lets see. yest tried studying.
ended up sleeping. then eh at nite couldnt sleep.
slept at like 430 though 2 i was tired le. woke up at 5.
like half an hour of sleep is totally enough. haha.
then reach school late. why.
ppl like me stroll. not in the mood to walk properly.
ppl who took the sam bus as me din get book leh.
yuck not fair. they muz be my witnesses wat.
haha bleaghz. anw yup got to stand in front of the school.
sigh malu. then eh went back for survey.
fionne was mad. me abit la.
then dunno la. talk to chang sy. =).
yup. talk for like the whole day. yup.
during chinese talk to sms. then serene came visiting.
haha. then i went out with her. saw all the sec.4s.
all so matured looking plz. so fun! i wanna be a lady too. haha.
lunch huiyi jw chang and me talk abt chiobu!
so chio! eh. oh man i am so in love! *do you catch the sarcasm?*
eh am getting mean but dunno cant tolerate such ppl anymore.
hahaha. anw. then had bio. then eh sch ended.
i ran around. first time to chase fionne to pass her her pencil case.
then she was gone. ran back. then find sy+serene.
juz left 2 mins ago. ran out of sch to find them.
oh man found them in mobil. was sweating like shit then.
yup then eh. sent sy to bus stop. talked rubbish.
yup yup. then went back. supposed to teach ber.
but realised i dunno anything so walked around.
slacked around. talk to tong took photo with her. =).
that lady. haha. then went home with xue min.

[speechless.]

am screwed.

ok. nv really blog recently.
lets see the big things that happen in the week.
sms called me on... i think wed. called my mom i mean.
stupid chinese teacher. i noe she hate me la. tsk.
then happily complain that i owe her 3 essays.
tsk. mommy was pissed like duh. and she says my attitude in class.
was shitty. like wat the hell she is the one lorz. tsk.
mom then wanted to scold me. but fell asleep when she haven finish her sentence.
so cute rite. haha. then bro was pissed that my mom din care.
then he lectured me for 2 whole hours. wow.
then decided i should be grounded. by him. like tsk.
oh well. he claims that when he was in sji.
the worst boy oso not as slacker as me lor. yuck.
compare me to a boy. i mean i m not one wat. tsk.
anw yup am grounded... first time. by bro some more.
anw wat else happened huh... hmmm. bloody gang.
now we are called bloodsters.? issit? ok i think correct.
we have been wearing plasters on our face.
left forehead. nice rite? hoho. then we officially take in jingwen.
now she is like 3 ke. then i demoted to 8 mei le. =/.
haha. she put the plaster too. nice. =).
wat else happened?... cant remember.
and i wear one bra throughtout the week. winks.
eh. today had english paper. was totally eh horrible.
expecting the worst outcome.
haha. then after paper wanted to stay back to study.
but cant seem to do it. end up toking to jingwen rubbish.
then we played some lame game. my reaction was shitty.
she kept getting the chance to hit me. hohoho.
laught till stomach pain. hohoho. she wrote a note for 3g3 behind.
woo, she said 3g3 rox. i agree! hahaha.
then we dragged hari to play with me. though she thinks we are mad.
her reaction as slow as me. haha. totally funny.
then both of them going home. no one le.
so scary so decided to leave too. cute girl talked to me at the bus stop.
haha. yup nothing much. guess its juz a eye candy ba. =).
yup yup. bloodsters rox eh. so happy. we get scolded together.
how sweet. =/. am mad eh. lalala. k gtg. =). smiles.

[i know wats going on yet i deny the fact that i do. my brain is screwed.]

cant really blog today. no time.
blog tmr i hope.
kk. =/.

[thinking. crying. what kinda changes is this i have to accept.]

my life is screwed.
by my own hands.

argh.

