hoho. xmas is over.
blah. sigh. oh well.
hmmm. lazy to blog ler.
din go training today.
no one inform me abt training so yup.
hah. kk.
too lazy to blog le la. some other day perhaps.

[it was a nice day.]

merry xmas to everyone.

[i wanna wish you a merry christmas. from the bottom of my heart.]

oh ya. when my sis and i were on our way home.
this weird guy totally wave hi to me.
like no need.
my sister tot he is mad.
he totally asked me to go over to where he was.
i totally noe wat he is up to.
[wanna be frens huh.]
cheap thrills. no need to ask me over.
not sincere at all. yucks.
oh well. yucks. this kinda guys make me hate guys.
suck ler. totally wave bye to me even if i ignore him.
sucker.
hmmm. oh well. and i bought my chain.
the chain i have been looking for all the while.
but i totally forgot its xmas.
so i used up my money on it. yucks.
total yucks.
lalala. i wanna be a nerd ler.

[fly away, my butterfly.]

hmmm.
went to stc today.
memories. blah.
met fionne. her sis in stc too.
heh. cute bung gonnabe.
blah! din go and meet huiboon they all again.
sigh. miss them. i forever cannot make it.
really miss them. heh.
ok kingcat muz be trying to attack my blog now. hah.
hmmm.
kk. no mood to blog ler. and thanx jo for the sweet.

[meow.]

oh well. did i mention.
today when i was on my way to sch.
this guy keep waving to me.
do i noe him?!?
dunno ler. short term memory.
but no i tot he was mad.
ok. after second tots.
maybe he was the guy that talked to me on that lantern festival nite.
hahaha. yeah. should be ler.
hohoho. dunno la. looks the same.
ok nvm. lame-ed.
maybe he wasnt even waving at me.
but i was the only one facing him. weird-ed.
haha. nvm. lalala.
i am hyper. dunno why.
and the mayyee my pL is so funny i can just die. =P.

[hyper.]

+++++MAY INVADES!!!+++++
hur. here to terrorize my dear pL. thanks fer passin d hohoho disease to me u donkey. credits to d stupid shipping company ur name's all over spore ler, happy. even has trucks =/ see u everywhere, how eerie. stupid coconut. hohoho shall terrorize u again. stay sexy. hur.

hello.
back from school.
sister posted to stc.
tmr bringing her there.
totally forgot how to get there.
though i was there for like a week?
hahaha. hmmm. oh well.
cant go training.
today went to sch. quite productive la.
hahaha. sy went there too.
studied with ber and sy.
yup yup. went town.
sy cut her hair. nice hair cut.
but abit guy but nvm i like ler.
hohoho. hmmm. blah. i need to study.
hohohoho. madness ler.

[filled with madness.]

good morning.
going to school soon.
heh. oh well. i find friendster interesting.
heh. just like how i found blogger interesting.
hehe. lame-ed. will get bored of it soon.
hohoho. nvm. oh well. i am so bloody lazy to blog ler.
okok. one thing.
i think i am sucha let down to my family.
fullstop. tatax.

[let down.]

i dunno why i got friendster now.
its funny ler.
i am lame!!! ah.
lame-ed. heh.

[bored ah.]

so here we stand.
in our secret place.
with a sound of the crowd.
so far away.
and you take my hand.
and it feels like home.
we both understand.
its where we belong.

[heh.]

