wats wrong with the thing. why got so many As?
dumb me cant do the template up properly.
shall do it tmr. bye again.

[still pondering.]

hello. oh man. finally finished my blog template.
hohoho. i like the baby shoes. heh.
meow. i figured everything out myself.
proud of myself man.
oh well my brain is exploding.
today din go training. went to bank with mommy.
hoho. then went northpoint to walk walk with hw.
meow. anyway din go for nicole's party.
totally cannot go lor. yest went for fiona's one wat.
meow oh well. yest was fun.
yeah though i mood swing to bits.
meow. reached home at 10++.
was dead tired. meow.
anyway hmmm. i need sleep meow.
chairman or not. ok i am talking nonsense. hohoho.
anyway the song below is nice.
i think its very meaningful.
like once again. ok meow. goooOOd nitey.

[ponders over nothing.]

Butterfly

when you love someone so deeply.
they become your life.
its easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside.
blindly i imagined i could.
keep you under glass.
now i understand to hold you.
i must open my hands.
and watch you rise.

spread your wings and prepare to fly.
for you have become a butterfly.
fly abandonedly into the sun.
if you should return to me.
we truly were meant to be.
so spread your wings and fly.
butterfly.

i have learned that beauty.
has to flourish in the light.
wild horses run unbridled.
or their spirit dies.
you have given me the courage.
to be all that i can.
and i truly feel your heart will.
lead you back to me when you're.
ready to land.

i cant pretend these tears.
arent over flowing steadily.
i cant prevent this hurt from.
almost overtaking me.
but will stand and say goodbye.
for you'll never be mine.
until you know the way.
it feels to fly.

spread your wings and prepare to fly.
for you have become a butterfly.

fly abandonedly into the sun.
if you should return to me.
we truly were ment to be.
so spread your wings and fly.
butterfly.
so flutter through the sky.
butterfly.
fly.
spread your wings and fly.
butterfly.

[fly high high high.]

hi. am in the process of changing my template.
wait k. meow.

[blursss.]

eng webby done. finally!

[faints.]

hello.
today cried alot. cry baby me. meow.
oh well. wasnt feeling well la.
then this mr josef and i sorta argued.
ok i was too watever.
haha. but i cried like shit.
before that thing i cried le.
coz wanted to go home but din coz of the fact that my dad is home.
sigh. i am so on the verge of breaking down these days.
broke down twice recently. faints.
in front of my frens somemore.
guess i am just dying from the stress. had nv been so fragile in my life before.
anyway ms chua talk to me then. haha.
got lotsa things she talk abt. meow.
hmmm. how? hohoho. then went town with jo to get her daddy present.
went home with sy that time saw mrs sia. so cute k.
we were so scared but realised we were not doing anything wrong so ignored.
she so cute. as ever. lol.
oh well. meow. i have to do my eng webby now.
meow.
back to work!

[fragile me.]

[its over.]

hello.
am back from common test.
like finally its over. smiles.
anyway recalls.
commontest was like no comments.
totally studied for mathsssss only.
sigh. but what can i do. but come to think of it.
i din study la. just did my homework and look through.
sigh. i am not hardworking enough.
i wanna box myself up. lol.
anyway nvm forget abt it.
ms chua is rite. wats over its over.
now start studying can ler la. sigh.
anyway i think ms chua is damn sensible. haha.
i mean compared to other teachers.
i tend to listen to what she says. its just somehow different.
she is like another mrs heng.
the only few teachers i listen to. meow.
anyway sigh.
and am sad my maths d paper.
i left a 5 marks qns blank.
a maths left 5 marks qns blank too. and another 5 marks qns no time to finish.
damn. anyway hmmm got something i forgot to do.
ok there.

dearest you.
yesh read this.
you forking have to scream at me and make my life difficult huh.
like wth. you have to call us lucky chicken rite.
wat kinda rubbish teacher are you.
do you think its an encouragement in your own way?
discouraging encouragement huh. paradox.
grow up man. or even if you din mean it as an encouragement.
i think you are just damn shit to insult your students.
how do you wan respect from us when you insult us as chickens?
please. you wan your respect. we need ours too.
we are human beings. unlike you.
you are so heartless. so un-human being.
i mean when you scream at me.
did you ever try to put yourself in my shoes?
try thinking. "THINK THINK THINK!!!"
thats wat you say. now i wan you to think.
imagine. you are a 15++ girl.
not fully grown up yet and there your teacher is screaming at you for giving the RIGHT answer?
you are totally screaming back in your heart.
oh man. you just suck big time.
shit. why arent you me? wake up.
get the point that no one will accept such teacher.
i mean you made me cry two puddles of tears out only wat.
my eyes swollen only wat.
you made everyone hate you only wat.
nvm its all up to you.
like how everyone does their hw on paper and you wan us to do it on the net.
hello. lazy to bring our work home to mark then say.
lazy bum bum. look at your ass.
its so totally ugly. go on a diet please.
your size makes me wanna puke. i feel like puking.
you make me lose my appetite. no meat for me.
pukes. haha. if you are guilty by now. after reading this.
i can tell you that. yesh. i am referring to you.

