the love i need.
the care you gave.
the attention given.
is not enough for all my needs.
i want you so much.
i need you so much.

i m like a mad girl from the cover.
now stand there and read my heart.
tell me what you see.
i m not anyone you think i m.
i need love.
i can deny no more.

i m useless.
i bring tears to you.
but all i want is a smile from your heart.
i want you to know.
i need you.

[sigh.]

i m mean. i m mean. smack me on my face. go ahead.
coz i m a mean mean girl. smack me hard.

ok. last nitez cant sleep.
then i sat in the living room. eating like a mad pig
till 5 in the morning. then i was forced to sleep by my grandma.
she was so scary walking around early in the morning. haha.
then yeah when i woke up this morning.
i was crying. and my tongue was bleeding. i could taste the blood.
damn pain lorz. then i went to the toilet. saw a dead lizard.
haha. almost cry again.
oh and i had a weird dream. sigh.
in the dream i could read ppl's mind. then i saw the
hopelessness of everyone. i wanna help.
but everyone end up still sad. they wanna kill themselves.
i cant stop them. then i sort of bite my tongue. trying to kill myself?
haha then i woke up with my tongue bleeding. pain k.
blah ok. then i went for training. yeah. was late. duh. blah.
then went for lunch with tiff, hy, cin, hy, yt, jan, yl. blah.
tiff is funny plz. hahaha. blah. ok then i came home. guai plz.
haha. blah i got a girly hairband now. girly k. *winks*
coz i cant find the kind i want. =P. then that one is the only one toothless.
but quite chio larz. blah.
[sigh.]

love knows no reasons,
love knows no lies.
love defies all reasons,
love has no eyes.
but love is not blind,
love sees but doesn't mind.

blah blah blah. i m bored. lalala. blah blah blah.
[sigh.]

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look at this. matured powerpuff girls. they are no longer cute. so bitchy.
am in no mood. sigh. realised that i haven start on my hw.
all the hw i did are assigned by my bro. haha. blah. i wanna slap myself awake.
[sigh.]

haha the entry below is posted by my mommy!
haha noe who is my mommy? its huiboon.
and of coz i m sonny. i m her son wat. *winks.*
oh well. bronterox. buttercuprox. mommyrox too.

pictures of powerpuff bottle taken at the chalet!!! lalala. =)





bronte rox. =)
haha, madness.



buttercup is so cute!!! =)



look at buttercup's little pet dog.
haha.
bronte rox. buttercup rox. little pet dog rox. banana rox.
and mommy and sonny rox.
hahaha.

ok the entry is so long. =P. haha. blah. m missing those two fun days le. hehe.

good morning. ok. i m not planning to go for training. lazy larz.
still got quite some stuff to do too. sigh. okok. i came back from chalet!
"welcome back."
blah. it was so fun i wanna go again. tot i will be extra. haha.

oh well ok lets tok abt tuesday first.
supposed to train on 10 but i couldnt wake up then erm dragged
and reach stadium at 1240 or something.
then some sec.1s were there. haha they told me dun have to train de.
but then i was in some training mood. hehe. ran one round then went off.
had 5 mins of training ok at least i trained. =P. then i recieved
a letter and tissue box from ber. haha. the tissue box was funny.
i mean totally like out of place. haha. thanx anyway.
then went to outram mrt to meet the house caps.
ok i was early? i was the second though it was 1 already.
fiona had waited for an hour poor girl. haha.
then justina came. lala. then me and fiona decided to go somewhere
to get crab meet and marshmallows. coz i m supposes to get those.
but i din noe. haha. ok then there isnt any super market there?
we totally lost our way. haha. then asked lotsa ppl.
then we found ck. ok dunno wat kind of place tt is.
we were in chinatown le. then they happily dun sell proper marchmallows.
then we can only find the hello kitty ones without fillings. haha.
it was heart shaped and so small how to bbq it?
heck then i bought it with some fries gummies ok i noe no relevance.
but its nice k. haha. ok then cannot find crab sticks. lalala.
then we dunno went back the way we came from. it was raining.
we took a bus. one stop only. haha. then went into the station.
ok totally lost our way there got into the wrong station. haha.
coz there was a new control station and the old ones.
then we ran here and there and finally found the place. haha.
then we went off for chalet! =).