went training today.
was late like again. heh.
hohoho. then did our own workout.
was adventurous. went walking into weird places.
heh. ok lame. said hi to how many million strangers.
heh. oh well. then went to giant with sy and jo.
got a 1.5 or 1 litres of milk. sy's treat but i paid 2 bucks. she paid 25 cents. heh.
meiji milk. was feeling strawberry-ty.
so got the strawberry de. heh. drank everything up.
felt like puking. heh. so bloated.
but i love milk. but still prefer plain white milk.
heh. ok. went to town.
to eat chicken rice in far east.
tried the other store de. coz jo brought us there.
was totally broke. heh i paid one buck for my meal only.
but will pay them back when i am rich. heh.
oh well. hmmm. then went to library.
did i say that sandra brown is a good writer?!?
heh. yeah good at writing erotic books ler.
its so sec.2. like last year we were totally amused by her books.
heh. funny went there to read some of her books.
all of us felt thirsty. went to get a drink.
then went to heeren to get jo's card.
and i am so into looking at ear rings.
heh chio. so girly. so fun. heh.
then played bishi bashi. ok my reaction is damn slow.
cant play such game. lose badly.
wats more the red button doesnt work.
like work this min then next it doesnt! heh.
totally cursing the damn red button but its ok ler.
oh well. hmmm. laura annie tiff and huiyi saw us.
then they crowded around.
they talked ler. then we play finish have to go home ler.
went to buy gummies. then went to cine.
met ange and ber.
sy went off with peicheng and jo was waiting for baaawati.
her maid. so freaking cute k. heh.
then yeah walked to mrt station with ber and ange.
then they took the train with me down to newton.
but they missed the stop. got down at novena then.
heh. then i come home le!!!
heh. i am so guai k. and heh. gonna help mom write her report later.
i want money!!! heh. i need lar. xmas. broke.
those two words doesnt sound rite together.
hehehe. hohoho. kkk. xmas is filled with love.
heh i love. heh. and oh. to someone.
ok i have no comments on her anymore.
i mean i stepped out of it.
i wasnt even supposed to be part of it.
she is just who she is to you.
judge her from wat you see. yup.
thats wat i did. so i think i shouldnt tell ya wat i noe that is bad abt her.
coz diff ppl have diff thinking. so yup yup.

anyway if wanna tell me or ask me something can email me.
will reply as soon as possible. but if neccesary only ler.
yup yup. urgent then sms me.
i will read it. but cant reply k. yup yup.
will call back i think. if neccesary only too. heh.
kkk. tatax. heh.

[ido ahora.]

oh yup.
forgot to add that.
mayyee had made herself my pL.
that girl is so funny plus lame.
she wants me to talk abt her on my blog.
heh. kkk. there. i think she is chio yeah.
hahahaha. yup. gonna miss her somehow.

[blah.]

hello. [hj.] is back.
back from nowhere ler.
blah. back from depression.
heh. ok. i am mad.
dun wanna blog abt wat happen these days.
no point rite. muz recap recap.
short term memory eh. heh.
lalala. and i am guai k.
i dun cut myself.
dun go clubbing.
yeah i dun. sigh.
i dun like ppl to judge me when they dun even noe me.
wats more. they judge me by the kinda fren i have.
no. you dont judge one by looking at her frens.
wats more.
my frens. they do things for certain reasons.
so dont you judge them as bad kids too.
yup. just have that to add. yeah. heh.
hohohoho.
i am just crazy ler k.
talking rubbish. tatax.

[time shows it all.]

if i ever give you any hope.
am sorry. get over me.
its not worth it.

[dont wanna say goodbye. we can always be frens yeah.]

hello. heh.
blog abt yest.
packed the house.
iron lotsa clothes for the whole day.
heh. packed clothes. yeah.
then in the evening.
went to hospital to visit granny.
slapped my sister in the train.
was very agitated by her.
heh. my mood was damn bad.
she called me retarded.
heh. then i rised my voice and scolded her.
my mom scolded me.
and she denied so i was even more pissed.
then there i slapped her.
my mom slapped me back.
coz she believes my sister coz she din hear my sister calling me retarded.
then i shouted fuck.
in the train. in the public. heh.
i think its my first time doing such things.
my temper is getting from bad to worse man.
heh. then i went out of the train.
still screaming at the top of my voice.
then slowly my sister admitted wat she said.
heh. bitch. she thinks she is so fucking smart. 232.
thats lower than me. and she calls me retarded.
if i am. she is hopeless le. heh.
ok i am still pissed when i think abt it k.
coz my mom slapped me in the public for nothing.
at least she felt bad. heh.
i cried like shit yest. eyes were totally swollen ler.
sigh. heh. its over. ok ok.
promised someone not to think abt it.
not to sigh. heh. yeah!!!
i am a happy girl. hohohohoho. =).