[lost my appetite.]

hmmm.
common test going on.
hj needs to study.
so yup everyone out there jiayou k!!!
oh man. twisties twisties twisties!!!
anyway ___ i am so gonna blog a whole blog entry for you when common test is over.
you big fat ugly bully.
think you are pretty huh?
your ugly shit it face makes me wanna cry.
you ugly slutty woman.
wait and see.

[big fat bully.]

its been years since i last blogged.
too lazy to come online.
wats more sleep is very important to me.
this year i always have my eyes swollen.
then cant wear contacts like today.
anyway i got back my both maths test ler!!!
17/20 for maths d.
2 marks gone for careless mistakes.
xiling got full marks noe. oh my she is my ou xiang.
haha. a maths i got 14/20.
2 marks gone for careless mistakes so sad k. like again.
hohoho. meow. but at least i passed both.
and got a lollipop for my amaths test. so nice ah ms chua.
sooooOOoo happy ler.
meow. anyway i am kinda stress.
i cannot afford to fail anything. sighhhh.
hmmm anyway common test coming.
totally have to study hard hard hard.
and i pulled my muscle on mon.
it was so lame. dun laugh.
i was too excited to buy hashbrowns.
i jumped up. then eh.
i felt my muscle pulled. like a rubber band snapping.
so pain!!! cried coz i din wanna go hospital.
haha but then better ler after that.
can walk ler. run abit cannot run properly only.
heh. anyway eh we went to springfield sec for art excursion.
then this funny thing happened.
i was trying to scare the fishes in the pond.
then the pond was beside the stairs.
then this germaine pulled me from down there.
i flew down the steps. haha i was like wow.
totally funny. and i found out her e y e c a n d y.
heh. anyway went to study with jo and sy yest.
and wat else huh?
hmmm. i went for training on sat.
then went to holland v for laksa.
and then went to town to occupy time.
then took a taxi down to bishan with jo to her tuition place.
then i met jh and went back to town.
went around looking for her frens then go home ler.
i was so mean to her. bleaghz.
i am natually mean.
hmmm. i wanna study.
but not in the mood.
this blog entry all so messily typed.
tsk tsk. haha. meow.

[nothing lasts forever.]

anw thanx for the v day presents for those who gave me.
i am so sorry i din get anything for anyone yet.
totally busy and broke and yup.
so will get once i have both the time and money k.
happy valentines' day.

[mood swing. swing. swing.]

friday the 13th.
nothing bad happened.
except me bad mooding lots and lots.
i am damn pissed.
i am giving lotsa patience to alot of things.
why must my parents treat me like a maid.
shit it.
i have had enough.
want me to study or be maid. only got one choice lor.
i have 24 hours only. its not as if i dun need time to sleep eat and rest.
sit down watch tv for 15 mins very long issit?
its not as if i am interested in the show.
i am just trying to take a break.
and i am damn irritated by YOU.
yesh if you are feeling the gulit in you.
yesh you are the one that is irritating me.
fooooork you.

[bad mooding.]

meow.
yest had training.
this jo was so energetic i almost die.
hohoho. felt as if i had lungs cancer.
was so worried.
maybe its my asthma.
i had it when i was in pri sch.
maybe. but my chest hurts.
sigh. oh well. anyway today had bronte house practice.
was stressed up man.
and did i say my chinese got 71/100?
oh man like finally i pass my chinese rite?
yesh must be proud of me. i studied like two periods before the test only.
but i am sad coz alot of ppl got like a1.
shall study harder. =).
anyway i had a serious talk with maine today.
felt that she is one who is like the closest to me in class now.
i mean. its not as if she noes everything of me.
its not as if i noe everything of hers.
but at least she noes the most. no one noes more i think.
or maybe yuani does. but diff kinda topic i am talking abt!!!
hahaha. i dunno wat crap am i talking abt.
just happen to be a crappy mood.
just now went to send june her hw.
that girl kena suspended. am damn worried for her.
if she gonna do anything silly i am gonna smacccccccccck her.
hahaha. oh well. meow.
this blog entry abit like anyhow type one.
hohoho. anyway i wanna train harddd.
i wanna be hardworking in all ways.
i am a hardworking girl!!!
hohoho. meow. =/. madness la. meow.