kai and tiff and eileen were not there yet. coz kai had to meet her fren.
and tiff had to train. erm i was quite guilty. haha. =P.
then eileen had lotsa stuff to carry so her father fetched her there.
then we checked in. went to the room slacked for awhile.
then went to welcome eileen helped her carried stuff.
but the sec.4s carried them to the room. the rest of us ate.
then the sec.3s and 4s went seperately. haha.
then blah blah. we saw this white tent there. looks interesting.
then i decided to ask them to explode the place.
haha got stage. then we were thinking of practicing something
to perform for the sec.4s to see. =). hehe.
then stupid me came out with stupid ideas. blah blah.
then kai came. we praticed a few times. totally funny.
haha. then invited the sec.4s to come over. =).
then before we performed we heard some noise from the back stage.
then we screamed. haha. then we started walking out of the stage.
then a man came behind us and said we cannot use the stage.
BIG SIGH. then we had to go off. tsk. spoil the mood.
but nvm i told them there was a nice place outside the tent. got little boys
playing soccer but when we went over they ran away. haha.
then we performed there. so funny! so malu. our faces were red like anything.
hehe. oh well. then we went back to start our bbq!
hehe sec.3s were slacking actually the sec.4s were outside. hehe.
then we were invited to help. =P. then i went out tried helping.
hoho. then so funny plz they keep forcing me to eat. when i m helping.
i mean i ate a hotdog le. haha. then i wanna help wat.
haha. then yeah there was this f**king group of guys beside us.
there kept staring at us. TSK. then after bbq-ing.
we played some no. game and hui boon kept losing so cute.
then i noticed the guys keep taking their hp out and take photos of us!
TSK. then they have great hps then muz take photos of us issit.
tsk. then i told kai they all they were like why there like that.
then blah blah i told soph. she was damn angry. haha.
anyway all the guys were damn irritating. tsk.
blah then we went to play catching. haha. the sec.4s chased the sec.3s.
then i totally ran away haha. i nv got caught. hehe. then suddenly got water
bombs in the sec.4s hands. haha. i totally din kena too. haha.
then i tot no more water bombs le then i walked out laughing.
then someone said i haven kena so all of them aim at me. i ran like mad.
haha then i kena one from tiff. =P. she sort of aimed on my left breast. urm.
haha then yeah everyone was wet. so funny. blah blah.
they wanted to swim hehe. then me fiona tiff and soph din go.
me and tiff bathed first. haha. then they came back saying the pool was closed.
lala. then peihan and siti and kai went to bk to plan abt the games for the next day.
haha then fiona bathed le. i was staring at the tv quite interesting was funny.
lala then i looked like a ghost with my towel over my head. haha. yeah.
then me and fiona went out to find siti, kai and peihan. lala.
found them. then we went to talk to the guy who read palms ok it was quite spooky.
we were saying its better not to noe so much abt our lives. haha.
the sec.4s came. hehe. so funny lala. blah blah.
by then my eyes were half shut le. hui boon totally announced my tired-look. haha.
blah then i became hyper. coz i din wanna sleep so early then i keep
jumping like a mad woman. went back to the room.
that silly soph was talking to herself on the way. utterly cute.
then eileen said both of us are mad. haha. soph is the mad one k.
hehe not me. haha. then i was still jumping jumping
they were eating the i keep doing some silly stuff they think its funny. =P.
then hui boon eat half way keep coming to jump with me.
haha din noe she is as mad as me. hehe. then we took lotsa photos.

then blah blah the tv was playing some old tv show was funny at first.
then everyone laughed. haha. then everyone went on to sing.
i sat there staring at the tv though it was mute. haha.
then i saw the guy killing the woman and raping her.
tsk spoil my mood. hate guys. then i went to lay on the floor.
haha. then everyone play until quite tired le. it was abt erm 3 or 4 plus
when everyone decided to sleep. haha. then everyone lay down.
zzZZZZzzzzz. huiboon soph and me cant sleep. then we went out.
that group of guys still there. tsk. hate them.
haha wanted to find a place to sit and talk but no nice place larz.
went back. ok. fiona woke up she said the toilet was nosiy.
haha it was the toilet erm got lotsa sounds of erm. nvm.
then fiona came onto the bed with us. she and huiboon slept.
me and soph were listening to the discman.
lala. then we heard lotsa sounds from the toilet but din tok abt it.
scary plz. then yup soph's back was pain then she lay down i layed
down too blah. then me and soph lay there staring at the celing.
she was msging. i was erm stoning. after awhile it was day time. 6 plus.
haha. i was so giddy coz of my gastric. sigh. then yeah everyone woke up.
rushed was late coz we planned to wake up earlier.

yeah then we were out of the place. sigh. will miss the place.
hehe then my gastric hurt badly. hehe. then blah.
when we were in the train i sat on the floor sleeping.
coz my gastric hurts. erm. ouch.
reached school juz on time. hehe. then me and fiona went
to the canteen to get something hot to drink.
then gave some for kai to drink first. ok it sort of burnt her tongue.
coz i din it was so hot. then she was dying ahah.
then it burnt my tongue too. ok no relevance.
hehe then we went on sentosa. =).
ok we played volleyball. then it started raining.
we played under the rain. sang songs. hehe. then we played water.
blah went on to play the games planned.
so funny. ok we were supposed to move with the balloon us.
then erm my boobs were to pokey i guessed so it burst. =P.
then we played with flour and sweets. =). so fun.
lala. then we went to play soccer. hehe. i was quite rough.
kept kicking ppl's leg. i m sorry k.
then i got kicked quite a few times too.
hehe then the ball kept hitting ppl hehe then suddenly hit my face.
haha it was funny. everyone were like are you ok. are you ok.
my face. =P. haha. then i went to wash my face. nose abit broken.
haha always play bball oso hit my face. why dun hit my tummy or something.
haha. then when i went back they stop playing le. then we went to washed ourselves.
yeah then went off for buffet. and my gastric still hurts. sigh. yeah. ate abit of some.
then erm pain pain pain. then played some no. game again. haha.
PAIN PAIN PAIN. ok.
then soph went off. the rest of us took monorail one round.
slept in it was nice weather to sleep. =P.
then went home. sleep sleep sleep. haha.
fun rite. totally had fun. gave huiboon my password.
she gonna put the pictures up in my blog.
yeah. so fun. hehe. will miss these two days plz. =P.