today. din go out.
stayed home. have to pack house again.
hey i am the pro maid k.
thats why my family like me to be the maid always.
heh. kkk.
ended up watching wu jian dao vcd.
such a touching show.
cried. heh. and i think i have got split personality too.
coz i think i got?!?! heh. nvm. hard to explain.
but yeah. hehehehe. blah.
helped my bro to make whipped potato.
he made for his class gathering.
then i keep stealing and eating instead of helping.
he almost die. heh. *blush. but its nice k.
coz i help to make de. heh. k.
i am just mad today ler k. dunno wats wrong.
bored ler.

[how do you redefine something that never really had a name?.]

anytime i need to see your face i just close my eyes.
and i am taken to a place.
where your crystal minds and magenta feelings.
take up shelter in the base of my spine.
sweet like a chica cherry cola.
i dont need to try to explain.
i just hold on tight and if it happens again.
i may move so slightly to the arms.
and the lips and the face.
of the human cannonball that
i need to i want to...

come stand a little bit closer.
breathe in and get a bit higher.
you'll never know what hit you.
when i get to you.

heh. nice lyrics. =).
i want you by savage garden.
yeah. i like the lyrics. lalala.
though the chica cherry cola and the human cannonball is totally no relevance de.
heh. oh well. lalala. am dying.
missing someone. =P.

[im in serious shit. i feel totally lost.]

hihihi. =).
hmmm nv blog properly since wed.
heh. lets see. wed.
no one was home. coz granny was sent to hospital.
then i had to look after my sister.
so i brought my sister to school. heh.
before that we went to macs. she treated me. =).
then went to sch. she became irritating.
coz she likes ber la. heh. nvm too funny to say le.
but yup studied abit. then went to study with ber and yuani.
then went off to town to get my earrings. heh.
got chio earrings wor. =). star de.
then met laura wen hsin outside stadium.
then talked for awhile. then jw came!!!
heh totally missing that girl man. =).
hmmm. then went off to watsons to shop.
called daddy then he wanted us to go down hospital.
went down ler. mommy was there le.
looked at granny. she is so old le. =/.
87 years old. her dream is to see kor kor get married.
blah. sigh. then went off to eat.
then daddy bought me a man polo shirt.
heh. he dun mind me acting bung ler.
lucky bro wasnt there. =).
then went home ler...

thurs... got training at spe.
dunno how to go. so planned to meet ber.
but hor. sorry la. ppl reached damn late.
took a taxi down. heh. asked her to get up and got to spe.
heh. reached there at 10++.
ppl all training le. scary. heh.
so din wanna train le. scared mr lin scold.
so both of us hid in the toilet. got 2 sec.1s heh.
then played. was trying to entertain myself heh.
lalala. then wanted to escape but couldnt eh. heh.
mr lin was outside. when training ended.
both of us oso no mood to train le.
heh. then went off to shell with hweeyi, yujia and cindy.
din know where we wanna go. just followed.
hehe. then went macs. sat. wanted to eat.
but then no mood to eat le. then went off to my house.
heh. dragged ber up to my house to show her my
[moo moo.].
heh. my favourite eh.
then she went to macs to meet liyana and shuping.
there i woke my sister up. went off to macs.
she ate. i stole her mcpepper. =P.
heh. then asked them help to take off earrings.
heh. screamed like bimbo. *blush.
totally no need to say i bimbotic lor. heh.
hmmm then went off to causeway.
coz sister wanted to go yup. rotted.
looked at prom dresses. pretty pretty.
went down to eat in yoshi.
then they wanna go home. then go ler.
sister wanted to send ber home.
went down to queenstown. then ber din get off.
heh. then shuping went off to novena from there.
then yup yup. went home. hehehe.
then kor kor invited me out to go collect photos with him.
he treated me mcpepper!!! heh.
was such a mcpepper day. heh.