hmmm lets see. quite a few days nv blog le.
yup sunday slacked the whole day.
went out with my cousin in the evening.
yup i bought a skirt! proud proud. not that i will wear eh. =l.
hmmm. then we shop till the shopping center close cute.
haha. yup yup my skirt is the wrap around kind.
funky but i cannot make it ehh. not for me.
nothing much on sunday. then eh. mon.
lets see... nothing much happen.
but remember talked to jingwen. she is one cute girl.
talk to her abt cute girl. =). haha. yup.
din sleep during phyics. quite surprising. =).
lalala. then after school me and sy walked around.
taught her how to do my that so called breakdance thing.
haha cool eh. then walked in echo block. thought of old days.
all the stuff that we did in every single corner of school.
realised that they rebuild the place till so diff le.
sigh. memories like gone yet not gone. hahaha.
oh well then went home. lalala. and yup.
mon i wear one sports bra only! proud!
haha someone ask me not to wear double le.
see i so guai listen... =). yup. but i wore the orange one.
haha. its like tight hahaha. =). but my blouse first button dropped.
everyone keep thinking i forgot to button. =l.
but the button was gone since like last term. =l.
hahah. today wear one bra only again.
but its not tight. yuck. then breast so pain. ouch. =l.
mass run wanted to pon. but eh. in the end serene ran.
we juz run along. then i kept whining. breast hurts.
then end of mass run no voice le. wanted pain killers.
but they said its mental so i din eat. =l.
lalala. first period bio. was halp crying coz pain.
mrs goh asked" are you ok?"
i said "no. breast pain." haha.
she totally eh wanna die. but nvm eh. =l.
lalala. then had chinese. did some letter writing.
then sms cute girl! eh. confess yet not confess kinda stuff.
dunno guess i dun mean it. but confess oso confess le. =/.
haha. then recess was high.
then fionne was high too. i influenced her.
too funny. hahaha. cme. i slept. yuck bored.
then maths d. eh like reached late coz talked to jen.
and eh. did nothing. then eng. got fire drill!.
so fun eh. squat in the field so long.
dun wanna sit got sensitive skin. played with jingwen's hair.
realised how cute she is! ah... haha. saw cute girl then.
then eh fire drill over le. then went back eng over.
assembly period. they made us do maths.
eh did like a quarter qns only. yuck.
hahaha. then amaths. but i went to talk to jen.
totally scared to go back. asked shuping to help me check whether mrs tan in class or not. i turned around. mrs tan walked pass. wooo scary. ran away totally.
yuck. haha then me and jen talked abt cute girls.
hahaha. lalalala. then went off to hmv with wen and calx.
yup. then went home. lalala. now home.
first time so early home! proud proud. =).

[faith keeping.]

have you been thinking too much? or m i too much?
had nv tot of leading you on.
but it seemed that i did. the truth is that.
i had always been trying ways to make you happy.
trying. tried. realised that i m not giving you enough.
its hard. m sorry. juz wanna see ya concentrate.
exams are coming. plz. dun wanna see ya sad.

[sigh.]

[ignorance is bliss.]
[you seem to run away all the time.]
[when you come to face the problem.]
[you will come to realise.]
[the problem has been becoming worse each day.]

yest sch was erm quiet. 12 of our dearest classmates absent.
yup teachers were bad mooding. main reason: bio test.
it was too obvious eh. haha cute thing is whole bimbo clique pon eh.
hahaha. oh well then after school cherryblossomstupidface gathered.
yup. fionne and dorcas came and tok to me abt pc. haha.
they are two cute ppl. dorcas too funny. hohoho.
$$$ haha guess not everyone will get it. yuck. haha.
hmmm then serene had to go home. wen supposed to rush home.
but dunno why stayed too. sy wanted to go home after we slacked around for awhile.
then wen wanted to go home too. yup yup.
then i walked them out. sy then decided she dun wanna go home so early.
then yup she ask me whether i wanna go out with her.
i dun mind went to town with her. wen was around too.
in kino walked. wen went home half way.
sy and i went to eat fries. then i went back to sch.
sy went home. then toked to jw. andrea.
went tuition. was early. first time of the century.
haha but in the end i went to the gate to fetch my dear serene up.
haha. then we took our own sweet time to walk up.
lalala. hahaha. serene my babe!!! haha. my pl eh.

today. had oral. tot gonna be late. rushed. took taxi.
ran like mad. reach there chey haven start. still waiting.
yuck. waste money $$$. haha.
then had oral. woo. scary. was too nervous.
like walking to ms ang so fast when ppl in front juz stood up.
then she signalled me to go back. then i walked backwards.
she laughed. yuck funny meh. then i went there greeted politely.
then she said read certain part can le. then i huh so loudly on her face.
she laughed again. i oh ok. then it was raining wat.
the first 5 words i noe first and last word only.
then i blah blah over then she looked at me weirdly.
then i act as if i did it rite. =). hohoho. lame.
then conversation was funny. i kept saying then hor for nothing.
she laughed. yuck so funny meh. then she asked qns.
i said" then hor... wo bu zi dao."
then she stared at me then i said" nonono. wait. "
then i answered stupidly. yuck laughed again.
ms ang looks so serious yet kept laughing at me.
must be gonna fail le. yuck. then went back to class.
slacked. went to meet jen at city hall mrt station.
walked with fionne to mrt redhill station. toked abt pc.
haha yuck. oh well then like that. went to some formal thing.
then went harbour front. then home. yeah.
reach home that time the house was empty. yuck.
loner eh. family out without hanjin yuck... very good.
haha. not that i like to go. yuck... =).
hohoho.