hey its like tmr is chalet le. sian. i dun wanna go lehz. no mood. broke too.
sigh. how. nvm. let it be.
ok. lalala. i m totally dying. i m in no mood for chalet now. sigh.
ok shall go there and forget my troubles huh. hahaha.
like i will i think i will go there to rot my life away.
then i will stone my life away coz i m like totally gonna think of stuff miss stuff and blah blah.
ok shall go now. tmr training early will try to rest early. lalala.
[sigh.]

ok i m not posting anymore powerpuff girls le for the day. coz they are too cute.
i will die of buttercup's cuteness. =P. i mean its like buttercup totally rox lorz. =).
coz bronterox. ok i m crazy. sorry.

she looks so abnormal. so retarded. =P.

she looks so lame plz. haha.

she looks like bronte's fairy isnt it? you know what. bronterox.

look at that innocent girl. its buttercup. isnt it cute.
sherox. haha. bronte rox. =).

good morning! wake up not long ago. haha. coz last nite.. this morning i mean.
i slept at 4am. coz i couldnt sleep. then keep msging. haha. yesh.
anyway i woke up at 7++ to eat hashbrown. coz my mom said its nicer when its hot.
ok. now i m still eating. ate 4 hashbrowns. haha. nice. =).
lala. last nite my bro tutor me for a maths. so scary he smacked so many times.
but he is such a corny guy. so funny. then my eyes were half shut.
lala. i m changing rite? i m like soOOooo guai. haha. today m not going out.
staying home to study. lalala. so guai.
tmr got chalet wanna go. but lazy to go. asked my mom she said nothing.
so that means i can go. but i dun really wanna go coz i wanna study. haha.
ok i m gonna become a nerd soon. coz i have to? sigh.
should i go training tmr? coz like no time leh... ok. shall see. lala. =).
[cheers.]

ok. today is a tiring day. studied. do hw. at last rite?
and i packed my table again. did quite alot of stuff.
coz its sunday a stay-home day. though i wanted to go out so much.
sigh. i m so tired. ok. better blog lesser. need time.
to study.
hanjin muz study hard k. =).
"yesh sir. yesh sir. three black wolfs."
lame i m dying. blah. =P.

*yawn.*
mommy i wanna sleep. =).
i m going mad.
[cheers.]

ok. went training today. lala. then was damn late?
coz last nitez cant sleep. slept at 5am. then woke up at 11am.
blah. yup rushed down to training. saw my classmate in the bus.
it was such a funny sight. haha. then reached stadium at 1230. haha.
din do warm up. went to do a few times of 100m jog. haha.
then went off. lala. to jo's house to play bball. =).
then when we were in the bus. this guy behind me and jo said.
"xiao jie." then me and jo turned. thinking that he wanna ask direction
or something. then who noes they looked at me and said his fren wanna noe me?
wat the hell. then they keep asking weird questions like.
where i live. wats my name. where i m going. whether i wanna watch movie with them.
and how old i m. this kind. said i was dao. tsk. coz i nv ans them.
then i juz replied that i was fourteen. HAHA. then when they asked my name.
i said. "huh?" "huh? i dunno my name."
they got nothing to say le. wahahaha.
tsk. wats their problem? three guys. abt 20++ le still so irritating?
dun they have brain? tsk. hate guys.
then i went to jo's house played bball with caro, jo, eve, ber. =)
so fun and funny. =P. then went off early. yeah.

heard from someone. that you think i m stuck-up?
you listen carefully. who do you think you are to comment abt me?
you noe nothing abt me. you banana in pyjamas.
insult bananas only. tsk. go and say all you want.
i care nothing abt wat you say. coz i cant change your thinking.
not that i bother to. i m juz accepting the fact abt wat you think.
coz not say i very nice either yeah. so its ok. continue... good job.
bananas rox.

ok. someone is trying to irritate my frens.
i hate the way you do it. you are irritating me now.
tsk. i m gonna slap you when i cannot stand it.
dont wait till that day then you scream for mommy.
you dumb dumb. tsk. i hate to have such a sister you hear me?