friday. wasnt feeling well.
flu and slight fever.
couldnt wake up. kept sneezing.
stood up from bed. sneezed like mad.
went to sch still. reached at 11++ i think.
supposed to meet at 830.
peihan angeline ber and fiona cindy were there.
then started scrubbing the pe room.
almost fainted. the thinner make me dizzy.
got brain damage le i think.
cindy went off then.
heh. then me and peihan went to eat the dancers' food.
heh. then we went off to fiona's mom office.
she wanted to take money.
then we were deciding on where to go to eat.
heh. then we said go to the bus stop see wat bus come then eat wat lor.
heh. then in the end changed our mind.
went to republic poly to eat.
canteen so far lor. heh. so tiring.
then ate lalala. went to this room with two soccer table.
played. so fun yeah!!!
then went off to toilet. yeah nice toilet. can keep our hp there next time if got spot check.
heh. went to redhill to eat ice cream.
then went home. wasnt feeling well still actually.
came home daddy made me pack stuff. so sad.
wanted to faint le. heh. moved my room's furnitures.
felt like a maid throughout the room. scrub down mop there.
heh.

sat... thats today!!!
yup woke up at 9++.
realised late for training! heh. too late ler.
so msged ber say not going le.
jo not going either heh. then ber and angeline not goin le too.
funny. dad made me eat cereal.
then i went back to sleep at 10 till i dunno wat time.
woke up. ate sandwiches. then went out to buy stuff for mommy.
then came back. slept. heh.
woke up at 5 or 6 plus. daddy dragged me to go visit granny in hospital.
was planning to sleep all day but nvm ler. heh.
ate my dinner before i go.
then go there. my auntie brought food for granny.
granny gave me lotsa food to eat too.
so there i ate in the hospital too. heh. lame.
then went home. yeah.
so tiring k. and i am sad.
i dun like rumours. sigh. its so untrue that liyun and me have something on k.
we are just frens. yuck.
hate rumours. if its truth passing around i wun mind.
but ppl anyhow assume de. totally saddening k. blah. =/.

kkk. i type so long k. heh. tiring.

[do you still have doubts that us having faith makes any sense.]

ok. very long very blog.
blog tmr i guess?!?
heh. nvm. someone out there.
is drinking. am worrying. =/.
my granny is in hospital. *worries.
fell down. some dunno wat bone cracked i think.
then had body check-up.
x-ray her lungs. suspecting lung cancer.
she is going for an operation one day.
to check whether its lung cancer?!?
ok weird. thats wat i heard from my bro.
i dunno eh. kk. blog tmr i hope... =).
tatax. =).

[i am stressed. i dont know wat to do.]

hello. so long nv blog. lets see.
last thurs. track camp day one.
reached sch late when supposed to reach at 730.
reached at 1130 instead. =/.
did some work. went town for lunch.
with jo, hui boon, peihan and kai.
mos burgerrrr. talked. went back to sch.
went for camp abit. then ran out.
played softball. frisbe. heh. jo went off.
then went back. ate. sy came. updated her with stuff.
then spent the nite entertaining ourselves.
slept at 445. woke up at 6. first to wake up.
din really sleep. was just resting.

track camp day 2. fri.
woke up. washed up. ate.
sy went home. i packed my bag too.
went training in turf city. with my bag.
huiyi went home. i tagged along.
coz i needed sleep badly. heh.
then went her house. slept for 3 hours?
huiyi is the cutest thing. she cant wake up de.
she keeps whining de. i almost die trying to wake her up.
heh. went back to sch. met yitian first.
then yup ate dinner in sch.
after dinner. mood swing for awhile.
then cried. talked to yitian.
then farewell. then walk dora outta sch.
went back. played games.
yitian fed me fried rice in between. heh.
then eh. something happened.
yitain and i wanted to brush teeth. huiyi wanted to pee.
then there something happened.
was very scared. very. sigh.
then yeah. they all slept.
then i stoned for a long while.
miaoqun and yilin forced me to sleep.
but ended up forcing them to sleep.
then talked to evelyn and ber.
was scared. duck my head down totally. =/.
yeah then slept at 530.
woke up. 8. yitian said she looked at me sleep.
for the first hour i slept? so malu eh...
*blush. hehe. i slept like a prawn! hehe.

