.
but i lazy and i dun wanna mess the house up.
so i choose a hair cut for her.
and heh it turned out cool i think.
but it was weird to my mom.
so she was sorta crying saying that she dun wanna go to sch on monday ler.
wahahha.
thats funny you know.
then yup ate yummy crabs for dinner.
but i think my sensitive skin is killing me.
starting to itch ler. die!

monday.stock challenge day 1.
went to sch.
with my bloody hair down.
coz hair couldnt dry in time.
walking that time. yuani laughed at me from opposite the road.
eeks. maluating.
then blah blah.
went to stock challenge!
jaslyn din really wanna go.
so xiling and i asked jamie to come instead!
smiles.
anyway its a boring day indeed.
nothing much but lecture basically.
then went to bukit batok to prepare for stock challenge.
then mommy came and find us.
ARGH!
my bro is back and he wants me to off the com now!
damn. i shall continue blogging tmr maybe?
faints.
wat a half done up entry this is.

[undone.]

oh well.
now no time to blog.
kor kor say cant use for long.
finally msn is downloaded.
with no problems.
=).
wahaha.
oh well.
anw i shall blog tmr maybe?
and i like the movie i watched yest!

girl: "how much do you love her?"
guy: "what do you mean?"
girl: "is it love, big love or great love?"
guy: "what do you mean?"
girl: "you get over love in 2 months.
you get over big love in 2 years.
you change your life for great love."

then the guy kept quiet.
and it was known in both of them.
that the guy love the other love alot.
and he changed his life for the other girl.
its great love!!!
heh!
so bloody sweet.
faints.
ahhh.
ok. i shall blog properly the next time!

[issit love, big love or great love?]

i am in no mood to blog ler.
in no mood to do anything ler.
shall blog tmr.
oh. cow dung.
cow dung.
cow dung.
cow dung.
[hj.] kicks the rocking chair hard.

[in no mood to do anything.]

jamiepck.
i think she is sleeping now!
she is a pig. =).

[hj.] is eating kinder bueno chocolates again.
yummy.
heh. oh well.
[hj.] rocks the rocking chair.
she rock until she is so tired.
she is gonna sleep ler.
nitey.

[still. nerd wannabe.]

jamie. day four without jamie.
guess her obs days are rather eventful there huh.
i missSss jamie. still.

basically yest was a cow dung day.
wahaha.
wat a cow dung thing i am talking abt.
anyway i had a cow dung leadership course.
was in a cow dung mood.
everything was cow dungy to me.
heh.
but i fell asleep till the end of the day.
then dismissed!
then i was so hyper.
i woke up and went to find nu er!
wahahah. soOo crazy ok.
she gave me a buttercup stool lookalike?
heh. i dunno its gonna be placed in my new room.
as a deco. smiles.
heh. then i was soOo crazy.
heh. she had to tie my hands with my ppg towel.
=/.
oh man.
heh.
i went around saying hi to ppl i dunno.
=/.
then i went around looking for my nu er's daughter.
to inform her abt something.
yup then i walked nu er to canteen.
but then she walked me to the bus stop.
and she helped me carry my things.
and i started "maria"ing.
smiles. wahahha. was really hyper+crazy.
then yup went to clementi to meet amelia.
then came mel.
then i forced them to eat the choco.
but obviously ppl have to force me to eat instead.
=/.
oh well.
then we went to jurong point liberty to get food.
then walked to amelia's house.
on the way we saw ppl playing bball.
and this playful amelia wanna play.
so mel and i played along.
then something happened.
got nothing to say anymore ler.
damn. =/.
oh well. then went up with not really a good mood.
then yup.
then ok ler. then use the com to see some blogs.
and then blah blah blah.
then mel and i went home.
i cabbed to chua choa kang again.
heh. the taxi uncle was talking to himself?
i dunno but i couldnt see the phone's wire hanging from anyway.
hohohohoho. =/.
scary though.
oh well. then went home.
slept early? did i? cant remember.
wahaha.