ok. went to school. was late? yup. then discussed abt stuff.
saw no one. =P.
oh well. then went to meet nic. haha.
we were so blur dunno where to alight.
alighted when we are not supposed to.
then we reached the place. we so blur.
ahahah so funny. meow. then yeah the guy there was so nervous.
dunno why leh. haha. oh well. ic done.
then we went to town. went to the little zoo?
dunno wat issit doing there but its as cute. =).
hmmm. then we went to buy a whole loaf of bread.
nice! =). the cheese filled kind. haha. then we went to this hotel to eat.
dunno wat is the hotel called. forgot. then we got chased out. =P.
then we walked around. then went home.
on the way this two bitches kept bitching.
irritating. yup. my day. quite ok. realising i m broke for the rest of my month?
how to go chalet? sighhh. =/.

ok. i found this horny song. its damn cute. =).

horny - Mousse T vs. Hot 'n' Juicy

You got me horny in the morning and you kno-o-ow
I try to call you but I can't find the telephone
I sent a message through the Internet but it rejected
I wrote a letter and I sent it with the po-o-ost

The post it takes so long, so I've got to sing this song
To let you know how I feel, whats the deal baby
And I can't wait for you, and the things you make me do
My heart is ringing so I'm singing this song for you

I'm horny
Horny, horny, horny
So horny
I'm horny, horny, horny
I'm horny
Horny, horny, horny
So horny
I'm horny, horny, horny tonight

I searched from town to town but I can't find my bird ooh ooh
I got so desperate I sent a rocket to the moon
In New York City someone said they saw you singing the blues
But it was a man from Nowhere Land ... who looked like you
I will keep searching on
This feeling's much too strong
My heart is ringing and I'm singing this song for you

I'm horny
Horny, horny, horny
So horny
I'm horny, horny, horny
I'm horny
Horny, horny, horny
So horny
I'm horny, horny, horny tonight
I'm horny, horny, horny tonight

hmmm. the song below is damn cute. really the music is cute. hahaha.
last nite was hot. =). hoho. needed a cold shower?
lalala someone make me hot larz. haha. think too much.
i can feel the heat even by thinking of you. =).

Why - Tiggy

standing beside you
wishing you'd always be close to me
and how can i tell you
every night i see you in my dreams

believe me
dont leave me
i would never let you go

why, why do this have to be a fantasy?
lets make our love become reality
oh how i pray for that day to come
when we'll be joined together close as one

together close as one

i feel the passion
burning deep inside of my soul
and you're the solution
i know you'd catch me if i fall

believe me
dont leave me
i would never let you go

why, why do this have to be a fantasy?
lets make our love become reality
oh how i pray for that day to come
when we'll be join together close as one

together as one...

good morning. haha my mom is angry with me.
coz i m a always last minute worker. sigh.
oh well i m gonna make my ic today. its totally date due.
they gave me time till 30th of may lorz. haha.
i think i m slow... how?
ok. lets see.
"We would also like to highlight that a person who fails to register for an NRIC shall be guilty of an offence under the National Registrations. If your child is currently overseas, kindly notify us in writing and we shall arrange for a deferment in his/her registraion. Your child can then register within one year upon his/her return to Singapore."

hahaha. that means i m guilty of an offence under the National Registration Regulations. =).
die le. =)))))). hohoho. meow.
and my parents dun care?!?
anyway my mom ask me to tell the guy i cant find my birth cert.
which is actually true... hahaha. but weird.
they confirm will say. tsk this kind of excuse very smart.
hahaha. forget it. hey later i m going to school. =). yeah.

lalala bored. got hw. hehe. how? lame. sigh. lalala meow meow meow.
hohoho merry xmas. =).

hmmm. went for training today. late again?
haha coz i found my tatu cd and was listening to it!
then the funny thing is that my mom was shaking to the beat.
then both of us like mad women shaking. funny plz.
ok. then yup was late. slacked through with huiyi.
then we did our own workout. called: recovery + slack*2 workout *including my stinko spikes.
=). haha. my spikes stinks. din wash for two years le? haha yuck.
disgusting. plus that day i step in the water now stink like anything.
huiyi and i almost faint. haha.
then yeah ended training early. haha.
went to school with sy. for awhile. saw no one. =P.
then went to town. walked around in heeren. went to check wats the price for the tooth jewel. 50 bucks?
haha so ex. we were moneyless. coz i need to pay for my contacts.
then sy and i went to collect my contacts. haha.
then yeah sent her to her bus stop and went home.
ok. lets see. today i look like a bimbo? coz my skirt is getting shorter and shorter each day?
i din do anything to it? my mom went to the tailor? oh well i grew abit too. =).
but i dun like to look like a bimbo. =(.
meow. all my shoes stinks and nv wash b4. how?
ok gonna wash when i feel like it? ok. hehe. meow me smelly thats me. =). hoho. madness filled.

spread your wings and prepare to fly
for you have become a butterfly
fly abandonedly into the sun
if you should return to me
we were truly meant to be
so spread your wings and fly
BUTTERFLY.