[redundant me.]

kind reminder of the day.
hanjin's number is no longer 97849713.
its now 98583855.
remember.
coz hj nv really inform everyone.
sorry for the inconvience caused.
anyway her bill is exploding.
so msg her if impt only.
can call her from 7am to 7pm. its free.
hohoho. sorry huh.
anyway i love my friends!!!

[still nonchalent.]

hello. today is my maine's birthday!!!
hohoho.
went town with her yuani and jan after school.
went cine bits and pieces.
faked that i was going to buy something for my gf.
happily made germaine choose the bracelet.
then made her go out while i asked for engraving.
hohoho. went to eat then. wohoho. i din eat.
so i went back to collect the braclet. done!!!.
totally went back and said. "hey help me see whether its nice not."
then she saw and she was like eh?!? kinda expression.
funny!!! hohoho. anyway we then headed to heeren to take neoprints.
woo so nice. heh. =).
i am sucha nice pL butch to my dearest maine rite. hohoho.
anyway see my dearest maine. our hooooot ms baey. hohoho.

such a chiobuz. so hottttttt!!!
meow. hahaha.
anyway sat was laura's birthday!!!
hanjin was like abit blur abt it.
anyway
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LAURA.
AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERMAINE!!!

[hohoho. cheers. everyone is getting older by the day!]

in reality im slowly losing my mind.
underneath the guise of smile gradually im dying inside.
friends ask me how i feel and i lie convincingly.
cause i dont want to reveal the fact that im suffering.
so i wear my disguise till i go home at night.
then turn down all the lights and then i breakdown and cry.

[nonchalant.]

reality stinks.

[communication breakdowns.]

i din noe. i really dunno anything.
no one told me anything.
there were no signs of anything.
i really feel bad.
its not as if i am ignorant.
its just that i din noe. =/.

[ignorance aint no bliss.]

woooo. its been long since i last blogged.
recalls.* =).
hanjin got short term memory.
like forever de.
wed morning i noe when i reached sch i was crying like shit.
everyone tot i was mad. hohoho.
coz i was so tired. then i happily no strength to walk properly but i cried like a tap.
meow. coz i was not feeling well yet i have to be in school.
i cant seem to miss any day of school.
everything is getting so stressed up i am gonna break down soon again.
sigh. then i noe something like wed was sucha long day.
in the end still have to find ms chia.
she made me stay back to do some extra work.
this mrs wong so sweet gave me a pile of tissue paper.
then she was like have some fruit cake.
then i was like?!? then open up the tissue. got a fruit cake inside.
sooooOOoo sweet. coz i said i din have my lunch yet.
then this ms chia oso gave me an apple. oh my. another sweet woman.
then she gave me a some sorta biscuit thing too.
hohoho. then did a study plan for her.
went to help wan xian hand in maths that time.
i waved to huiyi opposite.
this ms goon happily appear out of the blue and ask me wat i was doing.
then i was like oh waving.
hahaha blushes. totally hilarious.
then she talked to me. asked whether i am coping well.
and yesh of coz i said i did though i am stressed till head filled with white hair ler.
anw went to bronte house meeting then.
went home with june and peichun.
so funny. went to june's void deck to help her do art.
ended up spoiling her art. reached home at 8. was so tired.
sat in front if com to do eng essay but sadly i fell asleep in front of the com.
then forgot to save.
next morning woke up at like 430am and did a 1000 word essay.
in like half an hour. totally cannot make it.
then msged ber to wake up to help to print.
opps. and thanks girl!!! totally thanx alot.
then met june and peichun in the morning to go to sch together.
we are the yishun people. hahaha.
anyway eh. anyway then yup like that.
cant really remember wat exactly happen.
had training in the afternoon.
was so qing tian pi li at first.
then became hohoho rain like some cows and chickens.
then trained till me jo and sy's legs shivering.
funny. then i was too tired to talk.
abit no strength to smile too.
then eh went home.
did art for my sister till fall asleep.
woke up wanted to do my work.
she forced me to do for her.
then i did and fell asleep again.
so totally sad k. sigh. wat kinda sister is she.
then woke up the next morning.
sick and tired of life. totally wanna sleep for the rest of my life man.
then today like that la.
and am in love with ms baey. she is so hoooot baby.
hahaha. germaine and i took a photo with with her. so chio!!!
anyway tong visited us. so fun. talked alot. =).
miss her.
anyway yup yup. like that ler.
and did i say i had chinese test on wed. i hope i passed it.
and maths d test yest. i totally wanna pass it too.
and a maths test today. i wanna pass too.
sigh. took back bio and chem tests ler.
very sad k. 11/25 for bio.
nv pass bio in my life before. so sad.
and i happily realised i missed out a 2 mark qns coz i din see it.
damn.
16/25 for chem. sigh.
i am not hardworking enough. i wanna kill myself.
like finally i care abt my results my results like shit. sigh.
i am so stressed. helppppp. sigh.