today. bad hair day. =/.
no time to tie hair at home.
tied my hair in the car.
hair was in a mess.
i anyhow tie my bun.
=).
finally my bun looks not that ridiculous.
smiles. oh well.
i missSss my bun too. waahaa.
then had mass run.
talked to this cheeky ph i wanna faint.
then the two dearest counsellors who din book me were there.
i jumped and hopped like crazy.
said hi. then found out that dorcas book me instead.
=/. hohoho.
but its ok. they are so funny.
they dun dare to tell me. =). silly.
wahaha. then blah blah blah.
went for the leadership course again.
was feeling better than yest.
coz the new instructor was rather crappy.
then he keeps saying that i will go "rahhrahh".
and dunno wat i am insane.
then he compares me to xiling.
i am insane. xiling is sane.
and everyone else is outsane?
wat kinda crap rite.
hohoho. he suddenly stared at me and say.
"the most innocent looking girl can be dangerous."
eeks. so out of the blue ler.
wahhaha.
and at the end of the day.
he said i look like korean?
wahahahha. wat kinda crap.
coz of my name huh. cool.
i love my name.
smilesss.
[hj.] rocks the rocking chair.
blah.
then went to the hall to find jo and sy.
and got something for chang sy and hari.
heys sy and hari. cheer up alright.
just remember that i know you can do it.
cheer up. i still do love you all.
though i am not around to cry with you.
hmmm. then went to town.
with jo and sy. =).
ate subway cookies.
heh. then we ate kfc.
before eating kfc. jo's mom appeared with joel.
eeks. scared me.
and i did the personality tests with them.
wahahha. i trying to act pro only.
i am not a D person.
but i want. i want i want.
nonono. joking.
but i want determination.
wahhaha. i think not alot of ppl will understand this.
unless they go for the course or something.
heh. ok. then sy and i walked jo home.
coz she had to go off first.
then sy and i walked around.
and wahahah. yeah walked around.
talked abt things. =).
miss that woman.
she is certainly still slightly insane.
wahahaha. funny.
then we went home. =).
gonna start studying next week.?
i still wanna be a nerd.
i am a nerd.
whahahah.
i talked on the phone when i reached home.
oh man. hey girl. cheer up i hope.
i am useless at cheering ppl up ler.
oh well.
then i slept till 9 plus.
woke up bathe.
heh. blah blah blah.
hi. am i a nerd wannabe.
or am i a nerd.
i think i am a nerd lar.
but ppl say i cannot make it.
sobs.
oh well. tmr jamie is coming back!!!
yeahs. like finally!
wahahahhaha. =).
can give her a big big big hug ler!
smiles.

[nerd wannabe.]

jamie. i missSss you.

oh well.
wanted to blog yest once i reached home.
but i ended up forgetting to blog.
smiles.
oh anyway.
yest the first thing i go to sch is to find jamie!
and the first thing i did when i saw her was to give her a biggg hug.
argh.
i know i will miss her alot.
i almost cried when i hugged her.
but oh wells.
i din. i am strong coz i know she will dream of me there.
wahaha. joking.
hmmm. then i walked her to the foryer.
she went off just like that to pulau ubin.
eeks.
then i happily went for assembly.
blah blah. then dorcas suddenly ask us to stand.
woo i tot got spot check.
so scary then i tidy myself.
and ten mins later i was thinking why they dun wanna check ler.
then xiling told me its becoz all of us din bring book to read.
-_-".
goondo me always dunno whats happeneing.
so embarrassing.
hehe.
oh well. then we went off to the old folks home!!!
and yup. on the way i read lotsa letters.
got so giddy. ok outta point.
then eh we went there to paint the gates. =/.
i know i said i wanna paint my room the day before that.
but i din say i wanna paint gate.
and we painted.
xiling and i are the two hardworking girls painting nicely and efficiently!!!
i tell you i am a pro ok. =).
in the process of painting.
i spattered paint everywhere.
even on my glasses. =/.
then sir happily have to mock me abt it ever since then. =/.
smiles.
then went for break.
i think we took damn long coz we ate alot.
heh. then went back and help to clean up and repaint a little.
then went home.
from that place. they din bring us to sch ok.
and then xiling taught me how to go home.
heh. then eh i went home. to bathe!!!
and on the way home.
this group of guys in the train stalked me. =(.
so scary. then they alighted at my stop.
and they were like "xiaojie. xiaojie."
and i looked around. no one else!
i ignored them.
and started running.
heh. eeks so scary.
then they said "eee so dao de."
wahahah. i ran away in time.
wahaha. guys are freaky.
then walking home. got this few guys asked for my no.
eeks. so scary. i ignored them then they follow me.
then eeks i shook my head and walked away!!!
guys are freaky i conclude.
eeks. eeks. eeks. pukes.
reach home finally.
then blah blah.
went out. to amelia's house.
wahaha. she cooked pasta for me in the end.
yummy la. =).
i cook worse than that so dun be sad alrights.
heh. anyway then i took a cab from there to chua choa kang.
the female driver was speeding coz she was pissed with her husband.
i was so scared.
she was quarelling with her husband on the phone.
coz her husband go geylang. dunno for wat.
heh.
anyway then lucky i alighted the taxi safe. =).
then went home eat dinner again. =/.
then slept rather early.
was so tired ok.