ok. last nitez din update abt yest.
oh well my mom took leave yest to find my birth cert?
haha she lost it. then she spent the whole day digging the whole house?
abit like me only. *winks*
then she made me pack my whole room again?
i mean i juz did it a month ago. haha but its still as messy as ever. =P.
then i went for tuition. with my hair down? coz my hair was wet like shit and my mom juz nagging.
tsk. then my tuition teacher said i look diff? yarz like a ghost i know. blah.
ok. juz a simple annoucement: i got my sim card back. replacement card i mean. =).

ok. juz now the blogger was screwed? juz wanna apologise to ppl who i was chatting with last nitez.
com went haywired. hang. haha. then bro was home. then yarz. haha.
meow.
i m not leaving you. i will always be there i m sorry to make your life like this.
undo the mistake i made. take it as you din noe who i was.
i m sorry i dunno wat i wan. really sorry.

sigh. i m officially announced BORED. fine.
oh well. waiting for an e-mail.
cant wait. dying. bleaghz.=P.

i am aware of this.
every step i take causes someone to be hurted.
why did i end up this way.
i hope time could stop for me.
and i will hurt no one no more.
blah. crap. =).

yeah. went for training. was late duh.
waited for my damn hair to dry. in the end go under the rain no diff.
hmmm yeah was tired. the only word i could think of during training is.
SLACK.
yeah. slacked through.
then most of them go to eat kfc. i went home. feeling guai. moodless actually.
yeah. went home then sleep like a pig. yawn.
nothing much. boring and moodless day.

i m just a selfish pig.
leave me alone.
take it as i m dead.
turn back no more.
i hope this is over.
i dun wanna see you sad.
now the distance between us
so wide, so wide.
i cant see your expression.
i cant tell.
but all i hope is that
you can forget the selfish pig here.
me.

i dreamt that you were standing beside me.
the usual thing.
like you are not there.
but suddenly you held my hand.
the feeling was great.
blah. i love you.

heart breaker?
thats what you guys called her.
i m sorry to say you are wrong.
she is fragile and needs love.
ask yourself.
who wants to break ppls heart.
*sigh*
sorry i crapping again. had a weird dream.

ok. i m totally lack of sleep. last nitez slept at 6am in the end. woke up at 8.
sigh. but heck. juz now went to meet joanne at the mrt station. hoho.
i din noe wat time to meet. so goondu. dun even noe whether i m supposed to be there not.
hah then i called huimin. hmmm. then met her. she wore a skirt. girly.
i shall learn from her. hehe. then we walked around dunno where we going.
then i went to ps. cannot find that toilet. its gone. blah. so sad. haha.
then we met huimin and went to meet the rest of our watch. *winks.*
but in the end only like 8 turn up. yuko din eat with us in seoul.
haha. ate like a pig. but not as much as the rest. coz my gastric feeling unwell.
felt like vomitting. then natalie came. =).
me and her argued abt breasts. abt who is flatter. seriously she is damn flat.
i like. but i contradict myself like make it sound as if i wan big big.
then she blur le. haha. dunno whether to think that i m a crk or a bimbo.
haha. then she thinks i m a crk i think. =/. hoho.
she is so chio and cute. took lotsa photos while she was eating.
she say i very pervert. =). too bad. she too cute to resist.
but she against crk. blah. nvm. yeah.
*anyway i saw you today. you are so cute. you were within that one km.
you are not far. quite close. blah. rubbbish. so out of reach. sigh.

ok. i m in school for nothing. sigh.
madness filled.
fun laughter peace and joy. oh well.
later meeting nanny my instructor. hoho.
and wat time m i supposed to meet joanne? sigh i dunno.
either 1 or 130. how? nvm. wat can i do now.
hahah. i took one million hours to get to school and realised i m doing nothing.
lauras hp is stolen. some tsk ppl like to steal hp for wat.
tsk. hoho. i m totally mad. now i m alone in school dunno wat m i supposed to do next.
but at least i had self reflection juz now.
though over some stuff on the way to school guess thats the purpose of coming to school. =)
gtg. good nitez for nothing. sigh.

ok... its going to 4am le. sigh.
my com gonna explode.
blah. blah. not tired still. but i m feeling unwell.
should i go to school? nvm. shall see.
good nite.

When I fall in love
It will be forever
Or I'll never fall in love
In a restless world
Like this is
Love is ended before it's begun
And too many
Moonlight kisses
Seem to cool in the warmth of the sun
When I give my heart
I give it completely
Or I'll never give my heart
And the moment I can feel that
You feel that way too
Is when I fall in love
With you

[the power of love]

The power of love is a curious thing
make a one man weep, make another man sing
Change a hawk to a little white dove
more than a feeling, that's the power of love

Tougher than diamonds, rich like cream
Stronger and harder than a bad girl's dream
make a bad one good make a wrong one right
power of love that keeps you home at night

Chorus 1 :
You don't need money, don't take fame
Don't need no credit card to ride this train
It's strong and it's sudden and it's cruel sometimes
but it might just save your life
That's the power of love
That's the power of love