[its changes we have to accept.]

[its a confusion.] [i m losing my mind.] [look at the clock.] [its running out of time.] [i can do nothing.] [its running out of time.] [lies you call them.] [confusion i say.] [i cant tell what i want.] [its hard for me.] [i think its better left unsaid.] [reality will show one day.] [grave in me.] [showing that smile i can give.] [paradox i say.] [you cant tell wat i m thinking.] [neither can i.] [neither can i.] [confusion stays.]

hmmm yest is a day. lalala. crap wat m i toking abt.
then eh cant remember wat happened.
it was a long day though. after sch.
eh. did ss. played badminton with jw in the canteen.
she on music. and we happily dance in the canteen.
woo mad. cant remember much. and eh thanx for honey drink...

today. eh. cant remember wat happen...
eh okok. mass run. me sy serene and wen.
haha four of us skipped. then susan tan made us queue up.
then we ran away slowly hiding from pillar to pillar.
hahaha then we ran to echo block. oh man. old memories...
1c3'o1+2c3'o2 still rox lots. hmmm. =).
then we walked down slowly ppl all go back to class le. haha.
then eh. supposed to go for maths d in g block.
but i waited for ming. coz she waited for me yest. that sweet girl!
hehe. i took her things out for her when phua popped in the class.
then ms chia happily in the canteen. yuck. haha.
then me ming and zihua walked pass her she scolded us yuck.
hahaha. we went back to take stuff again. lalala.
then maths d felt weird without huiyi around. miss her.
haha. then went back for amaths. then eng. then pe.
pe was fun though we lose.
chang sy jw and me vs. bimbos.
huiyi the great leader pon sch. haha. then we lose.
eh nvm its ok. they were damn cute. their actions.
haha. recess. cute. raining. then yasmean fionne ming went under the rain.
to take photo. sir scolded. funny too cute.
hugged ming when she was wet. cute.
then lit. got back paper. 16/25.
surprisingly. coz i nv read the book yet.
dun even have it. actually had it but gave it to siti.
haha. eh. oh well. i tot i will fail oh man. =).
but eh could have scored higher. wrote so short coz i tot i crapping.
but eh got marks for crap yuck. shall write longer next time.
then had mt. then hist. me jw disappeared.
wanted to buy socks for fionne. bookshop close.
oh well. then went back like second period only.
slacked. then eh. went for ss. in stw.
got back paper. 12/25. yuck one more mark.
then went to josef told him he nv marked properly.
he"oh yar... i shall see. give me your paper."
hehe. i can pass de k. yuck. hahaha. yeah.
then i pei-ed jw go mobil. she felt like eating choco.
haha. then she pei-ed me go take chem books from pigeon hole.
woo. wat a chem rep. haha. totally start eating so late.
then went for chem. sat with fionne. yup.
she is cute. too cute. she and her tension. haha.
hmmm. then went studying after sch.
jen taught me. thanx ah. hahaha. yup yup.
then went off together. talked abt stuff. yup.
oh well. now i m officially bored. help.

[confused.]

yest went to sch duh. yup. totally tiring day.
got demerit ticket for not doing eng hw. yuck.
then during bio. mrs goh not around. so we ate in class.
then mrs lai happily popped out. woo.
then we hid the food. but she saw la. yuck.
then she asked me whether i ate. coz she saw the plastic bag in my pocket.
yuck. hahaha. oh well i pocket too big cant blame.
lalala. and remember the shoe thing i changed with jen that day.
she happily went to school with one of my shoe and one of her shoe.
hahaha. then ms goon confiscated my shoe. yuck.
but luckily serene stole it back for me yeah! hohoho.
gonna make her feel guilty for losing my shoe.
and that poor jen have to walk around bare footed.
in the end she got shoes from ria. haha yup.
then went to westma. [is that how you spell it?.]
oh wateva. then watched [turn left. turn right.] !!!
cool nice show. kept crying. dun usually watch movie.
but sy treat wat. free de. wats more its a nice show. =).
joanne. jiamin. susie. sy. me. yup all of us went.
i happily cried until both sleeves wet. yuck. haha. so touching.
lalala. then went walk walk. then joanne. jiamin and sy went to take taxi home.
me and susie went to take mrt. yuck.
then got two guys suddenly ask me for my no.? eh scary. pop out from where.
haha. then i rejected then he tried again i pull susie away le.
and that susie too cute le? she keep asking me to give him.
why? then i can be like the girl in the [turn left. turn right.]
haha. funny eh. totally. felt mean coz the guy still toking i run away already.
then i saw mom in the train. talked to her. hahaha.