today when i woke up and prepare for sch.
i couldnt find my size 44 pe shirt!
i got so depressed i told my dad to send my bro and sis off first.
without me. =(.
wahahaha. then in the end i had to wear that teeny weeny size 40 shirt of mine.
then left house at 645 only.
reached orchard mrt at 715.
cabbed down to sch. all the taxi drivers ignored me k.
heh. then i got off the taxi.
opps. =/. got councillors. heh.
and my hp was in my hand. i forgot.
then hmmm. let me think. the rough conversation of ours.
something like that la. wahahaha.
[hj.]: "are you gonna book me?"
[councillors.]: "yesh."
they stare at my hp.
[councillor no.1]: "can you pleassse put your hp in your pocket first?"
[hj.]: "huh?!? yest my fren came late and she din get book leh."
[coucillor no.1.]: "but we have to book you."
[hj.]: "huh? muz you?!? can dont book me. pleassse. pleassse."
[councillor no.2.]: "ok give me a valid reason why you are late."
[hj.]: "'cause i couldnt find my size 44 shirt and i ended up wearing this shirt." points at shirt.
councillors giving a wat the hell look. wahaha.
[councillor no. 2.]: "we have to. its not as if we book you you will get detention right?"
[hj.]: "oh oh! i have three demerits ler! and wats more i cannot do detention! coz if i do dentention i will get sack off my pose as vice cap. =(."
[councillor no.[i dunno wat.].]: "huh since when you will get sack after you do detention?"
[hj.]: "hmmm its ms tay. she said that time."
[councillor no.1]: "wat house are you from?"
[hj.]: "bronte!"
[councillor no.2 who knows who i am.]: "yeah bronte."
i dropped my bag on the floor and my catty purse.
tucked in my shirt.
[hj.]: "dont book me pleassse. i promise to tuck in my shirt always."
[councillor no.1]: "okok. go go. but make sure you tuck in your shirt all the time!"
councillor no.2 was shocked but din say anything. =).
[hj.] "really? yeah."
i hopped away.
lalala. the coucillors are sooOOoo nice. heh.
i promised i wont tuck out my shirt anymore. =).
i wanted to write their names here but i decided not to coz councillor no.2 say i shouldnt. =).
yeah. i found out their names today only.
heh. nice ppl.
smiles.
oh man they are my saviours. hohoho.
anyway after this incident i went to parade square.
everyone was doing some dunno wat stretching.
i did along?!? heh.
then kelly passed me a cake!!! yummy.
and her present. =). thanxxx.
then we all headed to changi beach!
yup. was bored i was barefooted walking playing with water alone at first.
i ate the cake kelly gave it!
its nice.
then i started mincing on raw carrots.
and some chips.
heh. then blah blah blah.
at last more ppl came to the water.
blah blah blah.
then went off to eat.
blah blah blah.
xiling and i sat in cheers to eat.
blah blah blah. i was barefooted still.
i was drying my sandals in the air conditioned place.
heh. then blah blah blah. got chased out. =/.
sat outside subway to eat our maggie noodles.
then chit chat alittle.
then blah blah. went back to sch.
and i was sleeping in the bus. was bloody tired.
went back to sch. went to put the balls back into the pe room.
and sir made me stay to take the track tee.
then huiyi and jw asked me to go cassandra's house to play.
i wanted to go. but i had a date with sy.
so i said nvm.
but then sy called later telling me that she is too tired to swim with me. =(.
then i decided to swim alone!!!
coz i was craving to swim.
oh outta point.
then i went to pei sir for awhile to settle his 4 by 1 team for tmr.
then i took the shirt and he chit chat with me for awhile and i went home.
smiles.
then i changed and went to swim.
swim swim swim! was so excited.
heh. i swam 44 laps? wat a nice no.
wahahaha. divide it into 2 you get 22.
nice nice no. 220202. heh.
anyway then i bathed and went home.
on the way i scared someone. =/.
coz my long hair was scary wat.
heh.
ok this is a bloody long entry coz i am feeling crazy and just feel like typing and typing.
and my sis wanna use the com.
heh. the more she stare the more i wanna type.
eeks. i am so mean.
but she is sooOOoo irritating. eeks.
i wanna bOx her. whahaha.
K-boxing is a funny phrase.
anyway my sister is still staring.
argh.
ask her to go away she still dun wan.
wahahaha. i shall continue typing.
anyway eh jamie gave me pretty pretty slippers!
for decoration purpose.
heh.
and i am too lazy to thank everyone for everything.
so i shall just say.
thanx ah. to those ppl who gave me presents.
everything you give is kindly appreciated by me.
and thanx alot for remembering my birthday.
smiles.