First time you feel it, it might make you sad
Next time you feel it it might make you mad
But you'll be glad baby when you've found
that's the power makes the world go'round

Chorus 2 :
And it don't take money, don't take fame
don't need no credit card to ride this train
It's strong and it's sudden it can be cruel sometimes
but it might just save your life

They say that all in love is fair
yeah, but you don't care
But you know what to do
when it gets hold of you
and with a little help from above
you feel the power of love
you feel the power of love
Can you feel it ?
Hmmm

Chorus 3 :
It don't take money and it don't take fame
don't need no credit card to ride this train
Tougher than diamonds and stronger than steel
you won't feel nothin' till you feel
you feel the power, just FEEL the power of love
That's the power, that's the power of love
You feel the power of love
you feel the power of love
feel the power of love

i wanna go to school. go or not to go.
ok.... go. yeah.
hope to see some ppl then... =).

oh well. my sand fly bites are not recovering. looks like chicken pox.
jws and wens one like worse.
i wanna go see a doc. blah.
merry xmas.

oh well. spent my day sleeping.
spent till 6 plus. late or late lorz. evening 6 lorz. yawn.
still quite tired. sian... haha. meow.

haha. my leg is pain too. bleurghs. =//.
anw wat kind of nice trademark is that. so unique. haha.
btw, takecare k. esp ur leg.
bye. goodnitee. haha. takecare.
and anw, i'll pray for healing for you k. yupp. lala.

hmmm. someone asked me abt writing in the mirror image way. haha.
oh well its my trademark lorz.
then huiyi oso join in. i welcome her too.
then now its our trademark.
no copyright dun try to write in mirror image like us k.
*winks*

hey. my binge eating disorder is getting from bad to worse.
*sigh*
and my injuries hurts. stupid bone specialists.
now cancel appointment then sars thing over nv contact me.
maybe they think i die le.
oh well got new injuries. hips. my left hips. haha.
all over hurts. but i wanna train. madness filled.

blah blah. meow. i m so bored. meow.

hey. i went for training today again.
haha. i seem to be in love with training now.
getting the hang of running. relieves my stress.
realised that i still dunno got what homework.
sigh. nvm shall find out. soon.
hmmm today my shoulders hurts. din sleep properly last nitez.
coz i cant reach for the bed. oh well.
jo massaged my shoulders and back and arm and everywhere!
hmmm. sounds disgusting. haha.
but she is so great. guess i have fallen in love.
with her hands larz. haha. meow.
gonna meet nanny on mon.
i miss obs. i guess i m one of the few who still miss obs.
thats why i whole day wear obs shirt.
hehe. juz now went to holland village to had my lunch.
janice. cindy. hweeyi. yitian and me.
why am i always an amusement?
m i that funny? oh well. i have decided to be girly.
*blush*
hoho. will try. but will see my mood lorz. haha.
and juz now i took 165. lost my way.
then dunno how i pop myself in clementi. then might as well take train.
hoho. meow. why people keep asking me to watch movie with them.
i tell you guys a secret k: i hate watching movies!
reasons:
1) i hate sitting in the dark. will make me cry. depression.
2) i prefer looking at the dust particles in the light shining. looks like stars. pretty.
3) i hate sitting down there. cannot move. then if i scream for nothing. ppl will tsk. then cannot be my mad self.

kkk. crap. my menses gonna be officially over. haha. k. going to eat now. blah. =).

Once in awhile,
Right in the middle of an ordinary life,
Love gives us a fairy tale.

good morning!

blah the song below no relevance. but so cute rite. i mean you read the lines to lines really no relevance. heck haha.

It Matters to Me
by Faith Hill

Baby tell me where'd you ever learn
To fight without sayin' a word
Then waltz back into my life
Like it's all gonna be alright
Dont you know how much it hurts
(Chorus)
When we don't talk
When we don't touch
When it doesn't feel like we're even in love
It matters to me
When I don't know what to say
Don't know if it really even matters to you
How can I make you see
It matters to me
Maybe I still don't understnad
The distance between a woman and a man [two woman larz]
So tell me how far it is
And how you can love like this
'Cause I'm not sure i can
(Chorus)

believe in yourself. opps. i gonna call the girl later. sigh she thinks i m angry. so silly. haha.

Your the one in my dreams at night,
while stars shine and in my mind good things twine.
Every night I wish to see you,
to hold you and feel you.
But yet these things I never show,
I just want you to know that they are there.
For you when you're in spare for love.
And so I end in my deepest reget
that I waited so long to show my love to you.
But you mean more to me than anything.