track camp day 3. sat.
we had breakfast. then training.
lunch. all of them went home le.
i stayed to study was hyper. no one pei wo.
stoned. staring at the books.
then denise came and talk to me.
dragged her to toilet to bathe with me.
then came out she went off.
then tried studying. then slept.
went off to church with ber angeline and evelyn.
in a taxi. heh. then stayed for awhile.
was in a rush. daddy will kill me if i am late man.
yup yup.

sunday morning!!!
sy's sister wedding.
wore a long skirt. long sleeve shirt.
and heels. mom wans to wear those.
said that its supposed to be formal.
heh. so pain k my feet.
sy wore a dress. pretty pretty.
yup then blah blah blah.
kept eating chocolates the whole day.
after wedding. me wen and sy.
went around to play.
heh i went around trying prom dresses.
was so fun k. then laura saw me and wen.
after sy left. so malu eh... yucks.
then went j8. got shorts.
went home. heh... =). miss wen wor.

hmmm. mon. went sch.
supposed to study.
sy was there with me.
ended up painting other house banner.
and took a long time to eat.
then cleaned the toilet.
coz they dirtied the toilet.
hehe. me and sy the toilet cleaners.
it was so clean then.
then went home ler... =).

today went to school. hehehe.
studied abit. alone.
then sian-ed. then jh came.
talked. she said i have the [i cut myself.] face.
but i dun think i have k. yucks.
coz i do not cut myself. heh.
then went off to fetch her fren into sch.
then went off for their job thingy.
then went home le.
hohoho. got present. nice nice present.
i love it. thanxxx huh. heh.
so very sweet. =).

lalalala. hectic life. so difficult to blog eh. =/.

[yawn. tired wor. =).]

change.
you think she really did change.
please. you are just too blind to see the true side of her.
you dont even know her well.
and for goodness sake.
i am not the only one around who dislike her.
do you think her clique likes her?
if they do like her. they wun mind her.
they wun want her to change.
think twice before you say something.
and the worst thing is that you still dunno her true colours.
she is such a faker. sucker.
she is someone who is mean to her own frens.
do you noe why she treasure you?
no. you dun.
coz she only has the sec.1s by her side now.
how many frens do you think will stay beside her?
so little you can count them with your fingers.
please. grow up.
you dun judge anyone by knowing her for such a short while.
AND if she did change.
everyone would have realised.
please. you can always hate me.
dun mind.
i told you i am not worth it.
hohoho. i cant be bothered.
call me a heart breaker.
like watever. scold watever you wan.
i am not gonna comment on that.
i said enough. and you wanted to know the truth.
its not that i wanna break anyone's heart.
for the least. i told you as soon as i found out.
so i wun hurt you any further. any deeper.
watever it is. i just dont wanna care anymore.
and she is such a irresponsible girl.
as a fren. as a captain.
if you are one of us trackers.
you will see it. and you are no one to judge her.
you know her for that few months.
do you think you know her that well.
she is a total different person in front of you guys. coz she really need you ppl.
without you all. she has NO FRENS.
ass.

[if she had changed. i would have died.]

back from camp.
lazy to blog.
read the whole world's blog.
sigh. decided that i should turn str8.
as in real str8. real.
yup. like how i was trying to be.
i will become a str8 girl one day.
yup yup.
for the world. for everyone. for me.
thats abt it. blah.
there is something wrong with me.
nvm. shall blog some other day.
am tired. physically. emotional.
nite.

[will walk str8.]

you guys are making me do this.

wat kinda thing you think you are lor.
like watever. i cant be bothered.
if you wan. say hi. i will say hi too.
if i dont. thats wat you call dao.
but you yourself said nothing.

to your fren anyway.
please remember to treasure your chance.
please change.
for you yourself and your frens.
i dont wanna be mean to you.
coz somehow you need the time to change.