and my sister is still staring.
eeks.
fine. this entry is really long.
i am having a headache. =/.
ok. i shall go off now. =).
i am sooOOoo nice. cant stand it.

[jamie. jamie. i miss jamie!]

oh well.
its a dumb sunday morning.
and i woke up early.
at around 10+.
sigh. nothing to do.
so bored.
and the next week is gonna be worse.
and i am very excited for the sec. 3s.
they are going for obs!!!
but i am very sad la.
they dun let me go.
argh. i dun mind going again.
but the retainees are not allowed to go wat.
must they add that.
must they rub it in.
i just wanna go la.
or else i am gonna die of boredom.
but probably gonna date the sec.4s out.
so i have one week to go out with jo and sy.
just miss the two of them.
waahaha. i am so excited for jamie.
wonder who is gonna be in nanny's watch.
she is taking residencial i heard.
oh man miss those days when we sleep in the tent.
smiles.
oh well. =(.
i cant go again.
nvm. hmmm.
today is a boring day.
i wanna paint my room.
i wanna paint my room.
i wanna paint my room.
argh. i still wanna paint my room.
heh. i think i am just crapping. =).
i think i wanna use nippon paint.
hehehe. i feel rather crappy.
nvm. i will miss jamie phua alot alot alot alot.
that bottle of jam is so gonna get burnt.
wahahaha. i can foresee.
i wanna go for a swim.
now now now.
argh. ok outta point.
faints.
shall see whether i can go for a swim today not.
smiles.
heh. oh well. smiles.
i shall stop all this crap.
smiles. byeee.

[one week without jamie. =(.]

Happy birthday jinx.
damn. i think i am a jinx.
no wonder my name is jin wat rite.
i am not in a very good mood.
sometimes i think i am better off not alive.
maybe its just me.
causing ppls' tears around.
damn that day i heard ppl quarrelling over the phone.
shant talk much abt it.
but probably its coz the jinx called.
then such things will happen wat.
then 14 of may morning i have to cry wat.
birthday eve cried until eyes swollen only wat.
damn. nvm.
today no exceptions. i cried.
i made someone cried too.
[nvm. =(.
oh well. went to town. with amelia.
yup. big sigh. i made her wait for me. =/.
both of us wore like girls!!!
good progress in our lifes and i am proud of myself.
though i look hilariously ugly.
then did nothing much throughout the day.
walking up and down town.
then we watched a movie.
me watching movie!!! are you proud of me.
hj doesnt watch movie.
she doesnt coz she prefer staring at the dust particles instead.
oh well. faints.
but i watched. i survived without staring at any dust particles.
heh. but the dust particles are really pretty.
they look like stars in the light.
=/. then anyway amelia and i watched 50 first dates.
then went home.
throughout the day i kept msging.
my bill is dying.
within hours i msged a few hundred. =/.
my hp full batt became one dying bar blinking away.
argh. faints.
and i have to annouce abt a new lover of mine. sarah hohoho.
[my xmas tree + my new lover = sarah hohoho.]
heh. oh wells anw as i was saying.
the show was so sweet.
cried in the middle. argh.
movies are not good for health.
make my eyes tired.
haha. anyway.

thanx to all those who send me happy birthday msges alrights.
hj loves you to bits.
heh.