My love for you is a journey;
Starting at forever,
And ending at never.

today had a long day. went to sch early. everyone was surprised i wasnt late again?
ok. reached at 830. rite on time. yeah. haha. paid attention. which was surprising again rite.
everyone around me was talking so loudly though. mrs kwan realised i wasnt talking and paying attention.
*blush*
hoho. then went for "class gathering" after that. sigh. dunno when is the real one coming.
oh oh. i crossed the road. jay walk i mean. was strolling when the car almost kill me.
the car was rite beside me and i dunno. everyone tot i killing myself. sigh. haha.
hmmm. me. chang. jw. nic. calx. tin. huiyi. went to long john. played murderer. haha.
so funny i actually dunno how to wink. hoho. funny can.
then i ate lotsa fries. was craving for it. long john fries rox. =).
then went to heeren. wanted to take neoprint. realised no money.
actually i got lorz. but supposed to be for my contacts.
then we went around begging all the ppl we noe around heeren for money.
got a few dollars in the end only.
so i hecked and forked out the rest. hoho.
blah. wondering how m i gonna get 90 bucks by next tues for my contacts. sigh.
yeah. then took neoprint. noe it was so dumb. 7 of us. plus ebel and max and angeline.
so many ppl. i squatted down and took two neoprints and crawled away for the rest.
someone was trying to pull me back though. ppl outside think i m mad.
haha malu. nvm. haha. calx bf was there and they went off le.
then tin and huiyi left. jw wen to wait for andrea.
saw qiqi i love her. haha. val too.
oh well me and nic then went to get her grandpa's prezzie. then i got something for someone.
haha muz design it nice. a bit late but i gonna spend lotsa time on it. blah.
then me and nic nothing to do le. went around the hotels to check out the ladies. cool hotels.
i acted like rich bimbos so funny k. then we went to all the high class places haha.
blah blah. was so lame plz. then yeah went to play with perfumes spray here and there. hoho.
then we hungry le went to thomson plaza and eat. meow.
then i ate so fast and much k. hoho.
then i sent nic home. yeah. then i called someone not home.
nvm.
hey hey. i was eating a strawberry flavoured lollipop.
do you remember? haha lame. k.

i have menses for one whole week le. wats wrong with me. sigh. dying from disease maybe. haha.

hiee. haha. just dropping by. your template is done. haha. erm. takecare. and wats wif the thing thing poem thing? haha. =).

i miss you heart and soul too.
how i want to tell this to you.
standing with you in our own world.
and tell you right to your face
"i really miss you."
do you know how i feel.
if only i have the chance.
and courage.

now my blog quite screwed. but so many ppl noe my password le. haha. thanx to those ppl who helped.
oh well. who cares abt how screwed my blog is. sigh. blah. my life is as screwed. haha. meow. i miss wendy.

hey. my bro allow me to use for awhile only. sigh. tmr going to school to update. winks. sigh. k. seeya. sigh.
[sigh.]

today no track. ended walking round in town with laura.
realised no money.
window shopping.
i wanna dye my hair blue black.
cant find such cool colour around.
all typical chestnut and brown and blah blah.
not fun. and my hair is pure black not brown.
why the whole world says its brown.
and my hair is not str8.
i permed it last month lorz. *winks*
sigh. my hair sucks.
so stop being sacastic. bleaghz.
hmmm. i wanna peirced one ear hole.
one on each ear i mean. so i will look girly.
isnt that a good thing. tsk.
hahaha. oh well wanted to go service.
but in the end my mom said its up to me.
make me so guilty.
sigh. got to go do a time table.
time is precious. i m guai. yeah.
nitez. *yawn*

some people nothing better to do.
trying to hack into peoples' life.
what for. get a life please.
if you are bored. go out with your frens.
dun stay home and be a busybody in a way.
be smart.
dun get hated.
dun do silly acts.
guess that you are juz a physco.
BUSYBODY no. 1.
[tsk.]

the life is mine.
i choose to walk this way.
now that i regret.
i will walk back.
but it takes time.
give me some time.
i will change.
i promise.
sorry for everything.
promises will be kept.
*winks*

cindy juz told me. actually theres no training?!?
wat is this.
i wanna train. but nvm. i wanna go service.
should i go? no. its can i go?
lets see...

lala. in school now.
waiting for training to start.
sian. talked to rupa.
mom was crappy.
then laughed like mad.
but ended up so disappointed with my results.
i m sorry.
i promised to study.
and i will.
really.
sorry mommy i love you.
i realised you are a great mom.
sigh.
anyway laura is beside me. hoho.
now that i promised so many ppl to study.
i will.
and mrs rupa said that she can see that i m responsible.
*blush*
haha. thank you man.
hoho. i will show that i m a responsible student too.
sigh. hoho.
train i wanna train.
cindy is here too.
*waves hi k*
haha. sigh.
my report book all f9s and e8s.
only one c6.
l1r5= 48
great rite. sigh. i m last in class. realised something. my class is the last in the level!
*winks*
i think i m great. sigh.
nvm. its a great start coz i wanna keep promises. yeah.
*winks*

the way i do shows me
i see the way you do shows me
i see the way ppl do shows me
i see everyone the same
everyone does the same
everyone are juz COPYCATS.
so go kiss the little rats.
*winks*

look. its snowing. pass me a jacket. i m so cold. haha. look. actually the air con is dripping only. dun think too much. physco.

it seems that i m turning guai bit by bit. you can see a brand new me by next term i hope. winks.

issit coz you noe that we will be here for you
so you take us for granted?
issit coz new frens are more important
so you take us for granted?
issit coz you are sick of us
so you take us for granted?

wait till the day we give up on caring for you.
your dull days will be spent with your new frens!
isnt tt good?
you have your life
we have our lifes.
you criticized the way i reacted
now look at yourself.
do you see someone familiar?

i wanna give up.
i m juz angry with myself for caring for you.
[tsk.]