[change please.]

hello. hehe.
went sch for banner painting today.
lol. hmmm. hui boon said i am bimbotic again.
bleah. =P. went lido to eat macs in between.
there was a waitress around even we sat so close?
lol. she said wat delivery service. so cute.
hohoho. talked. huiboon and angeline were there.
angeline so innocent. and huiboon.
tot she was ignorant. but she knew so much. =/.
lalala. yup ate so much. they were shocked. =).
tmr track camp. abit sian leh.
heard that the schedule is boring eh.
sigh. dunno should just go rite???
i mean i dun wanna see someone's face.
like i cant stand myself being fake to such a person.
she deserves something worse.
yet i cant bear to be mean in front of her.
i mean. somehow. she is serene's fren.
so nvm. i give serene face.

[please. dont you spoil my day.]

oh well. did i say i cut off my nails le. =/.
cut them on monday.
coz my brother dun like them.
and it was my first time have long nails.
more than 1 month old k my nails.
so bimbotic rite. =/. but hor.
still. its my first time. then like that cut off le.
sigh. now my nails are so smallllllll. =/.
very sad ler. lol. hohoho. nvm.
true bimbos like me no need nails to be bimbotic.

[want you so much. needing you now.]

its all... its all... its all...
you are my sunshine after the rain
you're the cure against my fear and my pain
cause im losing my mind
when you are not around
its all... its all...
its all because of you

you are my sunshine
oh yeah...

baby i really know by now
since we met that day
you showed me the way
i felt it then you gave me love
i cant describe
how much i feel for you

i said baby i should have known by now
should have been right there
whenever you gave me love
and if only you were here
i will tell you, yes i will tell you
oh yeah...

honestly, couldnt be with me
like it was before
need a less or more
cause when i close my eyes
at night i realise that no one else
could ever take your place

i still can feel and its so real
when you are touching me kisses endlessly
its just a place in the sun
where our love is begun
i miss you... yes i miss you

if i knew how to tell you
whats on my mind
make you understand
then i would always be there
right by your side

song by 98 degrees. =). because of you.
nice song rite. yup yup. oh well. meaningful lyrics.
again. hohoho. kkk. madness. =/.

[do you know how much i miss you girl.]

hello!!! hmmm. got mood to blog now. lol.
hmmm. lets see. sunday was my sister's birthday wor.
hanwei, happy birthday.
plz grow up. plz i beg you k hanwei. hoho.

ok lets see. monday which is yest... recall..
ok. hmmm. went out of house at 11 with sis.
she having farewell party in school.
then i forced her to treat me a Mcpepper burger.
waited for that damn burger for so long.
lol. hmmm. then went to northpoint to get temp hair dye.
dyed her hair then she went for farewell.
lol. then i reached sch at 1 something. studied for awhile.
then huiyi came and find me.
we talked and talked. till 5++.
then decided to eat instant noodles.
so we went to mobil. invited ber but she din come.
hmmm. then we got almond choco for ber. and huiyi got green peas too.
lol. then we ate green pea in the canteen. threw green peas around.
if you see them. maybe it we throw de. MAYBE k.
hoho. then we went off after that. yup. =).

today... reached redhill mrt at 1.
then saw peihan. she was waiting for my mommy, hui boon!
hmmm so waited with her.
then hor. kai, fionne and tw pass by.
talked. then hui boon came.
went off to sch. yupyup. then we painted banner.
played badminton. huiboon said i am a true bimbo. =/.
hohoho. i think so too. i kept laughing.
was in a [cant stop laughing mood.]. yup yup.
angeline and peihan were so funny.
blah blah blah. went home at 630 only.
i miss my mommy. lol.
oh well. bronterox huh. we are the only house finishing the banner.
*winks. *proud proud. oh well. the rest of the houses.
haven do leh. hmmm. we just rock. we are so united and enthu.
lol. hohoho. today i ate like 5 diff bars of chocolates.
i am trying to keep myself from bad mooding.
dunno why. just worried i will bad mood for nothing.

[bronterox.]

having horrible headache now.
bad moodiing. i dunno why.
damn. oh well. today was annoyed.
but childish ppl. i dunno wat am i talking abt.
as i said i got headache.
update tmr... like watever. am in no mood.
i wanna slap someone!!! ass.

[bad mooding.]