[reality.]

ppl here like trying to do english essay.
but have decided to blog before my bro comes back.
heh. oh well.
today x-country k.
oh well. BRONTE ROCKS.
simply rock the whole day. meow.
i crapping la.
anyway. went out of house with bro and sis in the morning.
reached early i think.
helped ph a little for hanging the banner.
yeah. then find angeline.
and did warm up. was totally in a crappy mood.
din get enough sleep you see.
oh well. then started the run.
planned to run with jo.
but half way through. jo disappeared.
i tried to find her. but cannot be running backwards rite?
so i continued running.
and running.
and running.
then yeah reach the ending point.
[oh well. i dunno wat am i crapping abt.]
then yitian was in front of me.
then is like she was abt 100m in front of me.
and there were a few ppl in between us.
so i tot i was like last.
i dunno wat i was thinking. just tot i was slow like shit.
yup. then found out she was second. cheers.
but i tot i was still last.
then got cheering of the sec.4s.
then yup prize giving. totally maluating. coz i din noe i got 3rd.
meow. how slow can i be.
anyway i am very sorry to the sec.3s.
coz its like i feel damn loser.
coz hanjin is a supposingly sec.4 who ran as a sec.3.
so that means if i am not around.
then 4th will be the 3rd. and the 5th will be the 4th. and so on.
so i am really very sorry. apologies to all.
ok back to wat i was saying.
then this ms malini. utterly funny.
totally asked me and ph to run around with the flags when its announced that we are champion everytime.
oh well. =P.
and we got like 1st for our banner!!!
yeah so much effort put in k. yeah!!! oh well.
then ph asked me to go up to take the prize with her.
and i happily tripped over her leg.
the whole sch laff. funny meh. sooOOOoo malu. nvm. =P.
hohoho. anyway. yup!
bronte just rocks.
great achievements of bronte:
1. sec.1 champion [overall.]
2. sec.3 champion [overall.]
3. banner champion.
4. got second for sec.4 cheering. =).
greattttttt. =).
well done my fellow lovely bronterians. yeahhhh.
oh well. after x-country.
we packed up.
meet jw and jo and qiqi and adel and steph.
went marche. ate.
then went walking around.
then yeah. then yup bowled.
was in a [i cant be bothered.] mood.
then eh. went to meet jh in the toilet who is cutting hair for mayyee.
funny ppl.
then yeah like that.
i cant remember wat happened.
i was like half asleep. like drunk.
like kept talking rubbish.
acted like retard. then yeah.
came home. drank coffee.
i needa study!!! =).

[hw got into hockey. she wants me to annouce it. so annoying.]

oh hello.
lazy to blog. like again.
haha.
anyway i am like so bored.
i wanna go swimming.
yest went self training.
did 3.2km. timing was horrible.
was depressed though. but wat can i do.
meow. i wanna swim. =).
hmmm. anyway i found out the qian bian girl likes ______.
hahaha. her face is utterly qian bian i am sorry to say.
even ______ oso sorta think so.
hahaha. meow. so interesting.
if i am feeling mean one day i will mock her.
no la joking. but i will go hug ______ in front of her.
oh sad thing. hahaha. madness me.
=).
ok crap la this entry.
really not in the mood for something real.

[denial.]

meow. lazy to blog.
blog tmr or something. meow.
hoho. this entry abit redundant.
but eh. toooooooo bad.
meow. miss tong. =).

[purrrrr.]