today. woke up late. then went to sch late duh.
got a letter duh. din run mass run duh.
first person who talk to me in school. mrs wong.
oh cute man. my blouse was out badge in my hand.
then she ask why m i late then i say gastric.
then she said my blouse out. then i say oh really? then stay tucking in.
then she said i dun like you to do this in front of male teachers.
then i look around saw mr loh only. then i say no male teachers wat.
then she wanna kill me. then she asked me why my skirt so lose.
then she say. see see dunno how to take care. gastric until dunno who to eat?
then i was like no my mom bought big skirt wat. then she oh...
scary man. hahaha. she is too cute le. wow i typed how many [then.s] huh?
lame. eh. then tried acting as if i m not in sch coz dun wanna go for bio.
then yuck mrs goh happily nv come. waste my breathe.
nothing much. after school. went training. was still flu-ing.
and sort of coughing. ran 800m with a tissue. tt mr lin totally wanna care.
yuck like that oso scream at me. yuck. then i kept breathing through my mouth.
blocked nose wat. then in the end wanna burp. dunno how to.
tummy filled with air. hohoho. then that sy happily kena flu from me.
both of us like dead pigs eh. she good very good. made me run in front.
then i turn behind she not around. malu me. yuck.
totally. hahaha. anyway today is yitian's birthday!!!
yup yup. HAPPY BIRTHDAY YITIAN!
gave her a birthday kiss! hehe. oh in front of store 2. memorable. =).
one year older le. she usually act like our age le anyway.
got mature thinkings which is good. hey. you are nice to tok to. =).
yup yup gave her the sweet little guy bear.
got the girl one. yup. giving someone else for her... =).
sy happily pinned a sch badge on the bear. make it looks like the crescentian bear.
damn funny. i kicked sy's ass a million times today. =). haha.
who ask her keep making fun of my blur-ness. yuck.
lalala. kk. go do my stuff le. =).

[i admit i cant put you in the past.]

yest did nothing at all. slacked at home.
then went tuition at nite.
me and serene wore the same bullshit shirt.
the cherryblossomstupidface clique shirt.
hahaha. yeah. then we were supposed to write chinese essay.
then i kept toking eh. too bored wat.
essay abit out of point. totally actually then too short.
it was a test somemore not supposed to talk. yuck.
haha. i confirm fail de out of point+too short le. =l.
then yeah today spent the whole day packing my room.
yuck mommy lie to me. she said my cousin coming to stayover today.
yuck i pack until so tired. now then she say my cousin coming on mon.
yuck but its ok i pack first eh. but liars liars pants on fire...
hmph. oh well. my cousin gonna stayover for 2 weeks.
to work in singapore to gain experience. funky eh.
anyway on tuesday i think my uncle came to my house!
i think he rocks. he is a pilot. he is rich. he is corny.
i hope he is my dad. i gave my year book to my cousin.
he has a gf who is ex crescentian. see he so excited.
juz decided to do a good deed eh. hahaha. i think my uncle rox.
he is very nice. sigh. i wan him to be my dad. haha. joking eh.
lalalala. m bored le. my sister is a mad girl. yuck.

[to love is as hurting as to be loved.]

yesterday went offline le then i brought sister out.
she and her frens wanted to meet to play candles.
yuck then i bring her there. quite far away from my house.
then i went to walk around slacked for an hour alone.
walked around the park see ppl play candles.
then i went back and keep hinting to my sister that i
wanna go off le. then she ignored me. yuck.
then this bunch of guys come around and play.
while they went to walk around. i stood there and wait.
the guys came back from playing fire eh...
then this guy came and ask for my no.
then i rejected duh. but i seriously found him cute.
coz he is. he asked lotsa qns. i told him i was waiting for my sis.
then he took three candles and stood beside me.
said he will wait for my sis with me. so cute eh.
then he put alot of canldes on the dustbin saying its too dark there.
cute eh. and his frens said i "dian" him. yuck i din.
i juz look at him when he look at me wat.
but he is very funny eh. he should be honoured.
the first guy i praise and will always remember as a cute guy.
oh man. turning str8? no lar. juz think he is cute. he is.
lalala. cant forget his "cheeky" look when he ask my no.
funny... cool lantern festival. if i ever turn str8.
i will look for a guy like him. =). lalalalala. =).
ok madness. anyway last nite i dreamt that this sec.1 girl called pam.
she killed me in my dreams eh. wat kinda dream. oh man.