=).oh anw thanx amelia for everything.
=).and thanx jh for that precious moment thing.
its rather pretty but clumsy me broke it. cries.
=).and thanx joyce for the wallet. you dun have to waste $$.
silly.
=). thanx nu er for that hug.
=). thanx darius for the bracelet though i dun think you will read this.
=). thanx jo for the bracelet too.
and of coz your hug which i hugged so hard.
smiles. missing ya.
=). thanx jan and ying huey for the ear rings.

hmmm. talking to jamie on the phone now.
heh. kk. no jam allowed. shall change everything to jamie!

[happy birthday hj. =(.]

heh. there is this something i wanted to blog.
ever since i got bad flu the other time.
heh. jamie and i came out with something dumb.

[hj.]: sniffs! (sniffs at the same time.)
[jamie.]: pokes! (saying coz she likes being outta point!)
[hj.]+[jamie.]: ouch! (we say together. our body moving to our right together too.)

wat kinda retard thing is this rite?
heh. but i think its hilarious when we do that.
but its totally outta point.
and read the following one.

"ding dong bell.
pussy in the well.
ding dong bell.
ping pong piak."

ok this entry is lame and outta point. =/.

[sniff. pokes. ouch.]

heyhey.
smiles. exams are finally over.
though i am still rather stressed.
coz i can tell my results will be shitty somehow.
sobs. dunno la.
i really feel like studying all over again.
nvm shall continue being a nerd.
but giving myself a break for a few days.
smiles.
todays art was hilarious.
i ended up laughing at the rubbish i was drawing.
it looked so funny. like. i dunno. just funny!
oh well. smiles.
then i headed to town after art paper with jam.
wanted to eat ____ ______.
smiles.
coz i got ulcer. heh. but then something happened.
then i got no mood to eat ler.
but then hungry but no mood wat rubbish.
then waited for amelia to come to meet jam.
then wait. and wait. and wait.
then i went to meet cbsf!!!
oh man. i am missing them already.
they are utterly sweet.
they gave me a flik flack watch!!!
i love it. i love them.
they totally know me really well.
i was soOooo touched.
i almost cried. =).
big smiles.
wendy serene sy. i love you all.
i miss those days we go crazy all the while.
=). but at least we spent some time together today alrights.
celebrating wen's and my bdae together.
though we did nothing special.
but its the time spending with you all.
its just special.
hmmm. then they had to go. i walked them to bus stop and train station.
then went back to cine to meet jam and amelia.
heh. then walk here and there. here and there.
then went home?
heh. then lisa was there. cOoL. another two yishun-ers i noe.
yishun rox. went macs and drink lime juice. yummy.
heh. then went home.
anyway thanx for everyone who wished me happy birthday in advance.
thanx alright.
and thanx cindy for the catty mug.
and yesh you are the first to give me a present.
smiles.
and thanx lisa for the tiger and lion. they look soOo catty. i like them.
smiles. thanx.
and thanx sarahyip for the bear. thats so surprising. coz for a moment i forgot who sarahyip was. coz all the while i remember you as sarah. sarah thats all. thanx anyway. smiles.
and of coz thanx to serene sy and wen for the time they spent with me. and the flik flack watch! and the cd you all burn for me.
love ya tons. big smiles.

[i love serene lot. i love sy lots. i love wen lots.]

oh hi. just a short annoucement.
i am soOOoo in love with yuani's brother.
soooOOoo in love. oh man winks at him.
smiles retardedly.

big secret: he is only five. but he is so shuai and pretty!!!