"people who control their griefs very well have character."
haha i bet wen is gonna smack the ego girl here.
opps.
but i realised i dun show it when i m sad. or maybe juz too numb abt life.
life is playing around with me.
sigh.
anyway i realised i got split personality.
this minute i m mad.
next minute i m a emotional depressed girl.
i cant control myself. i juz switch personality out of the blue de.
sigh. mad me.

today i m guai. went for lit lecture. everyone was so suprised again? is there a need to be suprised. i have always been guai all my life. sigh. tmr mom gonna meet rupa. lucky principle toking to the sec 4s so she will be busy. so tok to rupa. but i think she will say somehow she sees me being enthu in the wrong thing. then.. then.. she will sack me. anyway she hates me. ok. i m quite prepared for it. haha. anyway early in the morning i was busy copying the diagrams in the bus. then i left my hp in the bus. damn. my skirt pocket too big le larz. sigh. but i remember turning back to check before i alighted. then i touched my pocket somemore. maybe i was dreaming ba. haha. yawn.

today i went for training. everyone was surprised plz. but is there a need for that. i m juz too busy with my lessons. look at my time table. i cant draw the time out for training. but i m really trying to. i wanna run. it makes me release stress. but sometimes the attendance and the stress from sir is killing me. sigh. oh well. i cant do anything. but to try my best. hmmm. tired. go sleep le. nitez everyone. =].

i m in the middle
i see the reasons
i see the meaning of every movement
i see myself crying
i m sorry i cant help
i can do nothing
i m stuck
lalala. =]. crap-ful me. meow.

i bet you noe tt i was pissed. i noe you were pissed. but we din do it on purpose. we are sorry. since you noe we are not that kind who noes wat to do. you can cry. let it out. but dun you think its juz a too small a matter to cry over. i dunno wat to do. irritating myself. knowing that i m useless all the while. tell me wat to do. i noe i get irritaed easily though i m trying not to. but i need to show tt i m irritated. then my anger will go off. i dun wanna bottle it up. and end up crying my eyes out. you all noe me the best. for all i noe i love you. plz. i m sorry for every mistake i made. sorry.

i wanna be there for you. give you a hug when you are sad. help you forget all your troubles.

i think bronte rox so much i cant stand it. i want bronte to win. my great aim. aim for the stars. winks.

hohoho.meow. sian. sian.sian. meow. tsk tsk. i love someone. winks.

Many nights we've prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains
Long before we knew we could

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seemed like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now I'm standing here
My heart's so full, I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fears
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see your way clear through the rain
A small, but still, resilient voice
Says help is very near

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

nice song rite. i love it. the lyrics are sOOoooooOO meaningful. meow.

tell me when i m wrong. so i can change my doings. dun wait till the story ends with a fullstop then you wanna change the whole story. the fullstop is there. i cant undo no more. plz tell me earlier. crap crap yawn. madness. *winks*

hey hey hey. its thinking day. meow juz had tuition. haha i miss my nu peng you wor. she pon school today. yawn. blood pressure damn low. hoho so sleepy and fainted-ty-ful. meow wat kind of language. my hair is funny plz. my frens tie till i so girl looking. anyway i told my chinese tutor tt i got 39 for my exam. he died flat. he so afraid tt my mom will smack his face. not his fault anyway. some fan club hates me. darn. i love them so much lorz. hehe. meow. anyway got to go. sis barking at the meow here. sy's pepper is a mad dog. wen's dad is a nice guy. k. end of story.

running. running. hiding. dun chase. i am running real fast. dun force me to hide in the hole. its so dark. where's the light. tell me. ok. i m numb. i shall stay in the hole and nv wake up again. dreams are dreams. but i choose to stay here. face reality some other day. i love the world. i love my dreams.

ok. chey like that only. meow. din expect it to be so darn easy. well. my world is so screwed. juz wan a blog to jot down stuff going round me so i can jolly well remember wat the hell i m doing. tsk i hate myself. anyway this blog is made by bernice. hehe. thanx to her. such a great girl. tsk. too great. hoho. i m dying. i m so confused with my life. hate me for life or let me undo the wrong. choose one. blah. whatever i m juz trying my best to undo the wrong k. so eat more bananas. meow. i m crapping my head off. fine. haiz. i go search for stuff. =].

i totally dunno how to use this. testing... meow... meow...

hEyy. meow. hahaa. =).