[hope seems like the summer birds, too swiftly flown away.]

hmmmm. today went to school.
supposed to meet sy at 11 in my class.
end up reaching at 1230. she almost killed me.
haha. saw peihan in 111 bus on the way to sch.
that woman juz cut her hair. eh spikey. cool eh.
i cut my hair oso. yuck everyone say no diff.
got k. yuck. cannot really tie bun le. too short le.
can la but bun too small... lalala.
then jen happily change one shoe with me.
lalala. me and sy played and did some hw.
then we went coming windows. play in the field. so fun.
checked weight. played piano. fun eh. lalalala.
then went home with one of jen shoe and one of mine.
so malu wat to do. she went home le. tt woman huh.
tsk tsk. totally. hahahahaha. jw was around too.
yup she appear here and there. totally cute.
went home at 3 to eat her white rice. cute huh.
then me and sy took taxi to her house at 5.
then i took bus home from there. lalalalala.
bored. so bored le. my cough is better le. but flu is there.
lalalala. seeya.
[its not that i wanna leave things unsaid.]

lets see... very long time nv blog already.
ok... last thursday i brought the little hamster home.
it was left in class alone. yuck rite.
how can they can leave the little poor thing there.
so lonely! so i bring it home. but yuck. it stinks.
the ppl in the train run away. yuck. but its ok.
for the little soul there cute soul. lalalalalala.

then friday nothing much i can remember.
juz remember that i have detention.
then you know i found out that my classmate.
the cute cute jingwen is juz like a little gardener.
mrs seah made us pick up all the flowers along the road.
when its clean. the wind blow. the flowers fall again. ayo!
then that cute girl juz keep picking and picking.
and she loves picking. she said tt she wanna pluck the weeds too.
too funny cannot stand it. wat a gardener.
me xuemin jac went on to the canteen to mop the floor.
woo fun. then that cute jingwen ah. went to sweep the floor
at corridor somewhere. too hardworking tt girl.

sat... i went for training. surprising! woo.
lalala. ppl like me reached very late ah. very sorry.
but i trained. very proud of myself. yeah totally.
then after training sy cindy yitian hweeyi kisha and i went lunching.
woo ate popiah. nice. then me and sy went to sch.
yeah then we hang around till i forgot wat time.
then we decided to go lunching again.
we walked to mobil. bought maggie noodles.
yeah went back to school to eat. totally sat under the sun to eat.
sun-tanned. yup to keep our food warm oso. yup.
then went home yeah got chased out of the school by ayam pottu.
ayam pottu is the security guard lar... =). dun tell.
saw a nice security guard today cant think of a new name. yuck.

then sunday wasnt feeling well anymore eh.
went to some wedding thing yup. at nite oso go eh.
eh got fever then as i said. woo. temperature was high.
lucky not sars eh. now no more fever. lalalalala.

mon did nothing but sleep.
ate nothing but yogurt.
why? coz i scared i die. so i have to eat my favourite food before i die ah. =l.
lalala. too funny some ppl keep laughing abt this matter.

tues. went to sch like dunno how late. then studied.
then went home eh.

today went to sch late. wanted to go for amaths de.
but reached sch at 1145 i think. yup yup.
then eh... sat with classmates in field.
softball coach was totally funny. said i look like a girl. =l.
hahaha. then walked them out they go watch movie.
then i went back to do hw. then lazy slept.
woke up decided to go home yeah. then eh.
now at home le. sister is a mad yucky irritant.
feel like killing her lar. if only she dun irritate me that much eh.
lalaalala.

[if only i can always be there for you.]

lalalala. i m not feeling well. lets see.
last nite temperature was 39.2
this morning 39.5 then slept the whole day.
now better le. 38.7 but still got fever eh.
wat if its sars eh? yuck. nvm.
then juz come to realised that i lose 2 kg.
coz slept the whole day without eating eh.
lalala. its time for pigs like me to lose some weight too.
lalala. k k i will like puking shall not puke in front of the com.
seeya...
[sick+useless=cannot make it.]

eh. tmr got detention. yucks.
lazy eh. yucks. anw i lazy to blog properly.
today slept half day through. cant be bothered.
yuck. owes sms 3 chinese essays.
she wanna kill me but eh of coz she cant.
hehehe. then yup. ankle keep cracking. pain eh.
ouch. lalalalala. cant be bothered to blog le. bye.
[its you i care.]

eh. lalala. hyper. too. same as jw eh.
but i more hyper. eh. more more more.
lalala. watever i too lazy to blog le cant be bothered.
i can totally stand my family NO MORE.
yuck turn me off.