[new eye gummy.]

oh grins retardedly.
exams are almost over.
but still got dumb bio paper tmr.
and i am in town at buttercupcoffee blog reading.
smiles. jamie and i down here reading some hilarious things.
wahahaa. oh anyway i still have dumb art to do ler. frownssss.
oh well. eh. sat is a nice day. =).
hohohohohoho. merry xmas to me. =X.
oh anyway something happened on monday.
it was hilarious. hiding behind walls and giggling.
jamie and i hid in the toilet to fool around in some room.
heh. wahahaha. shant mention where the room is.
clue: its in the taka. wahhaha.
oh anyway eh i really nv study ler.
argh. i am so sad ler. but i cant seem to find my study mood.
lotsa things been happening lately.
and i decided to take ppls' advice.
though something i really wanna prove that they are wrong.
coz i still somehow believe everyone has a nice side of them.
its just whether they show it or not.
frowns. but i dunno ler la.
i mean i really regret trusting some ppl.
i mean i really dunno la.
its just so disappointing to know more things about. yah.
sometimes i rather start being ignorant all over again.
but it seems hard coz i have to grow up and learn that things are not as simple.
oh man. nvm. heh.
oh well. shant thing so much. i have to study!!!
argh. grins. heh. [hj.] rocks the rocking chair. its written on my ss notes.
realised how ridiculous it sounds like. smiles retardedly.
wahahaa. sat is still gonna be a nice day i hope.
anyway happy birthday to siying. chang siying i mean. =).
i love you. grins. happy birthday to angeline too. =).
oh and its my cousin's birthday. and someone else's birthday.
wahahaha. grins. kk.
i am in sucha crappy mood. perhaps its coz i haven touch the com for long.
grins. k. byeeeee.

[things arent that simple after all.]

oh well. i have something to say.
i know i used to be very ignorant and vulnerable.
but i am changing.
coz i am grossed up by you. you. and you.
damn you. fork you.
besides the rip off. you are the piak of life.
i had never bitched abt anyone till i know you.
bad influence of my forking life.
wahahah. fork you. you stupid piak. damn you.
piaksyourface. gross gross gross. pukes.

[i am now evil.]

now i know.
memories are meant to be memories.
everything's changed.
everyone thought i have changed too.
but deep within. nothing's changed.
you all might not noticed.
that i have been running away from my past.
but i did. i admit that i did.
its coz i am fear of rejection.
but now i cant care more.
coz i realised that everyone moved on.
moving on so fast.
i am off moving on too. i cant care more.
i am gonna change the way i was.
like it or not. i am no longer me.

[memories are meant to be memories.]

hey. its been years i haven blog.
com screwed. wat to do. =/.
but now can only use internet.
msn cant be downloaded yet. =/.
nvm exams coming.
oh well. life's been happening.
and there are lotsa things i realised in life.
lotsa things.
ppl come and go.
sigh. nvm. i am definately thinking too much.
ok. nvm. anyway i have been sick. argh.
monday went home realised i had sore eyes.
everyone said my left eye was red at the end of the day.
but when i reached home both eyes red. =/.
then tuesday i went to see a doc. yup.
rested at home. yup.
sigh. then wed morning was share a tot?
i totally din know wat to do. reached sch and dunno wat i was doing on stage.
embarrassing myself. =l.
oh well. then eyes were red still but heh. i felt better.
oh thursday i got flu from dunno where.
english paper. but i was sniffing through out.
faints. felt so sick. faints.
friday chinese paper. i din really study. too sick to study.
ok faints. probably will fail it. =(.
oh well. faints. i really need to sleep now.
my parents refuses to believe that i am sick.
they never trust me. sobs. i got nothing to say ler.
anyway i have learnt to be mean.
after all these years i have lived.
i realised that you have to be mean to stop yourself from being hurted.
i dunno. but i did some blog reading just now.
i dunno why. but i just think that life is just so cruel.
soooOoo cruel. i dun wanna live a life.
i rather i am just a someone who is not someone?!?
heh. i am basically crapping.
argh. something wrong with me.
probably its the fever bacteria attacking my brain. =(.
heh. kk. shall stop here. hj is gonna sleep. =).

[i wanna know nothing more than a happy thought.]